The Mercurial Freddie
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I am an unashamed Queen fan. Their music is intertwined in the soundtrack of my life, going back to 1976 when I began to be enamoured with pop. Their music is fascinating on a range of levels, from the music iteslf, to the lyrics. Bohemian Rhapsody is open to so much interpretation and in the days when lyrics were included with the record (yes, we had the record), one could learn the the correct ones off by heart. I remember looking up "Bismillah", "Scaramouche" and "Beelzebub". I hear that song, and others, and the words just come out of my mouth. Involuntarily.
When I heard about Bohemian Rhapsody, the Freddie Mercury biopic, I was nervous about seeing it. Who could be Freddie? Nobody, I thought. Then the reviews emerged - mixed. And then Rami Malek, contrary to critics' expectations, won the Oscar. My interest was piqued and after hearing from contemporaries that they loved it, I wanted to see it. Living where we do, and not getting to the big city the cinema very often, I was delighted when our local thespian laid his hands on a newly released copy of the Blu Ray and showed it at his theatre.
With reservations and with great anticipation, I went to see the film. It is not the best film ever made - by a long shot. Malek is wooden and tries too hard to be Freddie. The actors playing Roger Taylor (and I loved his solo album, The Pros and Cons of Hitchhiking) and John Deacon were similarly wooden. "Brian May" was probably the most comfortable in his character. Despite all this -
I loved every minute.
I said so in a Facebook post which unleased denigrating comments from two university contempories which, I think, reflects the extent to which Freddie Mercury was misunderstood. This is the comment that most got me, and on which I have been reflecting ever since:
[the film]...made out that Freddy was a (sic) AIDS sufferer supporter...which is complete bullshit. If you read the auto biography Freddy was promiscuous almost beyond belief...he literally had a queue of young men outside his hotel room door who came in one-by-one to provide Freddy with an 'all night service'. And then when he got Aids, (how surprising), he hid it as long as he possibly could and did nothing to remove its stigma or do anything for other sufferers. Freddy was a million miles away from being the saint they paint him as in the movie.My response then:
It was honest without being as brutal as it could have been. Call me old and soft, but I appreciated that.I went to see the film a second time and enjoyed it as much. It also made me reflect even more on the extent to which Freddie has been villified in some quarters. Largely unfairly, I believe:
Some context:
Growing up in South Africa meant that I grew up in a very conservative environment, in a country governed by Calvanistic Christian government: Apartheid meant that races could not mix. People of different races could not live next door to each other; mixed marriages (sex across the "colour bar") were (was) prohibited. By law. There was a peice of legislation: The Prohibition of Mixed Marriages Act. Similarly, sexual relations between people of the same sex was illegal. Doors were broken down, people hauled out of beds and imprisoned. Members of the armed forces suspected of being gay, were subjected to "corrective treatment". That is the society in which I grew up, as did the person who made that comment. Homosexuality was also illegal in the UK when Freddie was a young adult; only in 1967 was it decriminalised for males over the age of 21.This means that we, like Freddie and his contemporaries, grew up in a homophobic world before AIDS and HIV: it reared its head as a public health issue (and with terror tactics) in what would have been our last year or two of university. It was highly stigmatised: it was a gay disease; it was also a disease of promiscuity. It was, and for some still is, the equivalent of Biblical leprosy. Notwithstanding the fact that there is now enough reliable information in the public domain which gives a lie to all of that.
During 1989, and when it was gay men who were most concerned about becoming infected, I had the mixed blessing of having a gay friend who discovered that his new partner, with whom he had hoped to have a permanent relationship, was HIV positive. The partner had not disclosed and they'd been having unprotected sex. My friend and I went to see the film Longtime Companion, a classic about a community of friends confronting the ravages of AIDS. My friend had broken up with his earstwhile partner but was waiting for the outcome of the first of several tests necessary to find out his status. It was still in the window period and then there would be the wait for a further six months. The results are not important. What is important is that my friend is one of the least promiscuous people I have ever known. He knew, and would talk about Fire Island and the gay lifestyle; he had lived in, and returned to Florida. I have forgotten none of his agony, anger nor relief.
That agony can only be second to the agony of someone grappling with coming out and which includes having to acknowledge to themselves and to a still hostile society, their sexual preference and its implications. I have had the privilege of walking alongside two dear friends as they have taken this step. It's neither a choice, and nor does coming out make life easier. It just makes life different and choices different. Nor, in 2019, does it mean that the world is accepting and not homophobic.
Farrokh Bubara
Freddie Mercury, I believe, was very much a product of, and a victim of, his time. Although he died at 45, we should remember that this year, he'd have turned 73. He was nearly 20 years my senior. Effectively a different generation. That bears thinking about, as does his early and young life.
Although he was born in Zanzibar, his father was employed by the British Colonial Service (as incidentally was mine) which sent him there from his native India (the family were Parsis from the Gujarati region, and were Zoarastrians). The young Freddie was sent back to India to an English "public school-like" boarding establishment. What parent, today, relishes sending their children to boarding school? Less so now that the conduct of certain school masters and initiation practices are increasingly being publicly acknowledged as "established" phenomena. A few years later, in 1964 when Freddie was just 18, the Zanzibar revolution, led by Muslims, forced the family to flee. Nowhere else to go, they ended up in London where he clearly didn't fit in. To add insult to injury, it was assumed he was from Pakistan, a country run by Muslims, the very people that hounded the family from Zanzibar - with nothing. Source
This would have been tough for any adolescent, especially for someone sensitive, with enormous talent and unconventional looks; I can only imagine how he felt about himself as a young adult. Having had my own journey having my teeth "fixed" and my mother making a big deal about my ears, along with all the other "you're-ugly-and-your-mother-dresses-you-funny" experiences of my childhood and adolescence in boarding school, I have an inkling.
About his being gay, one of Freddie's biographers says:
The world has changed so much. He was a arecording artist in the ’70s and ’80s, two decades when the level of homophobia is difficult for anyone born after 1980 to fully comprehend. In particular, Britain and the USA were scary places for gay people, and the onset of AIDS gave license to the religious fulminators and right-wing zealots.Hiding his HIV status and developing a larger than life persona that sheltered the deeper, sensitive, private human being must have been Freddie's survival strategy. The debauchery, which was touched upon in the film was a combination of what was expected of a rock star, the machinations of another lost soul who had found his meal ticket (or so he thought), as well as Freddie's own proclivities and insecurities.
Freddie was no saint, that much is clear. Perhaps his feet of clay did not feature in the film as much as his detractors might have liked.
With hindsight, two songs strike me as particularly poignant. Was this, for most of his life, Freddie's quest?
Post Script:
June is Pride month...
Until next time
Fiona
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McGregor, South Africa
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Wow. Just wow. I had no idea you were a Queen fan. I always loved their music but was told how "sinful" they were during my youth. It always amazed me how people could judge the music and people for doing things that were far worse. I guess I will never understand that.
As for the movie, I loved it. I am always curious about how people come together and do such amazing things. Their music was so different and spanned such a unique mix of genre and personalities. Look at those who hear the music. I don't think I have ever heard the song "Rock You" and not seen most people singing the chorus. They have touched so many without music.it is hard to believe the songs they sang are "Oldies".
I thank you for adding the information about the time period and homosexuality. The younger generations in the US have no idea what this community went through during that time. It was horrible and I never understood why it made a difference who a person loved. My brain still can't comprehend it. Love is love. The fact that there is a disease out there is not proof that it is wrong; that type of archaic thinking just angers me.
Thank you again for sharing this. I enjoyed listening to the music as well. It helped while I lay here healing.
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Ren, reading this makes having taken the time to write that post, all worth it. I was so annoyed at the reponse I received to my having loved the film from people I believed should have known better. Doing the research put it into context.
I could not agree more. I live in a country which has the world's most liveral constitution and even so, both racism and homophobia are alive and well. Sadly.
I am glad you enjoyed listening to the music and that it's helped your healing.
Fiona
A well written, a poignant reminder of a terribly misunderstood man. You truly made such valid points with the times being what they were and him being who he was.
I'd like to believe that most of what was said about him was untrue and I will say that I was watching "I want to be free" video last night (how about that for a coincidence)and lamenting his life and death.
My grandmother had a cottage on Fire Island that we frequented when we were growing up and although there were many gay people, it was never an issue with us. Or perhaps it is generational? I know it bothered my father. ;)
Thank you for the awesome write and the Freddie report. You are awesome! I love Freddie forever! xo
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Thank you, Denise. What a coincidence, indeed, your watching Breakthrough and your Granny's having a cottage on Fire Island.
Like you, I would like to believe that much that was said about him is untrue, but then I always prefer to think the best of people. Especially my heroes. That said, hearing about the "other" stuff, just makes them human.
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No matter what they said and whatever he had done, his song will always be his legacy... I love those songs so much!
You are so right. Thanks for stopping by, @roselifecoach
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I did not know the story with so many details, thank you for sharing it with us:)
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Exceptional read, thoroughly enjoyed a walk (and listen) to a musician I thoroughly enjoyed. Sadly we were living at the coast when he visited our shores, going to concert was definitely out of the question.
Also grew up with my best friend who was completely misunderstood, some of my best years were sharing time together and holidays. Today he and his partner are married, live happily in Italy after an arduous childhood.
Freddie Mercury did not deserve the negative comments that ensued after passing at such a young age, total stigma attached that was heartless. Media continued to make the lives of people that were Gay or AIDS for many years after, how one decides to live ones short life is an individual decision.
Ah, Joan, thank you. So glad your friend is now settled and happy.
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We will rock you is my favourite
Mine, too!
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