Geschichten aus dem Wiener Wald by Ödön von Horváth

I was considered or lets say I saw myself as a typical tomboy girl when I was a teenager. I always preferred to hang out with the boys because their activities were so much more exciting. Femininity? I had no idea what this meant. 

 

my original photos or some by Markus Morianz  Make-Up by Kenichi Ken Krueger and Mario Soldo 

I talked, walked and dressed like a man. I had short hair, never wear high heels, make-up, hated dresses, motorbikes my passion beside jazz. I was in touch with the Yang more than the Yin, The Tao Te Ching

A woman is yin, and a man is yangImage Source 

Achieving yin-yang balance helps you to stay healthy, happy and fulfilled. Everything in this world is a dualism. In it, you can always find yin and yang. The earth we live on is yin, and the sun that brings us warmth is yang. Sadness is yin, while joyfulness is yang. Generally, yin is passive, oppressed and feminine. Yang, on the other hand, is active, bright and masculine.Managing yin yang is something that we have to do all the time.Knowing how the yin and yang energies can be altered helps us to have a better control of reality. - Source 

My Past Life on TOUR and on Stage with **MILES DAVIS & FEMI KUTI** 

MILES DAVIS , FEMI KUTI and JAZZ

A tomboy is a girl who exhibits characteristics or behaviors considered typical of a boy, including wearing masculine clothing and engaging in games and activities that are physical in nature and are considered in many cultures to be unfeminine or the domain of boys.- Source Wikipedia 

I was super bored of beauty chats and discussing fluffy dress-up tips with the girls. I hated gossip and actually still do. I changed over time and love my sisters I met over those past years but let me tell you where it all started  to feel like a real woman.  

I was one of the unpopular ones at school, the weirdo sitting in the last raw in class with my black shades and fake fur around my neck. You wonder why? Me too :) I have no idea why I felt the urge to cover up. I didn't like to show my body, hiding behind long-sleeved shirts and pants. I had a smashing body, I can say this now because at matured age you can be proud of what you got when you were young. Right? 

Once I was asked to go on some casting to earn a little extra cash, so I tried to become a part time model to earn a some pocket money every school girl  urgently needed. 

What silly idea it was because every casting ended with the same story. "Take off your clothes and show what you got!"  They had no interest in my face but for sure in my boobs. 

I don't blame them haha! 

First Change from Yang to Yin

Maximilan Schell casted me in one of his movies "Geschichten aus dem Wienerwald" . Beside having a crush on the director, I had incredible fun with the experience to be a so called feminine " moviestar " for just a few minutes ( without being mentioned in the cast of course) 

In Vienna, in 1930, a young woman falls in love with a gambler and leaves her fiancé, a common butcher. They become a couple and have a baby, but he gets bored and leaves them. Without means to support herself, her downfall begins.- Source IMDb

I finally started discovering another side about me, I never dared to embrace fully before my 30's and when some of those photos were taken. 

I felt reborn. I am #proud2bewoman!   

Enjoy this movie or play!

Stories from the Viennese Forest (1979) Drama, literary filming Running time: 95 min.

Tales from the Vienna Woods (German: Geschichten aus dem Wienerwald) is a 1979 Austrian drama film directed by Maximilian Schell. The film was selected as the Austrian entry for the Best Foreign Language Film at the 52nd Academy Awards, but was not accepted as a nominee. It was the final film for veteran actress Lil Dagover who started her film career in the 1910.

Helmuth Qualtinger's interpretation of the Zauberkönig in Maximilian Schell's "Stories from the Wienerwald" has a more profound dimension than Hans Moser's grantelnd-misanthropic film from 1961.

It takes some time to grow up :)  

Yours 

Mammasitta 

      taken in 2016