I Will Miss You @Lauralemons

in life •  2 months ago

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I'm really in shock right now, While I knew my friend Laura was struggling a lot, I was happy for her! I knew that she was finally able to start going to doctor appointments, And Steemit was helping her pay bills. This was so unexpected and heart breaking.

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Laura has always been such a great friend to me. I remember seeing her art randomly on Facebook, And I loved her art, So I added her as a friend all creepily. Hoping she'd accept my request so that We could discuss art!
Of course, she accepted, and we've been talking ever since!

I always admired Lauras Creative projects! Like holy cow! She came up with the coolest stuff, and made the cutest little drawings for her shirts! They are so unique.

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We told each other about business opportunities, And I got her to join Steemit! We also showed each other shirt designs and got each other opinions! As we both were working on building a T-Shirt store! We even talked about all the things were going to do, When we were "filthy rich" And how we would enjoy life having what ever we wanted! I was excited to see all of our shirt ideas take off :(

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Even though I have never met her in person. I chatted with her on Facebook a lot! And she helped me through a lot of rough times that I was dealing with earlier this year.
While I didn't fully understand everything she was going through, I did my best to give her emotional support, And help her find more opportunities to better her life!
I'm so shocked and confused about this. Things seemed to be getting better, and this caught me by surprise :(
Even though I didn't even know her in person. It's amazing how close you can get to someone just online! I miss her already :( I Was hoping one day we'd be able to travel together. Or at least meet in person.

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It breaks my heart so much! Deep down I'm really hoping that this is some sort of really sick joke.
It's so sad how random suicide is. We all knew she had made attempts. But I really thought with her cutting back on alcohol, going to those tough, but helpful doctor appointments, And her really focusing on her dietary needs that she was crawling out of this hole she got stuck in for so long.

I really wish I could of helped her more.
She even made this cute drawing for me :(
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Laura I will miss you! I really hope you are with Befnie! Hopefully with nothing holding you back <3
I'm glad she isn't suffering anymore! But at the same time I wish she were still here to help change the world with her art!!
I Hope one day I can see her again!

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She was a fighter. It's beautiful to see so many people who knew her express how she touched their lives. I never got to meet her in person but we talked a lot. Thank you for posting. All I want right now is to tell the people I love how important they are to me, and connect with other people who remember her exactly as amazing as she will always be. So thank you. Love you Laura, we miss you

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Right? She made a big difference, Even just through the internet. I wish we all could have met her in person :( I also wish I appreciated her more! It's sad how we sometimes take people for granted.

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@kaylinart
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

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I had tears in my eyes when I heard about this , I hope she knows how much everyone loves her. We never know how much we love someone until they are gone .. may she RIP. Steemit has lost a great asset

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Right? I'm so heartbroken and confused right now :( I keep hoping someone will be like "Just kidding". And all of it won't be real.

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Reality really hurts ..

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It does :(

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mam i agree with you

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@journeyoflife
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

Oh my gosh, this makes me so sad. I found myself holding my breath while reading your post, in hopes it was not about what I thought it was. It saddens me deeply to hear another soul has been lost this way. I will ever be grateful for her motivations to keep trying on my posts, and to make a better life. Just a few days ago I was going to repost a post I had done on suicide. I don't know if it would have mattered. I wish there had been some way for all her friends here, to keep her going. My time was short on knowing her, but will miss her very much. My condolences to you and the Steemit family, while we all try to process this. @lauralemons may you R.I.P

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Right? When I found out, I was sitting there hoping that I would read a "Just kidding" Or something.

Who knows. I feel like many of us are left wondering if we could have done something to prevent it from happening. Maybe if more people contacted her last night. But sadly you never know with these things. And it really sucks.

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I agree, and the not knowing is always the hardest. I hope to God that no one ever uses this as a prank post. I truly wish there had been more we could have done, even if it meant someone be with her via Steem all night. Just one night may have pulled her through. It saddened me when I had read about her struggles in her posts. Am sure she is saddened, to see how sad she has made us all. The struggle is real, when people care about you.

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@pixiehunter
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

Laura was one of the few steemians who helped me out when I first got started here. We always engaged fantastically on posts, and while I did not get to know her as much as others in the community did, every comment, every post she made was a part of herself.

She will live on in the blockchain.

As I said in alexbeyman's post, in the comments, I would love to see us band together and (once we're done grieving), build a lauralemons tribute / art prize for steemit as a way of honouring her memory.

Something large, something special, that we can all get behind. Something annual, maybe, for this very day, in a year.

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What a lovely idea. And "she will live on in the blockchain" - a powerful concept.

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@kiligirl
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

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@pixiehunter
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

This is so sad. :( I actually found her on Steemit and talked to her because of the picture she drew of you above! I too was inspired by her artwork, and I wanted to chat with her. While I didn't know her as well, I learned of the constant pain she lived in. Super sorry to hear that we lost her. She will be missed.

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@karensuestudios
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

Im very sorry to hear the bad news from our fellow steemian. It saddens me to hear this situations as i have encountered a lot of a similar situation. I really dont know who to blame if its healthcare ir supports system or psych meds. All i know is this has been happening everywhere and there must be a better way to cope with depression, other than going to a family doctor or a psych doctor to evaluate you in a matter of 10 mins and would recommend you to take a certain med thats suppose to cure you of depression or whatever type of mental illness. When its a fact that we are body as unique individuals our brains a wired differently but as a community we all have the same goal and we all want to be loved. I may not know her personally but i wish there was enough time and enough support to go through tough times

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@errymil
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

She was a good person. I'm very sorry to hear of this.

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@donkeypong
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

I'm sorry to hear about Laura!! :( very sad to see good people like her go...

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@woundedknee
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

I'm heartbroken. Laura was such a good artist and friend to many. It's a very very sad day.

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I know! Gosh! I wish she would of reached out! So many people cared so much about her! I know we all would have jumped in to help.

Argh! getting teary reading this. A beautiful lady in a lot of pain. Much love to you and anyone else affected by this. I feel like her spirit is free, though that doesn't make it any easier for those left behind. <3 <3 <3

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Right? I really hope that there is something better after this and she is relaxed and enjoying whatever it is!

I m so sorry to hear about your friend. Suicide is always tough for the survivors because there are no answers, just lots of questions. We can't blame ourselves for what happens. All we can do is honour her memory and keep her in our hearts.

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True! Thank you for your kind words! I'm glad she's not suffering anymore But I really will miss her.

This hurts my heart to read. I've lost a few close friends to suicide in my younger years and it's a very difficult thing for the people around the individual to grasp. I've come to grips with the fact that you will never get into the person's head and truly know what was going on, so I've found it best to try and let things go as best as possible. I hope this advice can be of some help for those that were close to Laura and are dealing with this type of grieve. RIP Laura.

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Thank you for your tips! I've lost people who were more acquaintances, Which was still really heartbreaking. But Laura was closer to me than that. I talked to her quite a bit. It's sad that we may not ever understand what she was fully going through.

I meet laura online about 18 months ago. I bought a georgous galacy painting from her. I was very close with Laura for about a year probably. Unfortunately we had our differences, and i hadn't spoken with her for a couple months. I checked on her and i spent a lot of time talking with her in the past. During dark times. I always felt very hopeful for laura. It is just an unbelievable shock. Devastating Loss of a brilliant mind. She had some great ideas for books, amazing artist, and we exchanged Christmas gifts Last year and celebrayed each other birthdays. I loved laura and still do. No one should feel "ownership "
over this though. As i said i spoke with her in very dark times. Once laura had made up her mind on something ,that was that. Both a good quality and also what spelt the end for her unfortunately. I have art from her she actually made. I'll never forget you Laura. You know i loved you girl. RIP ♡♡♡♡♡♡

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Aww!! I feel the same! Thank you for sharing some of your memories with her <3 I hope she is somewhere much better :(

Oh my god !! My time was short on knowing her, but will miss her very much. My condolences to you and the Steemit family, while we all try to process this. I am so sorry for your loss

What?! No...

This is terrible. She was such an incredible artists and beautiful person inside and out. I didn't know her personally, but I really enjoyed her posts.

..wow...I don't know what to say.

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Right? I had trouble writing the post! Because I'm still really confused.

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It's so crazy...

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I know :( Out of all the times I knew she was struggling. She seemed to be getting better now.

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From the way her posts sounded, I really thought that she was moving forward.

Hi Kaylinart, I am sorry for your loss and all of our losses. I was on another beatiful tribute and memory of Laura here https://steemit.com/steemit/@chelsea88/my-personal-tribute-to-laura-lemons-a-steemian-friend-artist-and-bright-mind and the mention that she did coloring books too not only took me by surprise, but the actual content and design got me super happy and sad to see this. Just very happy to see these existed, I actually emailed my baby's mother about one of them, then after I went to go search for them and found one going on Amazon for $175. Anyways, I think if you go to that post, find the comments and you will find your name came up, just wondering if you may have any thoughts or people to refer as to who or how one would go about considering a way to share this material with people? Obviously preferred way would be free but if there is someone in charge or responsible for Lauras things and name, I would like to respect them (but that does not stop my desire to want these books to share with people).

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Yes <3 I helped her publish her books :) We talked a lot about business together. Thats why we do a lot of the same things! Sadly she took down her coloring books because a bunch of rotten girls on Facebook gave her a lot of bad reviews :( I wish she didn't take them down. Her books were unique and so meaningful. They would have helped a lot of people.

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If you see the comments from that post though kind of wondering if there is the ability to her release these two coloring books as digital pdf files for free maybe and put on http://archive.org or re-release at a cost that money could go toward a charity that may aid in suicides.

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@cryplectibles
she dead :(
I have just followed you
This is my post about lauralemons :(
https://steemit.com/art/@asmaasema/last-sharing-of-lauralemons-8-days-ago-peace-be-upon-her
Would you mind to upvote and resteem it?

I am so sorry for your loss Lin :(
I personally didn't know her since i haven't been on Steemit long, but it is always so sad to see tragedies like this and I hope you will be okay!

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Thank you for your kind words!
I'm sad you didn't get a chance to know her! Her art is amazing! And she was a wonderful person.

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You're always welcome.
She does sound like a wonderful person and I wish I did get to know her. She at least got to really enrich the lives of all of you which is a big positive and she left a lasting impression on the world and the Steemit community!

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So true :) Steemit lost someone amazing! At least her blog is still around, Which hopefully can help others.

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This is true, she will live on through her blogs and the memory in everyone. :)

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True :) And her vote bot! That keeps upvoting people.

RIP Laura... this is crazy news Lin :( Im sorry. I'm at a loss of words.

It's definitely a shock. I remember we joined around the same time, and I remember interacting with her on some of her very early posts. It's such a shame. I know what it's like to have people close to you struggle with depression, and it's so hard, never knowing what to do or say, or how to solve it. Especially as an engineer, always trying to work out how to solve every problem, and then watching people you care about suffer, and having no answer...

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Right? Sometimes you can't just magically solve it unfortunately. It's so sad it came to this.

It really did took all by surprise to all who knew her and saw that she was getting better.

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Right? I was so happy for her! And I was less worried about her on a day to day basis. Just the little things everyday that she was excited about, Like the new clothes she was getting and the VR. It makes me sad that I was completely unaware that there was more going on.

Why does my heart hurt for someone I've never met. Only exchanging a few comments at most. Was there a missed opportunity to do more? It feel the opportunity to pray for her, fight for her, and help pull her back was missed. Maybe wanting to fight a losing battle is what hurts the most. Hoping she known's we all mourn for her. Hoping she is finally free and praying for all those that mourn forever for her. Good bye my friend. Tears tonight go out to you!

This is so incredibly heartbreaking. I only "met" Laura here on Steemit a few short months ago, but we discovered that we had some things in common. We exchanged encouraging words even in very hard times. She seemed like a truly beautiful person, inside and out, and I can only hope that she is no longer suffering. My heart goes out to all of her family and friends.

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She was! I hope things are somehow better for her now.
She was a very open and kind person.

This is so heartbreaking. I guess people don't truly know what a person is really feeling or the depths of what they are feeling! She looks young too and seemed like she had a lot going for her! It's just sad in so many ways.

Hope she's at peace now, she seems like she definitely deserves it!

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She did :( She had so much talent. And a unique mindset on life.
She hadn't even hit 30 yet. :(

My heart is with You @kaylinart
May there be Comfort in knowing that someone so special like @lauralemons will never be Forgotten🙏👼R.I.P

It is really sad to hear that she is no longer with us.

I have created a special issue of Max Curation Edition showcasing her best posts. She leaves behind a rich legacy of content for the Steemit community.

May She Rest In Peace.

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Thank you, I'll have to take a look!

If you can’t get someone out of your head, maybe they are supposed to be there..

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Aww I can relate to this so much! It's only been a day, but I keep thinking " I need to tell Laura _____" .. Dammit!

So sad to read this, I lost a brother to suicide and the questions never stop, could I have stopped this? Sadly not. Depression can be overcome but can also be a terminal illness. May her soul rest in peace.

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Aww I'm so sorry about your brother! It's very saddening that this can happen to almost anyone.

Dammit! I just found out about this with your post. I had been making comments on her posts for the last few weeks, and her commenting back. She seemed like she was going in the right direction, with finally getting medical help for her condition. I looked forward to seeing her posts.
This really sucks!

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I know :( I was so excited to see her doing better than she was. I never expected this to happen :( Especially at this moment.

This is sad. I feel sad and I only interacted with her a few times here. She told me she wanted to live in a tiny home if it could have a larger, open space. We exchanged replies briefly and she was nice to me.

Chelsea wrote in her blog to not shun depressed people and be there for them. I know, all we want is love and to be shut out really hurts. I don't know anything about her personal life but my relatives blow me off and I am basically alone and I can't tell you how much it hurts.

Everyone should always be kind or at least polite to others. And if not, try to not say anything because people that have been through abuse are sensitive.

@kaylinart, I'm sorry that you lost your friend.

Oh no.... I feel alot about this, I can't imagine if it is someone very dear to me. Thanks for sharing. RIP Laura.

I remember her face, i guess i commented on her one or two posts. So sad to here this bad news. I am sorry for your good friend loss. I feel so sad now.

So heartsick to find out about this. 💔

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I know :( Why Can't she just be on vacation right now? Or just needed a "break". But will come back? I feel selfish saying that. because she was suffering for so long.

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Don't feel selfish! It's not selfish to want people to still be here when they're gone.

She is not death as long as she is not forgotten.... I don´t know in what You belife...but I´m convinced that there is something more than the physical existance....I´m sure about it as much as about that my children are realy mine.

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Thank you! I agree! She won't be forgotten ever! I hope my beliefs are wrong and she's doing something really fun right now, Free of her illnesses.

I am so sorry for your loss. My condolences. Depression is a real issue.

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Thanks :( It is! She had so much potential and I was excited to see where she was going to go in life.

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Sigh. Hopefully she's in a better place now.

So saddened just to know someone who belong to our Steemian Family had passed away. God bless her family...and her soul!

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Right? It's so heartbreaking.

This is so sad. Prayers for her family and friends.

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sorry like I'm of no use to you steemit accounts I'm just a low level

With best wishes! Don't worry Good time will coming.
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I am sorry for your loss. Suicide is very tragic. I am amazed how we can get to know and even deeply care for Steemit friends that we have never meet face-to-face.

May we always be here for each other even in our times of deepest need.

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Exactly! Thank you.

So, what’s happened, exactly? And how do you know that it actually happened?

I don't know the gal and your making me feel stuff for her. She seems like a swell chick tho!

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Aww! Shes so awesome :) I Wish You could have gotten to know her! A great artist too with so much talent.

The news of this saddens my heart. May her gentle soul rest in perfect peace.

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I hope so! :( It's very sad news.

I'm heartbroken. Laura was such a good artist and friend to many. It's a very very sad day.

Wow that's that's really sad :( I didn't know her, but I will pray for her friends and family

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Thank you for your kind gesture :)

Hi @kaylinart - I hear about the sad news from @kiligirl yesterday!!
What a shock and horror 😳😢
I admire how you were there to support her though... Eventhough you never "officially" met - it seems you were a true friend and and a real rock to her...

I am so saddened to learn of this. Thank you for sharing such a lovely tribute to Laura.

😄😇😄

@creatr

This is such sad news. Thank you for sharing. We will miss her indeed. RIP @lauralemons.

I can't believe this, she was one of the first person I started following on steemit. So sorry for this.... We'll remember her on steemit!

Amazing. . I like it. . Thankyou for sharing

I understand how difficult it is to think that somewhere could prevent a tragedy ... But they could not. Maybe she herself did not expect this from herself. Sorry artist, people of creativity are so vulnerable: (((

This is so heart braking to know about that :(

Rest in Peace @lauralemons, hope our praying for her blessed

So this news is true? I seen someone say something about Laura Lemons in a another blog. I just noticed your blog. I feel shocked and sad.

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Yes it's true sadly! I wish it wasn't! I wish she just left for a vacation or something and just needed time away from us :( But thats not the case.

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I'm sorry @kaylinart, that you lost your friend

Sorry to hear about your loss! Our loss, the Steemit family.

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Steemit lost someone amazing today sadly :(

So sad to hear about this... Rest in Peace :(

sad even when a stranger Passes away. At least that's what I'm guessing. I peaked my interest to know more about this person. What happened in the end? I am assuming she passed away; was the pain too much?

Wow what sad news. I only connected with her the other week and she seamed like a true and honesty person. I enjoyed the brief time we connected and am saddened deeply I never got to exchange more words with her.

RIP X

I have never met her or chat with het before
But with what am seeing, i am feeling her death even though its just one of her pictures i have seen by @kaylinart
I dont need to see her to say she was impactful and wonderful
Never knew when i started crying
Is not about being emotional but the way she died
Rest in peace

Sorry for your loss Kaylinart :(

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Thank you :(

:( so sorry to hear this

This is so incredibly sad. Such talent. Such beauty. I really don't understand.

there is GOD my god I cried this post, how sad it would have ended thus,

I personally never got to talk with laura but my wife @melodyrussell talked about her a few times since they had chatted here on steemit. She will be missed.

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She will be :(

Hi,
I have tried for hours to write something here. Then I delete it and start over. I had a few chats with her, and followed her posts, but I was not well acquainted. Her art is remarkable but it was the way she shared her very personal experiences, that struck me most.
She shared her heart ache to help others feel less alone. I felt like I knew her because of that.
I am very saddened by the news. She moved into many peoples hearts with her openness and honesty about her life.
I'm sorry I can't find the right words. I'm sorry you lost your friend.

omg :'( it really terrible to see a friend who is now no more with us :( i wonder i am a person who dont even knew her but i am feeling like crying from my heart how would you all loveable friends bear this hardest situation when you were always there for her and on every thing you were at her back :'( So Sad Rest in Peace Laura :'( May God Give you Paradise you got loved from many people as you deserve because you were so lovely your friends proved that you were lovely everyone is writting about you ! :(

Rip Laura... Only God knows... This is so sad 😢

Very sad indeed... @kaylinart I learnt of her passing from a comment I received after responding to her post today and i shocked and had to confirm by checking her blog... What a world... I wish her gentle soul eternal peace and happiness... Take heart @kaylinart I also feel your pain as admirer of her content... Steemit has lost a rare star... So sad but as well happy she has finally found peace...

Congratulations @kaylinart!
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Thank you.

You miss lauralemons, i also miss u @kaylinart :)

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Aww you are sweet I need to get on more :)

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But not as sweet as your self 😘

Sad but a good story.

I am very sad to see good people go
R.I.P
so heartbroken.
Peace be upon her :(

Sad. Very sad and how tragic her death was. Never knew her but your story tells a tale about her.. let's pray her soul is at ease...RIP

ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh