It is OKAY to ASK for Help - We (almost) NEVER make it on our own anyways.

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I have been holding on for almost a year now. I had to.

Sometimes I wonder where the strength come from. I praise God for holding me up this long.

But sometimes, while prayer takes care of the internal, we still need to work on the external. So today, I have to humble myself, put my guard down and just try to ASK.

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RM193.65, yup! that’s the balance in my emergency account at the moment. And I am not getting paid for the previous work that I have worked on until (at least) mid of January! It’s not that much but may be able to cover some crucial needs.

School will reopen next week, I have a few bills to pay at month end and I am palpitating.

When you are reading this, I am still trying to figure out how to survive at least until middle of January 2018, and it is not even 2018 yet!

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Asking for help is hard. It always seem like a taboo to ask for help, especially if you are an Entrepreneur. We taught ourselves to look tough on the outside, keep smiling even though deep down we are crumbling. We were afraid to be seen as hopeless. Good friends will ignore us and pretended they didn’t know about our predicament. It’s a painful and lonely feeling. I don’t cry in the open, but deep down I was hurting like hell.

Just a couple of weeks ago I met with an old friend that confessed to checking in into a psychiatric unit to seek help with her depression. Her husband’s business went down the hill since March this year, he was depressed and didn’t want to seek help even if he comes from a wealthy family. All of a sudden she has to fix the problem for him. She got caught off guard that she didn’t know where to start. Judging by her predicament, I don’t think she could stand in my shoes for more than a day. At least I know that her husband can still bite the bullet and be humble to seek his family’s help – IF he want to. But me?

I didn’t come from a rich family, nor do I inherited any money when I started my small business. I bootstrap all the way, but still, it is hardly enough to move ahead. Everything I earned goes back into the business and to family commitments.

And then (lesson well learnt!) a bad partnership came into the picture because I was too naïve and thought they are able to help us grow. The tragic part is that our partnership didn’t even make it to a one year term and I had to end it as we no longer aligned in our objectives and expectations.

This has affected the plans that I had for my 2 year old business and I am literally stuck. Not only that I am saddled in a partnership that I am trying to resolve (hopefully to resolve by Jan), my current reserve is drained too.

So how do I fix this pronto? How do I break this vicious cycle?

Wait, first thing first, how much do I need at least for now just to get by?

A lot of emotions come gushing in like a great tidal today.

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2017 has been a year of terror for me, so deep that it left a memorable scar in my memory. I have been too busy firefighting, settling debts and just trying to keep my head above water in 2017 that I sigh with relief that this vicious year is coming to an end soon. 2018 may seem to be just another year to some, but to me, symbolically it gives me new hope.

I need to press the restart button. I need to recreate life again. This small business is the only rice bowl I have and I am determined to make it work.

Therefore I am putting myself on the line, trying to find out if seeking help via Steemit platform is possible and see it for myself if it really works.

I have no idea how much can I gather from this platform as this is my first (and hopefully my last!) attempt and I am afraid to put any number (trying to be realistic at the same time) at the same time, so I leave it to the Steemians generosity and hopefully there will be kind hearted people out there reading this post.

One thing for sure, we will all have our ups and downs in life. And we will certainly need people to help us out in times of need. Nobody can tell exactly when trouble is coming. And to help others doesn’t really need a reason to do so. We help because we want to. Today is my day, who knows tomorrow is yours.

The only thing I can promise you if this ever happen to you is these (if you are on Steemit platform too):

1. If I hardly have anything for myself, I will Upvote & leave comment on your post so at least you can get some Steem $ there;

2. If I have a lot of Steem dollars to spare and able to donate more, I will transfer some Steem $ to you.

If you want to drop me a kind note, you are welcome too!

Whatever action you take will definitely bring me hope and make a difference. The purpose of life is not just to be happy but to be useful, honorable and compassionate. No one has ever become poor just by giving.

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I promise to update the outcome of this posting and in the meantime, will leave everything in God’s good hands.

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So who is Angiechin28?

Angie is a Mom with a mission (with a 10 year old daughter, 6 overweight cats and an overgrown baby man, ie: Hubs) is the Founder of HerPortal.co, the first online platform in Malaysia that connects & empower Women & Moms to affordable online learning (coming soon!), shareable contents, job opportunities, resources and go-to market opportunities to earn side income/sustain via tried & tested channels.

She discovered Steemit by accident after reading a friend’s posting on Facebook and decided to check it out because she’s too curious (not kaypoh ahhhh..) to find out exactly how it works. Since then, she never looks back.

Since she loves to post up her ramblings and contents (current fave is Facebook & Instagram), she might as well earn by doing so by posting up on Steemit’s platform and best of all, it’s the only online platform that she knows allows ANYONE to earn cryptocurrency by creating and posting up contents, by voting or commenting other people’s contents and so much more!

Bottom line, whatever you do on the platform, you will earn. How cool is that?

So, what are you waiting for? Sign up for Steemit already, it is FREE and you’ve got nothing to lose but an awesome opportunity.

Current tagline: You live only once, take the leap and discover where it brings you!

She is reachable at [email protected].