The Schizoaffective Guy & How The System For His Support Is Designed to FAIL + Sigil

in2itiveart (69)in #palnet • 5 years ago (edited)

I invite you all who have been following this story to redraw this sigil and pray for William, thank you (I decided to make a heart but because I have made heart sigils that look like this original one over and over, I decided to make it unique for William, since he is, UNIQUE!!!)

I changed the Sigil because it is likely that William does not want to be housed - because it's boring and it requires too many responsibilities - so I want to let him go and be free, but I want to continue to pray for him and pray that he is safe in his Schizoaffective state - so when he comes out of it and wonders "what happened" ? He's still safe.

They gave him some new meds at the hospital - which are not fucking working - who cares?

This morning, I got a call from the Housing Authority. This is the first call I have gotten back from them since December 19. I have been calling them and faxing them to keep them abreast of what's going on - in order - to keep William housed through this process of this flare-up of his illness...

This morning I get a call from "Anthony Perez" who is the head honcho over there- and he is just calling to tell me that he's been transferred to another department and the new boss that I should be sending to is "Roxanne Farnsworth".

That's all. Nothing more.

I filed and incident report with our building property management company on 12/16 - haven't heard back from her about anything and William's butchy case manager Monica has only let me know

That they are blocking my texts now, they are not helping ME, and my only recourse is to call the Police.

Whereas, in the beginning, when William went through the Domiciliary, Valor Point, and we were all working together as a team - that is the PAST and now we are in a new set of rules - because democracy is a violation of Natural Law because Monica cannot re-present Chris. Only Chris gave a shit about William and Monica only gives a shit about whomever.

Now - I am out of the loop.

This is why DEMOCRACY does not work. In the beginning all of the team members were presenting themselves and all had their hearts in the game, but now - there is a new person installed and she is a re-presentation of the old team-member and has no allegiance to William. He's just another weight on her over loaded caseload.

And therefore, the ONE BAD APPLE ruins the whole barrel.

That's why God has to be the Ultimate Authority.

I talked to my Spiritual Advisor this morning. He told me that I have to be careful not to try to govern William. He's like the little old lady I am trying to drag across the street. She does not want to cross the street - she wants to stay in the median - and if I am going to be her true servant - then I can stay in the median with her to protect her - but if I try to drag her across the street,

where I think she will be safe

then I am serving myself. He said,

"William grew weary of the 'boredom of respectability'" -

and his illness has taken over and has decided that it's easier to live on the street than it is to have to be responsible and make decisions. This started when I had the accident and called him and asked him to do a bunch of things to help me and Kent. Up till that point, I was making all the decisions but when

a later vicissitude

came along and rocked our boat - he did not want to step up to the plate so he rebelled and the meds stopped working. His emotional being said

No!

and his liver processed the Depakote differently than it had been these last 5 years.

He's been this way his whole life, probably, even before the accident at age 21, being that he was alcoholic prior to that. So he is making decisions based on what makes HIM more comfortable and likely he will end up back on the street as a result of them, happily blaming everybody else for it, but at least he will feel more like himself. It's easier for him to live on the street and survive than it is for him to be housed and be bored.

For me, though, I prefer the boredom respectability to the craziness of the rollercoaster of his illness. I have to get away from him and get to higher ground so that I can help him later if he needs it or not or help others - and just be ok myself - get well from the Sciatica and all that.

The Story Book Version

https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-the-true-story-of-2-people-who-needed-help-and-helped-each-other-chapter-1
https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-the-true-story-of-2-people-who-needed-help-and-helped-each-other-chapter-2
https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-3
https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-4
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-5
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaidchapter-6
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaidchapter-7
https://steemit.com/tribesteemup/@in2itiveart/the-yeti-and-the-mermaid-chapter-8

#tribevibes #mentalillness #mentalhealth #psychiatry #psychology #anarchy #democracy

5 years ago in #palnet by in2itiveart (69)

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