My Sensible and Strange Me - My Body Talks Through the Sensual Pleasure of Nudity - My Humble Introduction

I don't know where to start. Let me say when I found out myself in this total despair of senses, visual and touching were my paths in my childhood, and they met other paths and all of them together made me.

I was born in Central America but was raised in different parts of the globe. My family was always moving because my parents worked for the Government and we were sent to many countries to serve and I could never fit in any society! I felt a total stranger in many situations and when I began noticing about myself, my body, voice, hair, teeth, hands, and sexual parts, oh yes, sexual parts, I introverted so strongly because I knew there was something different. Something terrible, something noble, something...

At the age of 12, I discovered the world through some friends. They showed me ways I never experienced but I had an idea I was about to know it someday. And the day arrived and it arrives every single day I open my eyes and close it for another world I don't know exactly what it is. And ever since I live life as it will end at the very next minute and fear death asking some unbelievable force to extend my life so I could experiment all kinds of pleasure never imagined before. And this force doesn't answer, it will never! There is another answer, I know. And I follow it hypnotized!

I crossed my adolescence sipping from body to body every drop of desire. I drained and I love draining all emotions and feel their absense in the lack of love in these casual relations. That is who I am. The "pleasure drainer", the "pleasure giver" and the "love breaker".

And so I moved my life into the future. Having no experience about what is to settle down with someone. All I wanted was to see eyes rolling in so much pain of love not given, so much pleasure of life being fulfilled and I transformed myself in the most wonderful monster, or angel in many cases, to a neverstopping sexual world.

All of a sudden, I don't know if tired of everything, or because I felt the heavy burden of solitude, I realized my terms came to an end and all I feel now is I have to tell a story. Not only mine but everyone's story. Those who passed by me and who I never met. Those who came to me for love and sex and I gave them nothing but emptiness. I feel empty but this was my life and I have to feel happy about it.

I always wanted to write about my life, write stories, true or invented ones, about pleasure, nudity, sex and loving porn, as this was, during all my existence, all I had. And now I began seeing this as a loving awakening. Something that can be transformed into something even better. Something that can transform our feelings. Something powerful. I decided to devote my time to make people understand that sex can be beautiful if well made and well adjusted. This energy can be felt with no regrets, because if there is sex, even if it is casual, there is a little care about the other in front of you. And when I recognized that, I decided it was time for me to write and free myself of this guilty burden over my head and shoulders.

I just regret things I did wrong, the others I don't.

Here on Steemit, where I can blog without being censored, I will write about this sex full of love. This sex in which everyone can lose themselves in. The sex I want for me now, or maybe I want love in disguise, but I truly want to feel Steemit is my home to say it out loud: don't be shy and live your life!

Thank you for reading. This is me, no edits, no nothing, pure me. Feel free to follow my stories and discover not only me but yourself as well!