ULOG: #5 froWeek 13 - Crying In The Shower

Today is not a good day. I woke up with a headache. Tried to contact my niece about their plans and the work has not been finished. I am sometimes frustrated with these younger generation, they like to cram or rush. I am tired of texting or leaving messages. Then a problem with the color for the skirting of caterers. First she says no preference so I say blue. Then she ask what other colors. When I decide white with mint green she text back, all white only. I feel like screaming.

It is raining. The caterers are here to start setting up or leaving their things to arrange tonight, problem the cleaning is not done.

My eyes are blurry, I will have a check-up on Monday. I am nervous and scared of what the outcome will be. But I have to put aside my own problems first for theirs. Good thing I can rely on my helpers here. They know what to do and can understand instructions.

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I took a shower before lunch. I usually take one after lunch. So while I was in the shower, everything hit me. All the stress, frustration, nervousness, fear and anger. I sat down on the shower chair I have inside. For a good 10 minutes I just sat there crying and letting the water wash away the tears.

Afterwards, I stood up, finished my shower and went out like nothing has happened. I dressed up and had to put on my TED stocking for my legs.

I have DVT or deep vein thrombosis and I take anti-coagulant and blood thinner (all in one meds) to prevent clots. I have been advised to wear at home whole day theses stocking. But I usually just use them when I go out because of a lot of walking. But my legs have been feeling some cramps on and off in my calves. I Usually have Teray massage a little with liniment at night. I need a whole body massage this week-end.

My eyes are not that puffy, just a little red after the crying. Sometimes just letting it all out can release all the tension and some pain. I think I can finish the day now. One good thing is I will have a little me time. I have a schedule for a manicure and pedicure in a while. I have 90% finished my financial report. But I have informed them it may be a little delayed because of the things happening. So at lease my mind is at ease. I can watch a movie "The Avengers Infinity War".

Need to relax for a while so I will be able to get thru the rest of the day and night. Refreshed for tomorrow. Wish me luck. But I am worried because I don't know if they will finish the tomb in the cemetery.

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