I feel you! hug and pat pat on the shoulder, you have done well to walk thus far. Believe in the all mighty, he has the best arrangement for you, no matter how worse the current situation is, you just have to believe, we might not get the answer right now, but it will be revealed one fine day, and you will understand why all this happen. Someone has ever tell me this, we should feel blessed that we have the courage, the opportunity, the experience in doing startup, not everyone have the privilege, have the choice. I understand that women, we are bunch of emotional gang, but after we rant, we should look out to find the way, keep moving is the key. This is what always motivate me, hope it help you too -- Winners never quit and quitters never win!