_{It has been a little over a month since I last took a moment to reflect.}
Where the hell am I? Where am I going?

I'm not sure...

We can have a look at where I've been though.

Enjoy the show.

It's Not What it Looks Like

I Somehow Managed to Survive Another Winter

^{I'll start there.}

A winter in Canada is hard on the system.

Some of you may have noticed I've been fighting to stay alive this past month at least. I miss a cold beer in the sun on a hot day. That's probably one of my favorite things in life. Just relaxing. I want to be at the lake or riding around on my dirt bike making noise and having fun.

I don't want to sound like a downer. Usually I'm an upper, or at least try to be. It's a battle though. I've always been affected by what some call winter depression. We're like plants in a way. We need the sun to grow and stay healthy otherwise we whither up and die. With so much darkness and being forced to stay indoors most of the time, it's easy to go crazy. It's easy to feel like crap. Some people have to fight it. Others? I don't know. Maybe they take pills or took acting classes.

Magic Explanation

I released that image up there to go along with some of my humorous writing. What a good day that turned out to be. With 260 votes, I broke my previous vote record of 242. I guess part of that is luck. It still felt good though. I felt like I achieved something. I didn't purchase that attention. Many of you know I'm not comfortable with buying votes. How am I supposed to know in advance which combination of art and writing should be promoted? I don't. I don't really want to talk about that stuff though.

Doesn't Fit

I produced that image while taking a break, in a sense. I remember being what some might call overly generous with votes and ended up killing my vote power. It took a few days of testing my discipline to be able to bring that power back up to it's full potential. It was nice to see so many of you still leave comments knowing full well I wouldn't be offering you a bit of spare change for your time.

Mental Break

Yes. I had to take a few of those breaks recently. More often than not, I'll spend a few hours producing the art, more time writing up a post, and even more time responding to nearly every comment that comes my way. If you look, you'll see I have well over 9000 posts. Majority of that comes from me responding to everyone. I enjoy it. I love talking to you folks after the show. It takes a lot out of me but I think it's important to at least make people feel welcome. Sometimes, especially lately, I haven't been able to respond. Thanks for not taking that personally or thinking I was being an asshole. I'm not ignoring anyone if you don't hear back from me. I'm most likely exhausted or trying to keep up with the next posts flurry of incoming words.

A Picture of What I Did Today

Idea

Depressed Batman

I hit my goal of 20000 Steem Power shortly after producing those. My approach to blogging about art is quite unique in this world. I believe that has something to do with what some might call my success. I guess the best advice I can give anyone is this: They don't want to follow just your art, they want to follow the artist. I've known this from the start. Even if you're one of those bloggers out there who picked a topic to write about, just know, the people aren't following your words, they're following you. When we look around and see so many who simply share information without adding a personalized touch, we also see them struggling to get noticed. In most cases, they're not being themselves.

Be yourself. It helps.

This

It Again

That

Seriously

Someone Behind You

Two-Faced Cat Lady

The Nasty Cold

Mohratard

The Apology

Point Across

Not Going Back In There

Head

Couldn't Think of a Name

I Think You Can't See Me

Sinking to the Bottom

It's Just Squiggly Lines

I have seasonal allergies to life...

^{Yet I still managed to do all that.}

Last March, I was gone. Needed a break, so I took a break. How I'm still here this March, pushing forward, trying my damnedest to get somewhere when most days I naturally feel like I won't go anywhere... Well, it baffles me.

I guess, deep down I know I'm still enjoying myself. Still having fun. Yes, there are problems in life. They like to take center stage sometimes.

People who used to work for me would come to me with problems quite often. I'd always remind them how easy it is to focus on that 1% of life that doesn't seem quite right. I'd remind them how it's only a distraction from the other 99%. The good stuff. Looking back, I guess it's probably a good idea to remind myself of that now. 99% is enough to say it's all good, I'll be fine.

Thanks for putting up with me.

Have a nice day.

Credits: _{All art and images seen here were produced digitally, by me. "It's not supposed to be easy." [email protected]}

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