Encaustic Experiment #5, A Longer Project

https://steemit.com/aakom/@in2itiveart/drawing-reading-for-myself
I did this drawing as a result of asking myself about a current fear... the answer that came is about my life purpose and path - I am to be an artist, not a caregiver, not a home depot employee, not anything else but an artist and I am terrified of it because i have been blocking the Sunlight of the Spirit my whole life and only allowing myself a little bit of happiness -

https://steemit.com/colorchallenge/@in2itiveart/monday-color-challenge
The reason for this is because of an old idea stuck in my craw that was passed down to me from my mother and bestowed upon me by my family...

I am the product of my mother's adulterous relationship with my father, in which my father left his 3 children and his wife and married my mother. Of course, it did not work out for them, as broken covenants do not work out under Natural Law - but I recently found out that the family placed the blame on me...

And I got the idea from that that I don't deserve to be happy.

hence i am going to do this painting in 3D.

and while I do it, i am going to give this old idea to God so that I can be unblocked to receive all that God has to give me and I can be free from these familial ties...

This is the card for my Life Path Numerology... now I know why...

i started to cut out the separate pieces that I will make 3D and will put back together in a painting...using Encaustic and Mixed Media... as I go through this process, I will also go through a sacred shamanic process of restoring my soul to it's rightful place so that I am open to receive the good things that Life has to give me...

https://steemit.com/artzone/@in2itiveart/my-first-experiment-with-encaustic-1
vhttps://steemit.com/artzone/@in2itiveart/experiment-in-encaustic-part-2a
https://steemit.com/artzone/@in2itiveart/experiment-in-encaustic-part-3a
https://steemit.com/aakom/@in2itiveart/experiement-in-encaustic-part-3b
https://steemit.com/artzone/@in2itiveart/encaustic-experiment-4