SEX ADDICTION FORGIVENESS
Continuing with self-forgiveness on the point of sex-addiction.
- This post is a follow through from the reporting shared in, Day 3 - No Smoking - I'm Finding So Much Suppression..."Shame" Everywhere
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to accept that I need and require sex on the regular at all times.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for defining myself worth in regards to having sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing sex to be an outlet for the suppressed buildup within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to glorify myself within sex.
I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding just how extensively I've been controlled and influenced by sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to shape and plan my life around sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making sex like the number one primary point of my existence...as like the big chess piece that everything else fits around.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for being defensive and even offensive about my relationship within sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for hiding the reality of my relationship with sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to delude myself within sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sex to be like this experience that is more than me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to mind fuck myself and my life in regards to sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having justified a fucked up relationship within myself with regards to sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how defensive and resistant and just down right stubborn in self-denial I've been with regards to question and challenging my relationship within sex and my relationship with others.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for existing within and as an addiction to sex...where it's like justified that I need a partner or partners at all times.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for justifying polyamory as a solution to feed my secret sex addiction that's existent since childhood.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make sex to be like this secret and taboo thing.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding onto guilt in regards to sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for thinking that sex is key to me in my process of self-realizations and that I can support others through having great sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for having been possessed rather extensively within a sex addiction.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing the specifics of my self-compromise without all my previous serious intimate relationships....where the fuck up was me and my relationship with sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for never really considering how fucked up some of the things were in my childhood with regards to sex and how that shaped me within having a warped relationship towards sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to participate in sexual promiscuity.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've been like this closest junkie within and as how sex has existed within me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to not realize and understand my self-worth....my self-value....my self-regard.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for MASSIVELY suppressing my self-worth.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to brag about sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be so inferior within sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be apologetic upon finishing in sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to the realization that I've been so fucked for most of my life within how I've existed in relationship to sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to blame my parents for being careless in the way they raised me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be angry with my parents for me having gone through a lot of fucked up experiences in my life.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for living in a bubble world that's only populated by my thinking...and my sexual appetite and preferences.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to disregard my body within sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that the way I care for and heal myself is within sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not once ever really considering that sex has been a coping mechanism for all sorts of suppressed shit/baggage.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how extensively I've arranged relationships from the starting point of sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding what a distraction sex has been from living my utmost potential.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making this massive deal about sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for manipulating and deceiving in order to get sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've been very OCD within and about sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how I've used and depended upon sex to fill non-sexual emotional needs.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for making sex about self-acceptance and me fitting in and being good enough and worthy....and just experiencing myself as fulfilled.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for having rationalized and obsession and possession towards sex as like it being this natural thing that everybody is obsessed and possessed about to a certain extent.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for downplaying the possibility of sexual addiction within myself.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for judging myself as superior in regards to sex and that anyone who has a sex addiction is inferior...and that's not me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perpetuate myself in a state of inferiority with regards to sex that's been masqueraded around as a point of superiority.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to perpetuate everything that is wrong in the world within and as how I've excepted and allowed sex to be a point of coping and providing me comfort and solace for my early child hood traumas where I accepted myself as bad and guilty and not deserving.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding just how limiting my existence and outlook on living has been as a result of me being obsessed and possessed by having and acquiring sex.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for resisting to challenge and or question the fact that I've always believed that I need and require sex as like a primary point of me being this dude here.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to initially go into a panic in recognizing, 'holy shit...I've been playing out a sex addiction for like most of my life....and it's been fucking everything up!'
Realizations
I realize that sex in and of itself is fine...and is in fact cool. It's all about the starting point, "Who You are within it".
I realize sex can be a most awesome thing - it really depends on the relationship with myself.
I realize that making sex to be about anything other than sex is futile.
I realize and understand the importance of questioning and challenging our relationships in all ways best.
I realize when there's resistance to questioning...and writing about the thing - this is an indicator that there is in fact self-suppression in relation to the point in question.
I realize the relationship with ourselves is paramount to the overall quality of our lives and our ability to share in fruitful relationships with others stems from our equality and oneness here...and that starts and stands with self-acceptance.
CHEERS TO NEW BEGINNINGS AND BEST REGARDS
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I love how you ended the post, it felt you you were being baptized and cleansed of your sins / carnal thoughts.
ohhh and by the way - thanks again for introducing me to Jesse Livermore...had took note of all the publications you shared and went way into a bunch of stuff....was cool to learn more about his life.
the interesting thing I found with him...is that it's like he was always wrestling with his emotions...like he was quite good at it....but at the same time....he was kicking his own ass....and I think that's ultimately what lead to him blowing his own brains out.
Definitely going to write a post about him
No worries, yes he had all these rules, but at times, he didn't follow them, which lead to multiple blown up accounts. Agree with you, in trading you don't trade against other traders or algo, you trade just against yourself.
Look forward to your post on Jesse, I may write another one about him after yours and like yours to mind.
hahaha - Thanks Dude....I totally never thought of it like that.....but going through all my shit has been like a massive weight being lifted from me.....from like my face...to all over my upper body....so ya, feeling really good!
Wow!
That is a lot of vocalization that probably would be cathartic for anyone to repeat. Lots of good healthy proclamations there. Mastering our minds a bit at a time.
Also nice to see another successful steemian with Manna in the signature line. Seems to be popular with the self-aware crowd here.
Glad I stumbled upon your post and I will dive into some of the other posts to discover more.
Thanks!
Heyyyy!
Really Cooool to connect with you too!
I look forward to tuning into your shares when I get a free moment later today - The very best of regards!
I like how this post was about forgiveness and not about guilt. I feel like we do the best we can at the time with the tools we have. Growth comes a bit later and we need to forgive ourselves when we reflect on the past in order to move forward. This was written very well.
Thanks Brother - your feedback is indeed appreciated!
Great post @worldclassplayer
I like the ending section of this post.
Always forgive ourself, and think that which is good and bad.
We are the only one who create our destiny with our "Karma"
So be good and stay happy.
Always help others.
Thanks @worldclassplayer for sharing this post.
You have done your job in right manner absolutely class of post you share and ended with great note weldone really awesome description on sex issue and forgiving aspect you present with lot of efforts nobody can avoid the way you have describe here for your entrance in sex stuff everyone have in sex sense living but cant or dont want to express its addiction possession realization towards sex so you did its simply great
That is true, the best way to enjoy sex healthily is knowing yourself well and accepting yourself, putting certain limits or barriers to not fuck everything as you say. Good post friend.
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You have enough knowledge about self awairness that's really good lines you look like you psychologist..you have enough knowledge how to blame yourself and how to managed🙂
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