I can do anything
I am finally seating alone in my kitchen in my new home in Prague, Czech Republic. The lovely music plays as background and I finally have a chance to re-think what was happening with me in past few weeks. April and May were absolutely crazy months for me with jumping from one country to the other trying to make sure all is going to be as planned. I believe that the credo "I can do anything" was always a part of my life. Each project I have ever started was a personal challenge, my way to prove that I can go further than I reached last time. So this one I just ended was no differed. Yet, it is always an exhausting journey that sometimes lives very little time for doing something else that you would love to do.
I love the project I have just finished yet it left not a much free time for my personal errands as well as for Steemit. So my activity here was inconsistent and I ended up just reading and uprooting when I had a chance to do it. At the same time it was so great seeing in all the rare occasions I was present on Steemit how it is evolving - @ecotrain is growing and I hope I will have a chance to get to know all the new passengers very soon, @eco-alex launch a new well-purposed bot and even moved from India. Although I was off Steemit and all the fantastic people I met here somehow your all were always present in my daily routine. I remember organizing a part of the venue we had our event with trees and floras and thinking of lovely @mountainjewel and @sagescrub. @solarsupermama with her motivational articles about Jesla, the Mummy and @sharoonyasir with her always so positive articles sometimes made my day so bright forcing me to forget about all the troubles I had during the day and smile knowing that all is going to be all right.
Sitting here and writing this article feels like coming home and it is definitely something I have been dreaming for ages.
There is simple thought in my mind:
that sometimes you need this solitude, to go off your bitten track, to reflect on what just ended and what awaits you ahead
so I am really happy that I finally have time on my own with no need to go somewhere, to check e-mails and solve issues. I believe ever since I came down from the mountain slope in a rural part of Russia this January, I have never forgotten to remember the lesson it toughs me - there is always something new waits you and you just need to make the first step to get it. My step was a well-prolonged one. Each time I would finish a project like one I did now I would think that this is it - this is the time to stop. But I have never actually stopped finding different reasons to keep going.
When your new life experience knocks just right at your door...
I would say I did not plan it go this way but somehow Life again has brought me to the point where I knew I have to do it. Now or it will go on and on and on.. So I decided that to finally face the changes that were knocking my door. Yep, this time I guess even a deaf person would "hear" it%)) My grandmother used to say:
" if you do not listen to the signs the Life sends you, you still can't trick it, they are there for you. Life would always find the better way than the one you think".
My grandmother was a very wise woman and I regret that sometimes I tend to forget that simple wisdom. As my life shows there is a kind of magic exist and you will be reminded when the time is right.
My solitude from Steemit coincides with very hard yet fruitful period of my life where all the old projects were ending and I did not have any intention to start any new ones. I believe we all have this that they call it "six sense" when you knew that something is about to happen. My goal (at least what I thought was my goal) was to settle down and make a new turn in my life… First of all, my plan was to stop traveling as much as I did during last 2 years. I love traveling but then it became your life, then at a certain point, you would seek for a harbor to settle down ( at least for a while%). Second, I really wanted to stop my event-organizing activities as it certain point you feel that it is becoming more a struggle than the joy you have once experienced and liked. Third, I wanted to find a new direction in my life...
Hehe, where is a wish, when it comes…
Next destination: Becoming a MUM
HERE I AM sitting alone in my new home and thinking what this is another turning point in my life. Even I did not intend to start any new projects in my life it came on its own. I think this is going to be the biggest project I have ever done and this one surely does have any agenda or timeline.
One of the happiest moments of last month was a discovery that I am pregnant and I would be a mum in November. Do not get me wrong, my husband and I have been planning to have a baby and we constantly were seeing certain signs that the time is coming. Yet I just did not expect it to be manifested so soon. At the same time, I believe that there is always the right time for everything and I trust the Universe with it.
So my plan for next months - enjoy my Life, just exploring a new state I am in.
Possibly to start doing things I have been dreaming to do within last few years but never found time to do - start painting again, finally finish my journalism course and voice training. I think there are so many things I can do and settling in Prague obviously was one of the best choices I have ever made as it so “resonate” with a lot in this particular period of my life.
I do not know what else I would do but I am sure all the answers will come at the right time%)).