How To Gain Your RIGHT For FREEDOM, The Tenability Of What You CAN Do Anywhere, ANYTIME!
There is nothing more valuable than the privilege of freedom to do what you want to do and this anytime. It should be our lifelong goal, to reach peace of mind, independence, emancipation, liberation and redemption, urging for more flexibility accepting our differences, striving for more compassion and courage until the end of our lives and beyond. Absolute freedom and happiness might be possible and I am on a mission to prove it through intentionally changing habits.
Cocoon Photograph by Scott Sawyer
The grandmother of all plants showed me the purpose why my soul was put on this earth and how I can break out of a cocoon I built around me. I saw clearly how real freedom would feel, how it even looks like in a psychedelic vision. Golden strings of triangles and circles guided me into a bright loving blue light where our secret dreams can be fulfilled without limitation.
We deal with too much control left & right, rules and laws, some good, some bad. I broke some and I might be called arrogant, reckless, selfish and maybe even a criminal for some things I did (I will not get in details about this part yet). I was and always will be a rebel and fight against any kind injustice ( Dog in Chinese sign ). I believe nobody should be allowed to limit our purpose unless there is a good reason to do so.
Wale Idris (African Views) said : Let me expand the analogy of fish. If you can eat fish, not allowed to fish for no good reason, then someone is infringing on your freedom. However, if there is a good reason for not allowing you to fish, or puts a limit on how much fish you can catch...
So, I will share some random thoughts after introducing you to my FUCK IT list first, hoping you do yours as well. I can assure you of a wonderful relieved sensation when finished.
We have the right to fuck it all if we want to, at least in writing, in our free minds, as Andrea Balt on www.rebelsociety.com suggested in one of her courses. I made my list a while ago and Oh dear, there are a few too many on mine. I planned to send it off per email one by one but at the end I actually did not need to do so anymore. Read more here : Fuck it number 1: I don’t worry about how others perceive me
@cheetah, Please leave me alone this time because I quote and also promote whoever I wish to.
What Is the Fuck-It Bucket? Good question.
The Fuck-It Bucket is a rhyming mantra of magic that will revolutionize your world, if you let it.
Let it!
The Fuck-It Bucket is a tongue-in-cheek, heart-in-mouth philosophy of life that will improve your future, if you permit it.
Permit it!
The Fuck-It Bucket is a no nonsense, hilarity-promoting, adventure-assisting, stress-relieving framework that will enhance your existence, if you allow it.
Allow it!
The Fuck-It Bucket is the bastard child of Shit happens and Don’t worry, be happy.
Yes I agree, just as Andrea said about a new life philosophy: "I’m not sure what else to say about the Fuck-It Bucket, except that I can’t imagine my life without it."
This list helps me to let go of things holding me back to reach my ultimate potential.
Back to my friends Wale Idris quote I saw this morning on Facebook :
Freedom is not only the right but also the tenability of what you can do anywhere anytime.
What means Tenability?
Since I am not native english speaking, I am looking for new vocabulary to learn to understand my friends thoughts better.
Source : 1. capable of being held, maintained, or defended, as against attack or dispute:a tenable theory.2. capable of being occupied, possessed, held, or enjoyed, as under certain conditions
The following discussion was interesting of course. At first, I wanted to write my reply but I changed my mind quickly. Why would I even think of commenting on this platform who is cashing in on our content? It seems like a waste of my time when I can write a whole lot more and just plaster these arguments with my steemit link, my new fun because I am free to do so. Most of the time I am hesitant, limit myself and still hold back due to privacy issues I question. I don't trust social network much, I trust my pets more than human beings, wonder often why I used it so frequently. I have livelong, nearly obsessive trust issues in general not wanting to expose my true feelings and thoughts to strangers. I cannnot deal well with criticism and strive too much for approval, the perfection searching virgo in me, I guess. There might be the day my writing skills will be good enough that I let go of all insecurities.
Blockchain technology gives me more freedom or what do you think ? Doesn't it ?
What used to hold me back to feel free?
I lost my focus to nurture my liberal thoughts and free mind many times, instead I found my heart tight up, my hands and feet paralysed, incapable to follow my passions I once was so sure about. I cried a lot, cleansing my bruises and scares with those tears, deep cuts I could never heal ever, I thought but I kept on trying to forgive and move on. Allowing my sadness was the catalyser of creativity. My ambition manifested into a bi-polar character , "You are too much " I heard from a few. I would go to extremes finding myself exhausted and then, shortly after craving some long time-outs to gain strength again. I was unstoppable in my efforts to be successful and had nothing else in my mind than pleasure and financial security. I did not wish to have children, I did not even wish to be married. The thought of commitment scared me and the thought alone of wearing a white dress in church made me wanna puke. Black was the only "colour" I felt comfortable to wear.
I was flattered and attracted by talent, beauty, intellectuals, artists, musicians and dreamers, also weirdos, wished to be their muse and also sponsor. I could not imagine a life without surrounding myself with Art and interesting people. I would be bored otherwise.
"Forgive and never Forget " as many spiritual masters advice, did not work for the "stubborn me ". I wanted to forget all painful incidences damaging my healthy, innocent mind I once had. I was very young, too young to be robbed of my virginity and my inner child. Things got too serious and my days to come filled with fears. I was blind for a whole month being mentally as well as physically abused. My eyes burnt. I could not remember details for most of my life because I pushed this shocking moment far away. Yes, It sounds strange how is this possible but I cannot talk about this experience yet. It was brutal and one of the saddest times for an early teenage girl.
I sabotaged my happiness and my right for freedom subconsciously. The awesome times in my relationships never lasted longer than one decade before things got sour. Cheaters, liars or I simply never met the right one. I don't mean to say all was bad , not at all but it always ended before marriage. The more I started healing my mental damages the more I felt liberated.
I numbed myself with all kind of drugs in those wild days, not to escape but to face my devils of guilt.Why guilt? It was more like shame and at the same time I did not give a fuck ! This sounds like a twisted head and oh yes, my head was confused and on fire so I started hiding behind a colourful mask I painted myself. I would create religious rituals putting this mask on, ceremonies of joy to slip in different personalities. It was so important to get out of my own skin, to look at myself from another angle. I put my protection shield and would take it off when I was alone. Meanwhile I was waiting desperately for a moment to find somebody I could trust enough to show the real me. Only once, I felt a deep connection to a man but immaturity on both sides made it impossible for an illusionary soul connection to become reality.
Masks by my little sister Sophie Akkineni for Maskullery
I had many painful moments to deal with but I am proud where I find myself to this moment! I am walking on razors edge alone, it seems to be a pumpy road but a new and more fulfilling path.
I made many mistakes in the past and jeopardized this privilege of owing the right for my freedom. I finally realised that there is nothing more important than my life, except the life of my daughter. I finally figured it out that it is ok to be selfish because it feels so great to see yourself with a big smile, knowing that you are capable to loosen all chains you put on yourself. I allowed societies rules to limit my desires to be the woman I am proud of . Have you ever heard the word " woman crush "? I have secret crushes on so many admirable women more than men. You might think immediately that I could be lesbian but I am not. I am actually not so sure what I am because sexual preference is unimportant. Sex is not, UNCONDITIONAL LOVE still is!
Leave your, maybe self-built cage behind and fly away......Freedom is a precious gift to treasure.
I am in the process of braking my cocoon of an unsatisfying partnership, too many superficial friendships, overwhelming financial challenges, diverse cultures demanding my commitment, disappointing motherhood problems and critismn of my family I love more than they think. Life is ours to be guided into happiness we all deserve, nobody should be allowed to take our freedom of speech and choices. Anybody who wants to tie me up or down and stops my compassionate, caring heart for our planet, nature, all living beings and art should and will be avoided. I have hopes for humanity. As long as we wake up every morning , all is GOOD!
I enjoy Life so much because I always loved riding those Roller Coasters.
Tie me up - Tie me down - A comedy from the 90's by Pedro Almodovar
PLEASE, DO NOT HATE MY OR ANYBODY'S FREEDOM!
YOURS
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Deep sigh...Amazing how you've led me here to this beautiful place mammasitta, amazing how this post got here before me and here it is evident in our discussion today 3 years after, you are truly fulfilling your calling by being a medium of inspiration and true freedom that never wax's old.
Amazing to see my teacher Rok sivante here,...amazing to see all this wonderful responses, this post contains a beautifully heavy message, this post deserves to be on the blockchain that stays for life, thank you again for linking me here, guess what, I'm taking that fuck it step this moment mammasitta, it's amazing how in 3 years our lives being spared, I will remember this moment in this post.
Lately I've barricaded my thoughts with how I could be more rather than living and getting to know more of how I already am, it has been making me chase things that are only consuming my time and end up leading me nowhere rather than how I would have been more productive spending it on thing which I already love to do.
It has restricted my freedom of expression which has affected my creativity, it's like forcing myself to live on the top of two worlds, and its that time to say fuck it. I choose to be free, and freedom transpires, once it has been truly embraced in the mind, it will resonate through every other of one's energy.
Glad I caught this frequency, you're amazing. I've got so much to learn through you.
Exactly...
I just felt my balls get bigger! Thanks man
FREEDOM!! Here I come..
Thank you!!! 🌺
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REALNESS.
Alot of powerfully soul-shaking reflections in here...
Your feedback means a lot Rok, you know it ! I put my damn soul on a plate and some of the scattered thoughts will be turned into their own stories . I am still practising . See you soon for the big day . I wear black.
You're one of the select few wedding attendees :) That is quite an honor to be a part of such an interesting and fun loving couples lives.
Yes Ben , I am honored to be invited and of course I only joked about wearing black because that's how I used to be but not anymore .
@mammasitta speaks! That's a powerful writeup! Thanks for doing it.
The trick to IDGAFOS (i don't give a fuck or shit) is not to think about the IDGAFOS lol.. And personally, I never expect too much out of people - this helped a lot. Thanks! This post alone already gave me 2 post ideas ;)
oh wow @kevinwong what an honor to get your attention.I admire your writing and thinking skills so much. Subconsciously you became a teacher. You are a bad ass writer. I am learning so much on this platform, especially to let go and I also found out what IMO and IDGAFOS , all that stuff means lol . I am not a good dry reporter though .Anyways so glad I inspired you this time . Can't wait to read more from you. I expect the most of myself , therefore I always want even more from others. Can't help it.
What.. i'm just another guy :) Anyway, @dollarvigilante and you alone have given me a month's worth of post ideas.. just when i told @rok-sivante that i'm running out of things to write!
Recently i've been taking my posts too seriously.. but i really enjoy talking about abstract ideas..
I felt exactly the way like you thinking I have nothing really to say but the moment you start getting into some thoughts , it starts rolling like thunderstorm and to be honest I could have made 3 stories out of that one , way too long anyways . Be fun ! serious fun I mean
We are lucky to be able to even contemplate our freedoms. In general, in free societies, we take for granted our freedom, and often are searching for more. And we should. So many places around the world degrade basic humanity, and these are the people/places who are without freedoms. And it is not only sad and heart-breaking, it is the root of the world's unrest.
(Did this even make any sense? I think I need more coffee ;-)
oh yes , it makes sense for me because I know I am lucky to grow up in Austria and not in a country where people still have to fight, keeping their homes and families safe .I need some coffee after writing all this. Nice to meet you and thanks for your comment.
You reminded me on "fuck that meditation")
you speak my mind haha >>>>
https://steemit.com/music/@mammasitta/what-the-fuck-hackers-on-attack-or-who-wants-to-be-the-most-wanted-by-the-fbi
For you @rok-sivante :)
breathes out
Fuck that
Ahh, feel much better now =P What a great meditation
Even though English is not your first language, you write with a passion that far outweighs any grammatical errors that may occur.
I loved the entire idea of the fuck-it bucket and I feel you really evolved, like a caterpillar to a butterfly free of their cocoon.
I like you also trust pets more than most people. If you haven't read my post about how much I loved and trusted my own dog Caspian, I would love for you to read it when you have the time. How My Best Friend Saved Me From Suicide
You have clearly been through some difficult experiences in your life, and like many wanted to escape from the walls that those feelings trap you in. Most find a vice whether it be drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling or risky behavior.
I'm glad that through writing you have found a new freedom and hope you find the courage to share some of the hard things you have gone through. (For me it was therapeutic). I was actually the secret writer here Secret Writer Piece I gained a lot of confidence once I saw how caring the community is and wasn't even upset when one of the users pieced together that I was the secret writer and displayed it for all.
I looked forward to seeing the different dimensions with which you will write as you continue to learn about the English language and yourself.
I think I can speak on behalf of steemit and say "We are glad you are here @mammasitta! You add a lot of value and insight to steemit."
Keep up the heartfelt work :)
Thank you so much for your kind words empowering me to continue to write more . As many of us I deal with difficult times but I can wholeheartly say that I live an exciting life so far and do not regret one moment of it . I am open for all lessons to be learned . I just read your doggy story and will continue reading more . You seem to be a wonderful young man .
Thank you. While I enjoy the money here, the real reason I want to build my reputation is to help some charities and friends that in need far more than myself. There are some incredible programs in Africa that I would love to educate others about, but unless you are established as trustworthy, you have next to 0% chance of gaining any support due to the high potential for scamming.
I will attempt to write from the heart about what the missions I love do and what the money would provide at different levels. In America at least, we have far more than we need. It is hard to stomach some of the selfish greed we harbor towards material goods when there are people who are starving and dying due to the basic necessities we take for granted.
I'm not sure if the posts will be of any success, but I will be as transparent as possible to prove that I do wish to help people. I have thought that people may give me the benefit of the doubt due to my reputation and give generously and once I prove that the money indeed was sent to these organizations, that future writings would allow me to give even greater sums to those in desperate need.
But whether or not this works is yet to be seen.
You are such beautiful young man ! Keep it up ! Sorry for my late reply but I feel a bit boring , not so inspired and overwhelmed preparing to leave for Europe after my break up . It's not easy after 16 ! Years
Well even though we have never met in person, I count you a friend and whenever you need support you are welcome to reach out to me (and probably many others here that you have touched with your blogs and kindness)
@bendjmiller222 thank you so much because your words and offer for friendship mean a lot to me . I am going through very difficult emotional times .
I just read @dantheman post I saw today and it inspired me to surrender to reality understanding I am on the right path .
Here is what I replied :
I have nothing left to loose but my life and as long as I wake up every morning I am reminded that I am on a mission as well trying very hard to surrender and accept reality .
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Thank you for such colorful comment Roman
BEAUTIFUL! I loved this so much! It reminded me of these Random Thoughts (RT) we used to write in high school. Deep meaningful and to the point. I read to the end, and that is rare. Keep inspiring people. Please. Much love. Peace.
I feel so humbled to read your comment.Sometimes I am not so sure what I am doing hahaa ....I only remember my German teacher saying once that my essays are way to emotional, long and all over the place. I did not write anymore since then but then there was steemit. I am back! Its very nice to meet you and I am looking forward to read more from you as well. Will follow.
I absolutely love the way you write. There is a #steemitwriteoff going on until August 22 at midnight. If you would the details or to just support the writers, please upvote my post. All proceeds that I receive will go to the winner. Hope you are able to join us!
Oh what a nice feeling to hear you like my writing while I am still insecure about it because so new to express myself in public . I am very interested in your project . Please remind me and let me know what link to upvote and watch . I have a chat group #mammasittas join there if you like