Freewrite Day 585 Nest
Nest as a prompt makes me think of “empty nest,” the phrase for parents living at home after the kids leave. I knew I would never have that. I was always planning to get out of where I raised my son as soon as he was grown. That was never my place and I never fit in there, or had strong connections to it. I was ready to leave long before I did.
Mommy was going to go “see the world” after Caleb grew up. I said it many times and he always knew this was the plan. He still did not believe it when I left and he was 22 and still not grown. I thought he would go off to college and then I would leave, but that sure did not turn out.
He has not had an easy time of it since about 13. I stuck around as long as I did trying to help him, but that was not working at all. I am the cause of his ptsd, and he can’t be around me for very long. Finally, I decided I just needed to go for both of us, come what may.
I do not regret that decision. I have mom friends who also left, and mom friends who stayed. The ones staring at rooms their kids no longer live in sometimes get really sad. The ones that left sometimes wish they could see their kids more often.
I’m pretty sure I won’t see my son again. I will be surprised if I do. I don’t think I was too good of a mom, and I hope he can have a good life. My empty nest is in my heart, so it really does not matter where I go.
My post is for the #freewrite daily challenge by @mariannewest. Freewrite is a great way to post on steemit when you do not think you have the time, or talent, or anything to say. It’s a great way to start regular posting on steemit. I know you can do this too! Here is Marianne’s freewrite prompt post for today. Give it a try and surprise yourself.
= =
Minnow Tips!
My Newest Minnow Tips Updates:
General Ideas of how to do better on STEEM
Places to comment for Upvotes and More Goodies
Who will upvote my posts when I am new on STEEM?
How Can I Solve My Low RC Problem on STEEM?
Using @dustsweeper on STEEM
Enter contests on STEEM and win!
Do your replies fast with with SteemReply
You should be freewriting if you are a blogger
Here is my last big minnow tips post before the update if you struggle here at steem.
These tips can help you even if you are not new.
Monday Minnow Tips for Everyone from @fitinfun
Contents of the Above Post
What should I do EACH DAY on STEEM with low power?
What to do with your STEEM
Are you shooting blanks with your votes?
Should you use an autovoter?
Join qurator
Do not post to nowhere
Why bother to comment?
How and Why to use kryptonia
How to get Upvotes
For Twitter Users
How and Why to lease delegated sp
Curation Trails
Using Discord
= =
dApp Reviews
All recommended!
ginabot
esteem
Share2Steem with Twitter Tips
Tasteem Restaurant Reviews dApp before I used it
Tasteem Restaurant Reviews dApp with tips to do better
And here is an update on @fitinfunfood. I just started this blog in Jan 2019, so you can find out what I am doing to grow my new baby here:
fitinfunfood Update Post
More about using SBI:
https://steemit.com/esteem/@fitinfun/my-steembasicincome-update-spoiler-i-love-sbi
Great post from @brittandjosie, with all kinds of help for new people. Definitely worth clicking every link!
Please Help Me Keep Helping at STEEM
Please follow my blogs:
@fitinfun
@fitinfunfood
@bxlphabet is my son's blog, and I am so grateful he has returned.
We all post on Busy most days, where their upvote for us is based on the collective SP of our followers. We all follow back, because we love you. This is the power of STEEM.
Put my blogs on your curation trail
@fitinfun
@fitinfunfood
@bxlphabet
I login to magic-dice daily and roll one time. Is this giving me luck and good fortune? Join me and try for yourself!
https://magic-dice.com/?ref=fitinfun
= =
How is your journey to better health going?
Is your fitness equipment out handy? Are you on a "diet?" Soon we will be in Bathing Suit Season. Are you ready?
I lost "Half My Size" eight years ago by using natural methods. No tricks, just doing a bit better every day. I started on October 10 one year, and did not give up. Four years later, on October 5th, there I was - thin and healthy for the first time in my life. You can do it too!
This is Sharon @fitinfun. I am posting:
Healthy Food Ideas on @fitinfunfood
Motivation Minnow Tips and Everything Else on @fitinfun
@bxlphabet is posting Southern California, dpolls and song lyrics.
Please follow along or contact me directly if you would like some individual help with weight loss and health. Anyone can do this if I did.
= =
Minnow Tips!
My Newest Minnow Tips Updates:
General Ideas of how to do better on STEEM
Places to comment for Upvotes and More Goodies
Who will upvote my posts when I am new on STEEM?
How Can I Solve My Low RC Problem on STEEM?
Using @dustsweeper on STEEM
Enter contests on STEEM and win!
Do your replies fast with with SteemReply
You should be freewriting if you are a blogger
Here is my last big minnow tips post before the update if you struggle here at steem.
These tips can help you even if you are not new.
Monday Minnow Tips for Everyone from @fitinfun
Contents of the Above Post
What should I do EACH DAY on STEEM with low power?
What to do with your STEEM
Are you shooting blanks with your votes?
Should you use an autovoter?
Join qurator
Do not post to nowhere
Why bother to comment?
How and Why to use kryptonia
How to get Upvotes
For Twitter Users
How and Why to lease delegated sp
Curation Trails
Using Discord
= =
dApp Reviews
All recommended!
ginabot
esteem
Share2Steem with Twitter Tips
Tasteem Restaurant Reviews dApp before I used it
Tasteem Restaurant Reviews dApp with tips to do better
And here is an update on @fitinfunfood. I just started this blog in Jan 2019, so you can find out what I am doing to grow my new baby here:
fitinfunfood Update Post
More about using SBI:
https://steemit.com/esteem/@fitinfun/my-steembasicincome-update-spoiler-i-love-sbi
Great post from @brittandjosie, with all kinds of help for new people. Definitely worth clicking every link!
Please Help Me Keep Helping at STEEM
Please follow my blogs:
@fitinfun
@fitinfunfood
@bxlphabet is my son's blog, and I am so grateful he has returned.
We all post on Busy most days, where their upvote for us is based on the collective SP of our followers. We all follow back, because we love you. This is the power of STEEM.
Put my blogs on your curation trail
@fitinfun
@fitinfunfood
@bxlphabet
I login to magic-dice daily and roll one time. Is this giving me luck and good fortune? Join me and try for yourself!
https://magic-dice.com/?ref=fitinfun
= =
How is your journey to better health going?
Is your fitness equipment out handy? Are you on a "diet?" Soon we will be in Bathing Suit Season. Are you ready?
I lost "Half My Size" eight years ago by using natural methods. No tricks, just doing a bit better every day. I started on October 10 one year, and did not give up. Four years later, on October 5th, there I was - thin and healthy for the first time in my life. You can do it too!
This is Sharon @fitinfun. I am posting:
Healthy Food Ideas on @fitinfunfood
Motivation Minnow Tips and Everything Else on @fitinfun
@bxlphabet is posting about STEEM dApps, dpolls and song lyrics.
Please follow along or contact me directly if you would like some individual help with weight loss and health. Anyone can do this if I did.
Greetings, friend @fitinfun.
The nests are not eternal. We can see the birds, they use their nests and then abandon them. Then we found empty nests in the trees.
Seeing an abandoned nest will always be a sad scene.
But the children will grow and leave. Forever.
In both cases you will always feel sad. But life goes on.
In fact, all this is part of life itself.
All best, Piotr.
Yes, I think my little bird is long gone, and I need to find a way to have peace with that.
Thank you for sharing your posts with us. This post was curated by TeamMalaysia as part of our community support. Looking forward for more posts from you.
To support the growth of TeamMalaysia Follow our upvotes by using steemauto.com and follow trail of @myach
Vote TeamMalaysia witness bitrocker2020 using this link vote bitrocker2020 witness
Congratulations @fitinfun! You have completed the following achievement on the Steem blockchain and have been rewarded with new badge(s) :
You can view your badges on your Steem Board and compare to others on the Steem Ranking
If you no longer want to receive notifications, reply to this comment with the word
STOP@fitinfun I am one who looks at the empty rooms and wonders where did the time go. I miss having my kids at home. I do hope you get to see your Son again, but I do understand. I have two sons who moved far away and I miss them terribly I do hope I get to see them again.
It's hard to be separated, but hopefully they find a good path on their own.
You never know. The empty nest might be in your heart and so does love!
You might be the cause of... you will never know for sure. If he would have been different you might have been not. Human mind, character, etc is all a part of it. Can be he needed it to grow and find his way and so did you.
Staring at ceilings is boring I know by experience!
Posted using Partiko Android
I agree. I always want to be seeing new things. He has been diagnosed with ptsd twice and both times I was told it was because of my poor health and near-death experiences when he was young. He can barely be around me without freaking out, so I think I really am the cause.
Might be or the fact it is said many times you are makes him freaking out.
But keep in mind there are many kids with same or worse experiences and they do not.
I hope you both are happy now and free 💕☘🌞
Posted using Partiko Android
!subscribe
This is fiction, right??
Your handsome son in photos with you isn't named Caleb, right?? (Wishing I could remember such things or at the least be able to track down details more quickly!)
As a mother of musicians, I was hit hard
by the departure of the flock. Live music, especially acoustic instruments and voices, are NOT THE SAME on the VCR or out of electronic speakers. Not at all. Our son's upright bass sent vibrations through the wood floors and made the house hum with life and vitality. Who are the mothers who don't miss their offspring? Not the mothers of musicians, I'm guessing, unless theirs played heavy metal and not much else.
If there's any truth to this freewrite, I can only hope Caleb and his mother reconnect. :)
Well done!
✔ Hi @carolkean, you have just subscribed to @fitinfun!
From now on every new @fitinfun post will be automatically rewarded with 0.05 SBD or STEEM from your @tipU deposit. First subscription reward has been sent :)
Subscribe and increase the reward for @fitinfun :) | For investors.
Sadly not fiction. I'm trying to work through a new paradigm.
Thank you so much for the tip subscription, @carolkean. Please tell me more! First I have heard of it.
"Tips are small amounts of SBD or STEEM that are send to other steem users. Sending a tip is a great way to reward a steem author, especially if your upvote is very small." Better yet,
"Tips don't drain your voting power!
0.05 SBD/STEEM may not seem much but every steem author can have many subscribers - in this situation he will receive combined reward from all subscribers. The nice thing is that the subscription rewards are sent instantly after the new post has been created so there is no need to wait 7 days for post reward.
The obvious downside, when comparing to upvotes, is that you need to pay the subscription reward from your funds."
But I'm still trying to figure out how many Steemians I can "subscribe" to and "tip." And I haven't done this yet:
please feel free to ask in the comments or join the discord: https://discordapp.com/invite/NDh35gx :)
I will look into this for sure. What a great idea. Thank you so much!
You are sure to figure it all out long before I do - and I'll enjoy learning from you, as usual. :) (Someday people will learn something from me!)
I'm sorry you feel you won't likely see Caleb again - and sorry you believe you failed him as a mother. I hope you're mistaken and that the rift can be healed. And that freewriting about it helps.
Yeah - I am doing my best to get this meltdown over with. But I think we have come to the end no matter what. It's not something that can ever be fixed. I'm working it out on my food blog more that here, but I am a bit obsessed right now.
🏆 Hi @fitinfun! You have received 0.05 SBD reward for this post from the following subscribers: @carolkean
Subscribe and increase the reward for @fitinfun :) | For investors.
Hi @fitinfun!
Your post was upvoted by @steem-ua, new Steem dApp, using UserAuthority for algorithmic post curation!
Your UA account score is currently 5.026 which ranks you at #1086 across all Steem accounts.
Your rank has dropped 3 places in the last three days (old rank 1083).
In our last Algorithmic Curation Round, consisting of 320 contributions, your post is ranked at #94.
Evaluation of your UA score:
Feel free to join our @steem-ua Discord server
Congratulations! This post has been upvoted from the communal account, @minnowsupport, by fitinfun from the Minnow Support Project. It's a witness project run by aggroed, ausbitbank, teamsteem, someguy123, neoxian, followbtcnews, and netuoso. The goal is to help Steemit grow by supporting Minnows. Please find us at the Peace, Abundance, and Liberty Network (PALnet) Discord Channel. It's a completely public and open space to all members of the Steemit community who voluntarily choose to be there.
If you would like to delegate to the Minnow Support Project you can do so by clicking on the following links: 50SP, 100SP, 250SP, 500SP, 1000SP, 5000SP.
Be sure to leave at least 50SP undelegated on your account.