I Could Have Been Anyone From Anywhere...

…But I chose to be me, right here.
Hello Steemit, my name is @zacanarchy143… no wait that is not right.

Ahem, my name is Zac. I am 27 years old. I live in the US. I was born in North Dakota, but grew up in Arkansas. I am a metalhead hippie anarchist your parents should have warned you about but probably didn’t. Also I listen to more than just metal.

I am currently and continuously working to grow myself and become the person I want to be. I dropped out of University a few years ago. Mostly due to my own personal issues, the looming and large debt, and the realization that I hade never given any thought to what I wanted to do - specifically what would give my life meaning. During this time I majored in everything from Psychology to Architecture and Philosophy to Electrical Engineering. Philosophy was my favourite and it helped me more than I probably realize. Unfortunately, my headspace was all sorts of fucked up. I went to school because that is what you do after high school, right? Well I learned my lesson (of course after a bout of depression, drinking, a failed attempt to give myself alcohol poisoning, and a long slip in juvenile nihilism - or as Keith Buckley would say Juvenihilist.)
https://open.spotify.com/track/03Jqj5fy1sgEeOwHmsZqKT

Map Change

Why Steemit? Well, quite a few reasons. One main reason is the potential that Steemit has. I grew up in a small town of about 6-7k people. Can you imagine if that population for some reason used Steemit as their main social media service? I am by far no expert in cryptocurrencies, but that could be a huge game changer in the economic landscape. Not only that, but it could also promote community organization and rebalance the local businesses against the growing encroachment of corporate businesses. Of course, that is all conjecture and people already call Steemit a game changer.
The main reason for my desire to join (and hopefully succeed) is selfish. I need to change my life. I have been growing and working to change for sometime. The last year or so has been good. I have managed to curb my depression and take control of my emotions (for the most part.) Recently I started a Ketogenic diet and in the last seven weeks I have lost over thirty pounds and see a noticeable difference in the mirror. I’ve been following Steemit since early 2017, so why did it take me a year to make a profile and introduce myself? My confidence. I want to be confident in myself and my abilities, and so far this community seems to be one of the better places to work on that. Slowly I have been growing in confidence. I hate going out in public, anyplace I have to meet people or talk to people is a big stressor in my life, and I hope that steemit will help me work towards changing that. I want to meet people, and I don’t want to have to put on a mask or fake it until I make it anymore. It's too exhausting.

Daydreaming

So what does my future hold? I am going back to school in the fall majoring in Media Communications and minoring in Creative Writing. I may also minor in Philosophy since I only need a few credits to fulfil the requirements, but that all depends on my finances and time commitment. I love creative fiction and narrative, and my dream is to write fiction of all sorts (currently I am writing a manuscript for a comic I would like to make) from comics to novels and TV series to movies.
I love how much fiction inspires us to grow, take risks, and strive to be better. Fiction can cross religious, ethnic, and national barriers. It can approach problems from different and unknown angles. It offers new and fresh perspectives. (That doesn’t mean it doesn’t have it’s negative components, but I’ll save that for a later post.)

In Regards to Myself
My main goal in steemit is to grow my confidence in my abilities and to become more social and outgoing as I stated earlier. Specifically though what kind of content should you expect from me?

• My main focus will be talking about fiction, specifically the philosophy and themes behind film and television.
  Black Mirror, the MCU, and a few others in my current project folder.
• I also plan on posting some short stories, mostly because I want to become a better writer, and in order to do that, I need feedback.
• If I take some cool pictures I may post them as well for the same reason as my short stories, for feedback and to become a better photographer.
• I may post a few other random things:
  • Post about the themes within some of my favourite albums. If I think of an interesting topic, or something deeply personal.

For the first week of my posting schedule, I am aiming for 4 posts (including this one.) The next I am going to aim for 5. After that, it is in the air, but I don’t plan on dipping lower than 4.

True Affection
Firstly, thank all of you who took the time to read this. It was longer than I expected, despite how much anxiety answering anything about myself gives me. I look forward to building a community, and helping this one grow.

At the Bottom of Everything
Ask me anything! No, seriously. This is a one time offer. Ask me anything, and I will answer it as truthfully and honestly I can. I have but one request, because I know the can of worms I am opening here… Don’t be gross, please. I will answer it, but it would make me sad…
PS
For the curious souls:
Whether Terrified or Unafraid - ‘68 https://open.spotify.com/track/7I3kcB7PhzfE7njFUpgvCk
Map Change - Every Time I Die https://open.spotify.com/track/6wqBUUWSTn39vEXVM67avV
Daydreaming - Radiohead https://open.spotify.com/track/1uRxyAup7OYrlh2SHJb80N
In Regards to Myself - Underoath https://open.spotify.com/track/3VC4KHC7cRhuG6nYx4f1qj
True Affection - Father John Misty https://open.spotify.com/track/4qG7NaN5VGPE2HPFKFHKCs
At the Bottom of Everything - Bright Eyes https://open.spotify.com/track/09JRdZ11NAsmL4ppAXWddf