Kedim Karamel ve beklentisiz sevgi | my part of our diary #12 | My cat Karamel and love without expectation [TR/ENG]

Giriş:

Cok bahsetmistim, ve her zaman ertelemistim. Ama bugün kacis yok. Sizlere kedim Karamel'i ve beklentisiz sevgimi tanitacagim.

Isimin manalari:

2 kardes kediyi abim @chinesekan 2008 senesinde bize getirmisti. Dişi kediyi (ismi Poduk) bir iki ay sonra baskalarina vermek zorundaydik :( Bize geldikleri ilk gün kedilerin ismini bulmustuk. Poduk ismini @faruk abim vermisti cünkü cok yumusak, beyaz ve tatliydi ayni poduk gibi.
Erkek kedimiz Karamel icin uzun uzun düsündük aksamlegin... 3 ayliklardi bize geldiklerinde. Tedirginlerdi evimizde dolasirken, ama daha cok meraklilardi. Her yeri kesv etmek istemislerdi. Normal tabi, yeni ortam yeni insanlar vesayre...
Gelelim Karamelin ismine. Beraber oturmustuk 6 kardes ve düsünüyorduk. Sonra Furkan abim Kara Mel Gibson olsun demisti. Evet ! hepimizin hosuna gitti. Cok uyumlu bulduk ve cok anlamliydi.

1. Isime gel ya, cok havali. Kendisi de zaten artist gibi
2. Kara bildigimiz gibi siyah anlamina geliyor. Resimde gördügünüz gibi simsiyah bir kedicik. (batil inanclari olanlara bir ilginc özellik daha: dogum tarihi: 13.04.2008 , yani cuma gününe denk geldi bile ve hic ugursuz bisey olmadi, tam tersine neseli ve ugurlu dogum günü kutladik)
3. Karamel gibi tatli kendisi
4. Gözleri rengi karamel renginde
   

Özellikleri nedir?

Karamel yemek yemeyi cok sever ve her zaman karni actir. Sabahlari (yemek icin) uyandirmak icin cok zeki ve kurnaz teknikler kullanir. Kapilari aksam kapatirsan, sabah gelir ve kapiyi tirmalar sen uyaniyasiya kadar bikmaz. Kapiyi acik biraktiysan iceri girer ve oda da önemli kagit belgeleri bulur ve onlari yavasdan yirtmaya ve isirmaya baslar. Reklamlara pek dokunmaz :D Hic bir koltuk pencelerine dayanamaz. Bazen önemli laptopda önemli yazi yazarken vurdumduymaz üzerinden gekjagcjbsdkjdsbjbjskd gecer xD. Laptopun power tusuna gelir.
Her eve geldigimde benim oldugumu anliyip kapiya kosar, hosgeldin diye karsilar sonra yemek ister :) Böyle bir kedin oldugunda hic bir alarma ihtiyacin kalmaz. Sabah namazi vakitlerine yumusak ve sakin sekilde uyandirir. Bazen biraz daha erken gelir ve öylece yani basinda bekler, cok sabirli bir sekilde. Ama diyelim uyandin, ( o anlar gözünü actigini) hemen yataga hoplar , basini senin basina sürter. Insan böylece güleryüzle güne baslar. Demi ama, minik öpücükler ve yaninda guruldamasi, cok hafif ve terapi gibi uykudan kaldirmasini bilir bu kedicik.

Yetenekleri nedir? (eger elinde mamak varsa)... [mamak = kedi tatlisi]

1. Otur diyince oturur
2. sol veya sag elini verir (üzerine dokundugunda)
3. HOP diyince iki ayagi üstüne hoplar ve diger iki ellerinle senin elindeki mamaklara sarilir
4. piyano oynamasini bilir
5. balkondan kuslari yakalar. Aslinda sadece oynamak ister :S
6. evin icinde mamaklari attigimda panther gibi arkasindan kosar ve her zaman yakalar yada bulur
7. seni veya kendisini tedavi eder guruldamasiyla
8. kediye karsi korkunuz varsa onu kaldirir ( Simdiye kadar kediye karsi travma'li 3 kisi artik kediyi oksamaya ve sevmeye basladilar)
9. sanat üretir
10. cok kücük kutulara sigar :D

Kedi sevgisini bazilari neden anlamaz?

Bir cok kisi kendilerini akilli saniyor ve kedileri anladiklarini zanediyor. Diyorlar ki, kedi seni sevmiyor sadece yemegi seviyor. Ona yemegini vermez isen seni geri teper. Yemek verdigin sürece seni sever sadece. Kediler nankör'dür derler. Iste konu tam burda basliyor. Burada düsüncelerimizi sorgulamaliyiz. Yaptiklarini karsiliksiz yapmalisin. Karameli oldugu gibi seviyorum ve hic birsey beklemiyorum. Bana karsi tesekkür borclu hissetmesini asla istemem. Cok bencil bir düsünce olurdu eger bir kedi den geri dönüs bekleseydin. Kediler cok özel yaratiklar ve belki senden benden daha cok sey hissediyorlar. Köpekler mesela insanlari tanrisi gibi görüyorlar ama kediler bizden üstün birsey oldugunun farkinda. Insanlar ne ki onlar bize karsi iyi davransinlar. Hic haberiniz varmi baska ülkelerde insanlar kedilere karsi ne kötü davraniyorlar? Neden bizlere karsi minnetar olsunlar ki. Nerden biliyorsun kedilerin dünya capinda birbirilerinden haberi olmadigindan? Uzmanlar kedilerin tam nasil guruldadigini bile arastiramamislarken. Insanlar kedilere karsi nankör cümlesi daha dogru olabilir. Evlerinizin icinde fare olmamasin nedeni kediler, Sahara cöl'lünde bile kediler gördüm ve napiorlar diye sordumda akrepleri kovuyorlar dediler. Ev kedileri tüm kedilerden en feci ve öldürücü kediler olarak geciyorlar cünkü en cok farkli cesit böcekleri öldürüp yiyorlar (sinekden basla örümcege kadar ne varsa).

Geri dönelim beklentisiz sevgi konusuna. Safaa sagolsun, bunlari hiza etmemde büyük katki tasiyor. Kendisiyle ilk randevumuzda (2. görüsmemizde) birbirimizi sevdigimizi belirtdik ve seni seviyorum demekle hayatimizin en tatli duygularina yol actik. Seni cok seviyorum Safaa ❤️

Ayni sana dedigim gibi @safaax . Disarda, senin cok sevdigin park'ta duruyorduk. Ilk basta yukarida, kader kahvenin terasinda söylicektim. Senin o dediklerini tekrarlamani rica etmistim, cünkü konustuklarin kalbimdeki senelerce tuttugum sınırları ve zincirleri cözmüstü. Lavubadan dönerken ayna karsisi sanki eski tanidigim talha ile konusmustum ve onunla beraber bir karar verdik. Senelerdir kacirdigimizi gözün önüne getirdik ve asik oldugumuzdan emindik. Bu kiz benim aşkym. Gelip söylicektim, ama garson geldi ve kapaticaklarini söyledi ve bizi disari atmak zorunda kaldi :D Nasil yaparsin, nasil cürret edersin? :D Iste böyle kendimizi disarda parkin orda bulduk ve saniordum ki, oradan farkli taxi'lere binip sen ögrenci yurduna bende hostele dönecegiz. Ve ertesi gün ben almanya'ya geri ucucagim. Kararim belliydi ve veda etmeden önce hislerimi seninle paylasmak istiyordum. Icimde kalmamaliydi. Senelerce kendim ve baskasi icin sakladigim askimi seninle paylasmak istedigimden 100 de 100 eminim. Nasil kedimi kalbimin en derinden sınırsız seviyorsam, sabahlari erken uyandirmalariyla, lisans tez'zi yazarken klavyenin üstünden gecmeleriyle.. her haliyle.. ilk günden beri. Karameli oldugu gibi cok seviyorum. Ve hic birsey geri beklemiyorum, sadece beklentisiz seviyorum. Ya gözlerin icine bakarmisin, ruhun kapisina. Ya görürsün, yada görmezsin..
Icgüdümden sevdigimi hissediyorum. Bi yerde yazmiyor, sevmek icin kuralar veya aciklamasi olmasi gerek diye. Anliyamazsin zaten, o yüzden sadece yasa, sev ve paylas.
Bu yasimdan beri kedileri icgüdümden sevdigimi biliyorum, ve evet haklisin cok tatliymisim kücükken. Isterdim ki kendimi sevebilseydim o yaslardayken, asiri tatli bir cocuk demi ama ? ^^.
Cok güzel bir duygu birisinin okadar yakin ve tanidik hissedilmesi. Birbirimizi senelerce tanimamadigimiza ragmen. Bazen birisini tanimak icin dakikalar yeterli olur, bazen birisiyle senelerce tanisirsin ama aslinda hic de tanimamis olursun. Cok acayip ve ayni gökkusagin renkleri gibi bizim okadar cok ortak sevgi noktalarimizin olmasi ve halen da birsürü bilmediklerimiz ve kesv edileceklerimiz var olmasi cok hos. Bu beni cok sasirtiyor. Cok takdir ediyorum kendine nasil deger verdigine. Az kalsin kiskanicam senin kendini benim aslinda istedigimden daha iyi davranmana. Ne demek istedigimi anliyormusun? Negatif manasi tasimiyor tabiki bunu bilmeni isterim. Beraber gezilere ciktimizi hayal ediyorum ayni senin dileklerinin oldugu gibi. Lütfen araya hicbir sınır koymuyalim, ne gümrük siniri, ne vatandaslik sorunu yada her hangi baska kisitlamalar problemleri son durak olarak görmiyelim. Dünya'yi mi gezmek istiyorsun? Istersen basarabilirsin, beraber daha kolay basaririz. Önemli olan, sınırlarımızı ortadan kaldirmak. Cevrendeki ögrendigin yanlis seyleri unut, yeni ve dogrusunu kendin ögren. Mesela avrupaya gitmek imkansiza yakin mi? Evet belki zordur, hem maddi yönden hemde sinir sınır cizgilerinden dolayi. Ama soru seklin her zaman böyle olmali: Nasil yapabilirim? Her zaman bir yol vardir, yeterince denersek dogrusunu buluruz.

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Intro:

today I am going to introduce you my cat KaraMel and the love without expectation.

What's the background of his name?

The first evening when he arrived with his sister (Name: Poduk, later Stupsi) they got their names. They were 3 months old and started to discover our flat. They were bit frightened but more curios about the new environment, new people. After a lot of idea's and minutes of thinking about a name for the black cat it was finally my brother Furkan (@chinesekan) who had this suggestion to call him Kara Mel Gibson Gürlek. We said like yeah! this is good! this is cool and fits perfectly and has so many meanings.

1. C'mon its really cool name , like an artist, he acts like a star and is cooler than Mel Gibson.
2. Kara is turkish and means black. As you can see in the picture he is a fully black cat (who has birthday on 13. of April 2008 ) .
3. He is just as sweet as caramel !
4. His eyes look like sugar in caramelized form.
   

What makes him so special?

KaraMel loves food and he is always hungry. He is so smart in term of waking up someone (for food), begging for food or begging for attention (for food). He scratches some important documents, scratching doors if you close them or scratches every kind of couch. Sometimes he is just walking on your keyboaisahfiusnadkjngkjsg while typing. 😀
When I come home, he always knows it and runs to the door and saying hello (do you have food?). He is the best alarm a human can need. He wakes you up exactly at the time for the morning prayers in a very soft and smoothy way.. He can be very patient and just sitting in front of you and when he recognize that you are already awake, he jumps to my bed and touching my head with his head. You can just wake up with smiling if something sweet and soft kisses you in the very early morning. And his purring is sooo relaxing, its the best therapy I know.

What are his talents? (if you have food/ treats in your hands...)

1. He can do "sit"
2. he can give his left or right hand
3. he can make "jump and stay on two back paws" to take the treats with his other paws
4. he can play piano
5. he catches birds from balcony 😔 he just wants to play actually..
6. he is very talented in catching treats when I throw them through the flat, hunter like a puma panther
7. he can heal you and hisself
8. he can take away your fear against cats ( already did with more than 3 people)
9. He can create art work
10. He fits in very small boxes :D
    

Why no one can understand the love between us?

People think they are smart and that they understand cats. They say, he doesnt love you, he loves food. If you dont give him food he would show you just his backside. He loves you as long as you give him his food. They say, cats are thankless. That's the point ! Here you have to change your mind. You do what you do without expectation. I love Karamel the way he is. I do not expect that he is thankful. How egoistic would that be to expect something from a cat. cats are so special and maybe know or feel much more than you. Unlike dogs, they dont see humans as their "gods" so they dont do the things a dog does. They know / feel existence of something bigger and higher than humans. What are humans that they should be kindly with us. Do you have an idea how many people mistreat cats all over the world? Why should they be thankful, how do you know if cats cant send their knowledge or experiences to each other over the world. Scientist couldnt even investigate properly the function and the origin of purring. Humans are ingrate towards cats. Cats are reasonable that no mouse is in your house. Even in the desert they were used to fight against scorpions. Home cats are the killer number one regarding the victims art types from flies to spiders.
So back to love topic. It's same as I said to you @safaa. When we stood outside in your favorite park. First, I was thinking to say it at the top of our karma place, I wanted you to repeat the things you said which just opened some blockades inside me that hold me from loving. I had some seconds in front of the mirror and saw what I missed all years long. So, in front of the mirror I already said it to me. I knew it that moment. I lofeely her. So, I came back but the waiter throw us out 😀 how could you? how dare you??? 😀 It was then outside.. and I thought first, we would take a cab from this place in front of your garden. So, I decided that I would like to say it out loud what I thought. It was the last day before I had to fly back to germany from my morocco vacations. It shouldnt stay inside me, just like it did years long. As I love my cat from the bottom of my heart with everything, even when he wakes me up very early or disturbs me when I write something (even during my bachelor thesis it was nice when he added his notes to my paper. Maybe that was the reason why I got the best grade 1.0, yeah ) . From day one to everytime I will love Karamel how he is. I dont expect any return, I do just love. Cmon look into these eyes, through the gate to the soul. Either you can see it or not.
I love just with my instinct. It is not written, there are no rules or any explanation which could described it. You cant understand it so just live, love and share it.
Since I was at this age I had this instinct and loved cats, and yeah youre right , I was really cute when I was young, I wish sometimes that I would sooo likely cuddle my younger me ^^

It feels so nice to feel so close and known even if we dont know each other for years. sometimes you need just minutes instead of years to know someone.. sometimes you know someone for years but actually you dont. Thats amazing that we have a full rainbow of common loves and another side which is still completly undiscovered. Thats amazes me and you : ) I am fascinated how you treat yourself, that makes me crazy. I am jealous about you treating yourself better then I want to treat you 😀 do you understand what I mean? ^^ Its does not carry a negative meaning.. thats important that you know it 😃 And I hope that you will be a part of your recommendations. I see us together travelling... I know you plan or you want to travel alone you said, but we could also separate us during our trips.. and find each other like in a game 😀 so, please do not put any borders, or governments or any other restrictive lines in front of you .. you want to travel the whole world? then you can do it, we can do it even together ! Its very important to be limitless. Put away some limits you learned from your environment that it is unlikely to go to europe for example. Yeah maybe it is hard and difficult and financial even more harder. The question should be always: How I could do it? There is always a way, we just to have try a lot and find the right one.

Here a list to start from the beginning of our journey...

@talaxy diary	@safaax diary
#1 First Mail start here	#1 the beginning of our sunshine part 1 continue here...
#2 uncomfortable tasks step by step	#2 the beginning of our sunshine part 2
#3 lovers of sunset and shooting stars	#3 the begining of our sunshine part 3 Now, start from the right side...
#4 classic and tradition	#4 the begining of our sunshine part 4
#5 are baby panda's born to have fun and sleep?	#5 I'm not a dream or imagination
#6a climbing to the top of a sanddune in a desert & #6b struggle to discipline and keep a dream diary!	#6 Do not go gentle into that good night
#7 Craziest rain experience in my whole life	#7a Marrakech my favorite city & #7b RAIN
#8 cat connection	#8 cat lovers
#9 progress and evaluation	#9 an old kid with a broken heart
#10 one lofeely story	#10 three stars
#11 fear is an illusion	#11 fear
you are here	#12 nice to meet your soul
to be continued...	to be continued...