Ulog 6 Manifestation: Should I do Porn Now?

My Ulogs are about the efforts I am making to manifest money so that my son @bxlphabet and I can pay rent, bills, and not be homeless soon. I am thinking outside the box since all my normal ideas are failing, hence the porn idea. But before we get to that idea, here is how I got there.

Looking at the Steemit Trending Page

I have never looked at this page in my entire year on steemit. When I first got here, I read something that said it was full of the circle-jerking posts of big fish, so I decided to give it a pass. Later I had read posts that said the the circle jerkers had been overtaken by the posts of people who paid big bot spends, so again I decided to keep it on ignore.

But a couple of days ago I wanted to know how big the payouts are that people get on there, and Holy Moly, what a gasp-inducing sight it is. The top posts when I looked were in the $1K range and going down that page a few times got me to about $300. Based on these numbers and the fact that my son and I together post about 5 times a day, the amount I need to survive does not seem so big at all.

One of the disturbing posts on that page when I looked, was the now infamous @jerrybanfield porn video. I came in with Jerry last June and follow him on many platforms. Nothing he does surprises me, but this time I did, in fact, get a surprise.

I thought his nsfw tag had to be an error, and so I clicked through to see the thumbnail. It was not an error and the post is really nsfw. My regret in seeing the thumbnail image runs deep, and I clicked out asap. I later read a post that says Jerry discusses his own personal sex life in this video. (Dear God – please let me never find out what he says.) All I can say is that @laurabanfield must be a saint.

But the fact that Jerry had close to $600 on that post, gave me an idea. I sometimes see posts here with girls in tight tank tops getting good rewards and lots of comments. This place is 90% male and lots of you are old like me so you never know.

In my failed attempt at online dating a few years ago, my looks were the thing the few men I attracted cared about. I managed to have five real-world dates out of that nightmare and every single one of those five guys told me how thin and good I looked right before they took off running.

So times are tough. I have the body, I guess, so maybe I should put it to use.

Taking sexy photos for steemit.

I’m not doing porn, so get that thought out of your mind! But what I am going to do is attempt to get some “sexy” photos to of me post to post on steemit.

I will let my Thai friends know I want this when I go to dinner tonight and I know they will be shocked, thrilled, and eager to help me. Someone takes my non-sexy picture about every 5 minutes I’m there already. If I can get some boob and butt action going, I know they will all take photos and then I will post them.

EDIT: I was wrong! My Thai friends were horrified at the thought of me trying to take sexy pictures! They are always laughing and smiling but my request for these photos left them dumbfounded, quiet, looking down or away from me and it was just the worst moment I have ever had there! I completely killed the mood of everyone. A few people got up and left. Apparently my Thai friends do not think I have a hope in hell of looking sexy, so I will certainly not ask them again.

So to continue:

I have a big problem with my looks and accepting myself being this thin person now. Fear-of-self is very common when lifetime obese people lose weight. This is why so many of us gain weight again on purpose. We were never thin before and our now thin bodies scare us. At the time I lost weight, I only had one mirror on my bathroom cabinet. I had paper taped over it for about 4 months because I could not stand to see the face of this skinny old lady – much less my body.

I only post before and after photos to help fat people see that they can lose weight too. It took me serveral years after weight loss to even be able to do that.

So here is what I will show you now.

This is me in my "signature pose," arms raised in victory. This was the idea of the hairdresser I went to for years in California. She tried hard to get me to be happy and to celebrate my weight loss when it came and this was one of her ideas. So I have a lot of photos with me like this and I barely ever post any of them because they embarrass me.

My son @bxlphabet took the one two years ago, a week before I left for Thailand. I have three jackets on against the cold wind of California so this is not sexy at all. but you can kind of tell I did not lose my boobs when I lost weight. Some of us lose them and some of us don't. I was one of the lucky ones and they are still with me now.

Here I am in Bangkok taking a picture of my hair. I cannot remember who wanted to see it now, but I took this selfie in a mirror made for shorter people than my short self. My shirt is kind of low-cut, so I know this will be appealing to all. My hair looks like my hair even though you can barely see it. I do not have skill with selfies.

Here I am getting ready to go to the airport in Kuala Lumpur. I wanted a photo of my SCOTTeVESTs. I'm wearing two jackets in the tropics to protect the vast fortune I have on me at the time. I need to travel with 20K thb in cash in case immigration asks to see it. 20K thb is two month's rent for me. This cash money is a requirement to get back into Thailand and I have had to show it on two occasions. I also keep my passport and other travel necessities in about 15 hidden pockets.

I'm highlighting all the braces I wear so I do not collapse as I walk for miles during travel. I have black yoga pants that are going on before I leave, so the crazy socks and leg braces will not be seen as I travel. The wrist brace is to help me be able to drag my luggage around and still be able to type for the next week after that. I wave it at immigration so they can see I am feeble and will let me pass without questions.

I wish I had a photo of the young man at the hostel when I asked him to take this photo. He was as appalled as my Thai friends. He said, "You want a photo like that????" in the most unbelieving way. He could not understand why I wanted this ugly photo, and would not even get up out of the chair to take it. This is why I'm smiling strangely and not at a good angle.

Are these photos ever going to get sexy? Yes, but not yet. First, here is a picture if me in the last room I lived in before leaving California. It was so cold in that place that I dressed like this in my bedroom, cap and all. Again, I have a few jackets on and my son's plaid shirt over that.

I was never so glad to leave a place in my long life of leaving places. This was on one of the last days I was there and the room is trashed as I frantically tried to pack.

And finally here we are. This is me in a sports bra and the bottom of my bathing suit. I wanted to make sure it fit before I packed it and here was a mirror so I took photos. Don't get too excited. I think I look fat here, but I probably don't.

That's all I've got folks. If sex sells, this is why I have no money now.

@trufflepig Wins

One of my Ulog posts is currently Number One on a @trufflepig bot list of posts that should get better votes than they do. I'm on those lists sometimes, but this is my first "win" among the losers who gather there.

The fact that I celebrated this achievement tells you just the type of fool I am.

Yay! I am the best steemer there is at making no money on great posts!!!!! WooHoo!

Thank you to @trufflepig pig bot for such a great show of support. You are my best friend now. Unfortunately I did not get any more votes on that post since then, but there is always hope.

Today is Wednesday June 27, 2018

I’m grateful for all that I have now; and the many people that have offered advice, upvoted my posts, and given me links to ideas that have worked for them. But I have barely brought in any money. It's hard to keep positive with this manifestation thing, but I still am.

The money I need now is in US Dollars though much of it is really in Thai Baht

now	San Diego Bus Passes and Supplies	50.00
now	Thailand Food and Supplies	50.00
Before July 1	Thai Visa Extension	86.00
07/01/18	fitinfun Wordpress Renewal	107.40
07/01/18	Domain Renewal	14.99
07/03/18	San Diego Rent	650.00
07/05/18	Thailand Rent	350.00
07/02/18	Thailand WIFI	15.00

The total of those amounts is $1323.39. Added today is my domain renewal for fitinfun. I just got the bill and had forgotten I need to pay it.

I recently got a tip from @socialmediaseo to choose siteground for my fitinfun wordpress site renewal instead of where I host now. This looks like it might be a good move if I can do it and will bring the price down to about $65 a year instead of the $107.40 I list now. At that price, they will migrate my site for me, which would be a great benefit. If I don't have the money - fitinfun.com will die after being my online presence since 2010.

I will have to take everything I have out of steemit tomorrow and go to immigration to extend my Visa for 30 days. Otherwise I will be in this country illegally and we can't have that.

The rest of my manifestation Ulogs are here:

Ulog 2 Manifestation: I am a Money Magnet
Ulog 3 Manifestation: Working for Money
Ulog 4 Manifestation: Hard Day Today
Ulog 5 Manifestation: Working the Weight Loss

Help Me Stay on Steemit

If you would like to help my son @bxlphabet and I stay on steemit, but your upvote is just not enough, here are my wallet and PayPal addresses where I will be so grateful for any help. You can check out my Ulogs for details of our situation. Any input or ideas will be so welcome.

BitcoinCash - BCH

1Bmcyk8Fk9micU3RWjWu3H1P2fvHyj71d6

Bitcoin - BTC

362ncqbi6qJn1daB8mrRrjYYWJ2HwpvcPZ

Dash - DAS

Xs7xdJHeRHRqdwF8RQuo6tPHUdXPm7viZp

Litecoin - LTC

Lhuh274DFkS6CNq4SJjhNem242QYwcTu59

PayPal Thailand:

[email protected]

PayPal US:

[email protected]