He May Not Bring Me Flowers,
But He Does Bring Me Magic Cards!
So, I haven't really gone into a lot of personal detail about what makes this Kat tic on my blog, as I long for my blog to be a space of whimsical, lighthearted entertainment and joy bringing fun. However, life isn't always buckets of bubblegum bullfrogs, and it is in that stuck to my shoe vein that I have decided to talk about a topic slightly more serious than my normal fare: chronic autoimmune illness.
I spent the first two thirds of my life not feeling well. Not that you would ever hear me complain about it, for I became very adept at functioning when I didn't feel good, just as a lot of folks with chronic illness or pain do. Of course, this developed a pattern of behavior where I would go hard and eventually crash, only to recharge a bit and complete the cycle again. Fun times I tell yah!
Well, a few years ago I kicked most of my autoimmune issues and symptoms to the curb through a massive lifestyle and diet change, and like with all changes a new issue emerged. For the first time in my life I felt GOOD, and I wanted to do all the things before this new sense of well-being was snatched from me! In the last three years especially I have seized the joie de vivre mentality by the flintlocks and ran with it down the enjoy life to the fullest road.
My behavior has finally caught up with me. For a few months I have been feeling a little like my old self in the well-being department. Chronic exhaustion reared its ugly head, and more than once I have broken out in inexplicable hives. For over a week now I have been suffering a crushing feeling at the base of my brain stem, a headache of massive proportions, so great in fact that it affects my ability to function on a most rudimentary level.
A sane person would have powered down and taken a couple of days to recuperate, but my smart self, conditioned by a lifetime of functioning whilst feeling horrid, kept pushing and moving forward. Which leaves us with today. So great is my exhaustion that I couldn't even get out of bed this morning, I have to think to move any of my appendages, and my vision is blurred thanks to day seven of my crushing glandular exhausta-headache.
My whole life I have bottled up my discomfort and pretended I am fine, and have taken care of business, but you know what, I am starting to realize that I need to take care of myself. Normally only those closest to me would know that I am struggling, but a lot of my struggle is my own stupid fault for thinking that I need to just suck it up and deal with things. Guess what? I sat in a chair in my yard for most of the day, not doing any of the tasks that I needed (or thought I needed) to do and the Earth revolved around the sun just fine!
And then there is my husband. He knows how incredibly much it takes for me to put myself on the injured list. So he brought me a couple of packs of Magic The Gathering cards as a get well token of his affection. This homesteading, volleyball playing, nerd felt all sorts of feelz as she sat under the fir trees in my yard looking through cards with my sweetie.
It was as I reclined in my camp chair, feet on a stump, languishing in the warm breeze today that I realized what I wanted to write about this evening. It's okay to halt sometimes. Don't be like this Moonbat Kat and push your body so hard that it rebels on you. Take some time and care for your form if it is ailing, for all those things that you think have to be done can be done later by a well-feeling you or maybe somebody else entirely. My since childhood thought processes of "be tough" and "hold it in, don't make a scene" are not doing anyone any favors, least of all me.
And it is in that mire of perspire that I am going to celebrate the next step of my behavioral modification journey, for each bit of tribulation that you experience during a journey of change is a reason for joy, for it means that you are on the path to personal revision. I may not like how I am feeling right now, but I have felt this way before, however, I am starting to think and behave in a new key, one of which will lead me to the next step in this journey called Life. Hopefully it involves bullfrog bubblegum. I like the sound of that.
Probably Not Necessary But Still Offered Ailing Kat Note: I am truly sorry that my posting has been a bit lacking, abbreviated, and not quite up to par as of late. Aside from being a digit down, as noted above, I am more than a bit kerfluffled in the body department. That I have posted at all in the last couple of weeks is a token of my great affection for this platform and mostly for you all. Thank you so much for hanging in there with me:o)!
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I have missed your posts but am thankful you are trying to rest and take care of yourself more. Pretending we are fine is what has kept us strong, but even the strong need rest. May the sun shine upon you this weekend filling you with renewed strength and well being.
Awe, my friend, thank you so much for such wise words and the fine sentiment.:o) This weekend has been full of awesomeness and I hope it has been much the same for you too:o)
Of course well wishes and positive vibes to you Kat. May you be back to 110% in no time.
If you want some OGP fashion tips to complete the look, I suggest Crocs and socks ;)
I have to see an OGP picture of you rockin the Crocs and socks, LOL! I am nowhere near that cool!
Thank you so much for the positive waves:)
Don't like hearing that you are ailing. But very glad to hear that you are taking some time to rest. There is a very good chance that it is seasonal allergies that is causing the problem. For me, it is the cherry blossoms. Woke up this morning feeling a little ailing. Fortunately, there is rain in the forecast and that should wash most of the pollen away. I know you eat low-carb but check into the lectin content in your food ... reducing lectin can really help with inflammation and auto-immune issues. Me ... I get itchy skin and sore hips, if I eat too much and yes even hives. If lectin is causing you woes, within a day or two of cutting them out, you will feel better. But whatever the case, feel better:) Sending bucket loads of virtual love:)
Oh! I am so sorry to hear that the cherry blossoms slay you in the auto-immune department. I hope the rain did you a pollen suppression favor:o) Other than a bit of tomato, my diet is pretty lectin free, but I totally appreciate the reminder, and I'll just cut my favorite nightshade out for a bit too. Most of my health woes manifest from me being a bit of a silly salt about the limits of my form, my body loves to remind me from time to time that I am not a cyborg or superhero, lol! The buckets of virtual affection are beyond reciprocated, I hope you are having a fantastic Sunday:o)!
Wait ... forget it ... you are not a cyborg superhero ... that changes things ... lol. Yeah the blossoms have me down for the count. I am literally surrounded by them at the moment. The rain is helping some and the Claritin but what I really need to do next year is get out of town. It is like having the flu.
"Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it." - Ferris Bueller
There's a lot of wisdom in those words. Get better soon Kat.
Ahh, Chops, that you quoted Ferris made my whole day:o) I think I am on the mend. Thank you!
Very captivating to read,sir. We should create sources to enjoy our life. LIfe is all about fun.
Thank you so much! I agree about source creation when it comes to life enjoyment, it's all about positive perspective:o)
are you now so good?
you should always keep your diet well so that you avoid the disease
I am doing much better, thank you:o)
You are so right about keeping one's diet well, food is amazing!
@generikat You have received a random upvote from @botreporter because this post did not use any bidbots.
I don't have a lot of voting power, but I did want to thank you just the same. Please consider it a thumbs up and perhaps next time we meet, I'll have more SP to share with you.
I must have missed those in the Wal - Mart aisle.
You are one awesome lady, Kat! Even in a kerfluffled state you find a way to put out encouraging and uplifting articles that inspire us. Thank you.
Enjoy that well needed rest and hubster time. Also, kudos to him for the magic cards! 😄
I wish I could say I have no idea what you are going through..... but I do. And I know it sucks. Today I was ready to fall asleep in church, and it was not boring, either. I went back to bed this afternoon and am sitting around in my pjs, reading Steemit posts, and staring at the piles of larch needles I meant to deal with today. They aren't going anywhere, I know, and they will wait for me, but I do hate to waste a nice afternoon feeling like someone vacuumed out all of my energy.