Challenging Love to Be Unconditional - PART 78
“If you love something, let it go. I
f it comes back to you, it’s yours forever.
If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be."
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I tucked a few little notes in his luggage like I had done on his other trips away hoping he would think of me and remember our love when he happened upon them.
I felt so deeply his leaving me...
leaving the Garden of Eden...
leaving our life...leaving our love...leaving everything we had built together.
I drove him to the airport to catch a plane to Tucson, just as I had driven my was-band to the airport to catch his last flight away from our lives together. We didn’t have much left to say, but my lap quickly became soaked as the tears stream down in constant flow. I paid no attention to the puddle as it was nothing in comparison to the gaping gorge that was bleeding inside my chest.
We pulled up to the departures to unload his belongings, and turned to look in each others eyes one last time. I could barely see him through my tears but I could feel the intensity of love never ending. The pure love that I felt from his soul made me steady on the inside, while my body was only capable of succumbing to the vibration of my over stimulated nervous system.
He reached over to touch me. I burst into sobs, though I tried to keep from completely losing myself in him, knowing there would be nothing left of me if I let myself go. He pulled me into his lap We wrapped ourselves around each other, feeling the love that was beyond words, beyond the senses, beyond imagination. I was filling up even as I was emptying, knowing for certain that our love was much deeper than the sharing of ourselves on this physical plane.
He would likely never again call me Lambkin
or gaze again into my soul.
I would likely never ride on his back,
or wrap my legs around his waist immersed in a deep, voluptuous kiss. I may never travel with him,
lie next to him, wake up next to his beautiful spirit, put my head on his chest, have our heart beats in perfect sync, puzzle our bodies together in perfect form,
receive acrosage from him, rub our heads together to make the sound only we could make, or feed each other with our fingers. We may never build another garden together,
dance under the moon,
make love in the most surprising places,
give each other a massage or even touch each other’s skin.
We may never run our fingers through each other’s hair, lie in the sun, create art together,
host events together, create a one-of-a-kind meal,
soak in the hot springs, laugh uncontrollably together,
immerse ourselves in nature,
fall asleep in each others arms,
take photographs of and with each other,
get silly with each other,
watch movies together, gift each other a sunset or sunrise,
camp in silence,
create magical alchemy together,
sing or make music from our souls together.
We may never live in peace, harmony and eternal love together.
In fact, we may never even see each other ever again.
“If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, it’s yours forever. If it doesn’t, then it was never meant to be.
Wow, I wanted to cry while writing this post. I can still feel the intensity of my ideas of finality, of all or nothing, of limited love, and of losing the best thing that ever happened to me. I'm so grateful for opportunity to reflect, to have grown, to stay connected, and to share.
Thank you for reading my blog and for going
on this journey with me toward Unconditional Love!
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This is more than a write up, it's like I'm watching a movie. I was reading it and I was feeling it as if I was there when the whole thing took place.
It's not easy to loose the one you claimed to love, but letting them go at times would help us to discover how much we meant to each other and if indeed we are meant to be together, they will surely come back to us.
I can feel your emotions while reading it too.
The most beautiful thing about everything is that you guys are still going together despite so many reasons to go your separate ways.
I knew those reading it would be able to feel it as I felt it deeply while writing it. I feel energetics are encoded in words, music, photographs and other creative works which is why many of us are moved by the expression.
Letting him go was one of the most difficult things I have ever done as I already knew how much we meant to each other. The difficult part was letting go while knowing that and watching him opt for something he felt was better.
I believe we have had many loves together this lifetime alone It is so amazing to feel so deeply the soul of another and to also live a life of love that can look to the outside conditioned world as if it were something else. Grateful for your feeling this eternal love @emmakkayluv. That is a testament that also shows so very much about yourself! Grateful for your being here.