So, this day didn't start well. Too much stress and all of it deriving from Steemit - and my faulty computer which I need to replace asap. The question is...

Does it worth it?

I joined Steemit 9 months ago. Just like a pregnancy - with the ups and the downs. A reminder here, this was my intro post:
https://steemit.com/introduceyourself/@meanmommy33/finally-made-it-to-steemit-so-excited-to-be-part-of-all-this-as-a-multi-path-and-not-psychopath-yet-haha-artist

Drawing by @sethlinson -one of my favs!

I got to Steemit thanks to @creutzy (same as our real life friend @sebi099p) and at first it was just a fun blog experience.

But day by day, it became a full time job[but not with the earnings of one - even though I do work VERY hard]

Lately I'm thinking that maybe it's time for a break.
I am on steemit or e-steem and discord literally all day long, coordinating, getting informed, working and even arguing sometimes.

It is exhausting.

I rarely have time lately to do anything else - or to talk about anything else. And there are very few people I can talk to since most people I know are not in crypto or steemit.

But let's take it from the start.

So what do I do on Steemit?

Writing my own personal blog

Vastely neglected lately, I do still have my personal blog. I started only with Photography but slowly I expanded to other subjects such as matters of love, poetry, talks about life and also crypto and steemit sometimes. I don't have much time to do that as much as I used to anymore. I am not that involved at @spaminator as I used to be though, so there's a pause there at least. I am also on @utopian, Steem Romania and Promo-Mentors but not very active there to be honest.

Some of my work

I am Nikon!

Curating Favorite Steemians

I miss people on this platform. I don't have time to check my favorite Steemians anymore and that makes me super sad because I still wanna see what they're up to... @daveks, @ocrdu and @outerground (my fellow lefty!) the photographers, @prakashghai the minimalist, @tarazkp the philosopher @inber, @tattoodjay and @yusaymon the artists I promise to catch up soon [whatever that means... :( ]

Curating Italian content for @ocd

Being a curator for @ocd is not as easy as it may seem. Especially with the latest changes, we all have to work harder. And don't get me wrong, I love it! Finding and sharing quality Italian content is a blast -authoring not that much though, especially for an HTML newbie like myself... Other than that, I'm more than glad @acidyo chose me back then and I get along with most of my colleagues @anomadsoul, @mk40, @macchiata, @mariska.lubis, @elteamgorgo, @guy-fawkes4-20, @ma1neevent, @fukako -just to name a few!- and of course my fellow Italian curator @sardrt !

Creating quality content for @sndbox

@natureofbeing, besides a true steemit friend and a super active steemsugar, put me in @sndbox - and I'm grateful! I met @hansikhouse during @steemfest in Lisbon and it was a start of an amazing journey! At least I put myself into creating contect for my own blog so that works! For now... But even that is more demanding than it seems. Not that I ever posted garbage...but still, to follow some rules and create PROPER content is not that easy.

My baby: @steemsugars

This is the latest post to have a better idea of what's this about:
https://steemit.com/steemsugars/@steemsugars/a-steemsugar-recap-after-london-meet-up
I created this group, account and discord, after Steem Fest. It was a much heavier idea than I thought.
I shared it with @immarojas, @teodora and @osm0sis [the gals from Steem Fest, now Representatives] and later on with @stellabelle [who introduced me to @aggroed's Steemit Queens], @patrice [who started interacting at @spaminator and offered precious admin help when starting @steemsugars on discord] and @natureofbeing [who is now Head Curator and Mentor] - my mentors, technically, in here. And I did it! The group is now counting 160 members -and I have to deal with it almost all by myself, which is fun but very stressful.

Lisbon: where it all started rolling...

My goal is still to bring more women to the platform, therefore we're almost done with the promo video with @rocking-dave (you're amazing!), preparing an interview tomorrow with @redrica (now Coordinator of the group)
I wanna mention so many girls but it'll take well...probably 160 pages haha... I am still making changes, the best I can to keep everyone happy, even though it's extremely difficult...Especially when I have to keep up with posts of 160 people! -and try and curate as much as I can :/
We are also launching to all Social Media this week -let's see how that goes. My last meeting in London with some of the sugars [and boysugar @colossus39] went more than great in order to motivate me/us do more!

If any girl feels neglected, please try to understand me and don't hold a grudge - yeah?

My other baby : @copensteem

I am a bit behind on this one but I do plan to get the date straight soon.
Oh yeah, let me do a recap --> This is going to be the first official Steemit meet up in Scandinavia, in Copenhagen, in April -so it is kind of a big deal.
I need to get much more into that soon in order to be on time since February is almost over.

We -with @creutzy- are in a search of a venue and ...program of the day/s here.
The problem is that there are not so many Danes on Steemit so we're 'collecting' crowd also from Sweden and -why not- Norway and Finland (@acidyo + @tarazkp WE NEED YOU HERE!!!)

It still needs a lot of work so I'm wondering how it can be done - stress stress stress !!!!

Judge at @daveks's Black and White Photo Contest this week

Ok that's only this week and REALLY cool since I haven't done it before for photography (only for @oscarcc89's Christmas painting contest once!). I guess since I am not doing it alone it won't be THAT hard but still we need to check all entries during the week and choose our favorites :) GOOD LUCK to everyone participating by the way and MANY THANKS to @daveks for choosing us [with @creutzy]!

And last but not least...oh yeah...REAL LIFE!

Since I am on unemployment benefit here in Denmark after my Master's I have to do some job applications and workshops per week to have the right to keep getting it. But you know, proper - so we're talking at least an hour each. Oh, and we should never forget my Danish classes - to master the local language...

I haven't seen my best friend in 10 days now because you know...stuff... And when I do see her, I wanna talk to her about steemit because I'm bringing her here...

My 2 best friends in Copenhagen, Elena from Greece and Xiao from China - from my New Year's Party, soon to be joining Steemit!

I don't go out that often, but I still sleep at least 8 hours/night - otherwise I think I'll collapse.
Sometimes I don't wanna get outta bed. Sometimes I don't wanna eat - or I eat too much.
Today there was a misunderstanding with a friend of mine on the platform and it took me 2 hours from when I woke up to actually have my 'morning' coffee.

I know what we mean by REAL LIFE but for me, sometimes, Steemit IS real life buuut it gets in the way of my actual one.
It's overwhelming.
It's panic attack-y.

It's just too much - for me at least.

I'm trying my best, most of the times and it seems like I still do it wrong.
I will explain what I mean...

What angers me on Steemit is that I see people moving forward so fast with shitty content, or plagiarism, or 'friends in high places', or by buying SP, or because they were here first even though not that special, when I myself got here ONLY with my hard work, dedication and LOVE for Steemit.

This is so unfair and frustrating - really now.
Then, arguments? Well, of course there are. That's the most normal and less stressful thing in here actually, because it happens to all 'workplaces', 'communities' or how else you wanna call Steemit ;)

As I said, I never started for the money, and I still don't do it for the money. BUT, when I have to deal with health/financial issues of the two people I have left in this world as family back in Greece (mom+grandma) well yes, it kinda counts.

Sometimes I wonder.

When did all this happen... When 9 months went by and now I'm that into it? What mistakes did I do? Who did I offend or from whom I got offended?
Talk is cheap, at this point. The only thing in my mind is that I should take a break. Can I though? Will I? Should I? You got me.

Hmmm....does it work that way...? Source: Google quotes

So the question of the million dollars here is........

## What do you say? I'd love to hear your answer! And also your views about how you deal with stress on Steemit. And not that he'll ever answer but....

What do you think @ned?

Until then...as I always say (with a bitter smile this time...), whatever happens, don't forget to smile!

Yours

MeanMommy

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