Challenging Love to Be Unconditional - INTERMISSION NO. 5
RE-ENGAGING THE INTENSITY
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Though my story continues to intensify and my lessons became even more potent in my face, I give thanks for the opportunity to feel SOOO much, and to continue to stand in the power of love.
Our footprints together!
As I’m going into some detail in writing this blog, I am re-experiencing some very touchy emotions. It’s like I’m reliving this entire journey again...some of the physical feelings (like “having a sharp, fine tipped, red hot poker stabbing my heart”, as well as “opening myself to experience his fullness, and found myself lost in him, so comfortable, and deliciously immersed in the power of his love”) are surfacing.
I've been able to write up to this point without releasing tears down my cheeks, though I have had some tears well up, and some lumps in my throat, as well as interesting external circumstances that require me to dig a little deeper! Through these blessed tests I have built my character, delved deep into the depths of my existence, and been faced with repeated discoveries of the ugly parts of myself - almost unbearable tests at times to face.
I thought I would move in balance through these writings, having faced all of these things in the physical realm already. But obviously I still have some tender spots that are getting triggered, or at the least receiving some friction. The intensity of feelings during those times was truly magnanimous!! I had never felt so much, my heart reeling in extremes of emotion. The potency of engaging it all again seems to be peeling back more layers, letting me see where I have healed, and where the scabs are being scratched off of my wounds again.
I am grateful that I am stronger, that I am finding my way back to loving myself even more, and that my experiences of life have been so rich and full. I wouldn’t trade a day of this intensity, even though at times I've been in such great pain that I wanted to run away. I’m grateful to reactivate this journey, and become more capable now of holding myself accountable to BEing unconditional love!
A heart in the hand!
My heart fills with extreme gratitude for @quinneaker for holding such impeccable space for me. For never giving up on me even when I was too dense to understand, when I was being obstinate, fearful, unloving or blameful. And for lifting me up while acknowledging my strengths, continuing to help me see my weaknesses, traumas and dysfunctions, and for always unwaveringly helping me find solutions by tuning into the infinite blessings of eternal love.
(Oh....and BTW, he doesn't do this just for me--that is who he is!)
"Those three words are said too much, they're not enough!"
---with you ALLways @quinneaker!
Thank you for reading my blog and for going on this journey with me toward Unconditional Love!
Stay Tuned for Part 61
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A big thanks to Quinine for making the best out of my darling friend @everlove.
Not all men are men in the real sense, but you have proved yourself to be one of the best.
Real men are interested in growing their women by making them better and happy. You did all these there in the past, you are still doing it now with a promise to continue in the future. You are indeed a man.