RE: I've Been Banned From Poloniex
I have been considering it. I think one thing traditional media has both going for and and against it for me is that you have to commit to your application. There are many things that you can not take back. So I can second guess myself a lot. I think it will either lead to greater confidence or some frustration. I am often very hard on my work. I have a love / hate relationship with it. There are days I think that they should take away my artistic license and then perhaps a few days later I will look at it and find some more compassion for it. Do you experience anything like it.
For a novice your color choice and composition are pretty good dear heart. You seem to have an eye for it. I would value what you have to say based not on your experience but your aesthetic.
I have the same kind of frustration. I found with running and meditation I hit walls, there is no free flow of energy, but if I stay focused and aware I have breakthroughs and when this happens my endurances, skill, and concentration increase.
With art, it's like, " oh shit, this piece isn't turning out, so fuck it, I'm going to finish it anyway the best I can." Many times I produce crap this way, but this is also the place in my mind I find treasures, enhance my skills, and break through creative walls.
I curse a lot when I'm in this space, it's painful, but like running and meditation I feel amazing bliss when I finish, so it's worth the pain.
I hope this helps🌀
At this point in my life if I am running it probably should be in the direction of the emergency room. I am getting back to walking. I have a great affinity with walking but let it slip away. ( a piece I did on walking https://steemit.com/life/@iamwne/a-life-you-can-walk-through) . It is a meditative experience for me in when it is just a simple stroll. I look at things in detail. I notice things I have never seen before. The way the light works in the architecture around me. People interacting. It all seems that I miss so much most of the time.
I have even let the menusha of life take me away from my simple meditative practice is to just simply sit. I don't try to stop my thoughts. For me the experience is much more like watching leaves flowing down a stream. You could never hold on to every leaf as it passes by. For me I simply acknowledge their being and gently move onto the next. I have had a variety of experiences some that border on the mystical in that practice. I am not sure if I feel I hit plateaus or roadblocks in my practice of it. When I sit. I sit. It is a simple approach.
My artwork is problematic for me as I am sure that I over consider it. It is troublesome and unruly. It is hard for me not to be highly critical. I actually feel very insecure about it. For some reason, maybe because I am not a juried or classically trained artist I feel illegitimate. Yet it is how much of my income is derived and I self identify as a freelance artist. Possibly it is because I often sit in envy of the impeccable creativity and technique of others. Or maybe I am just an asshole to myself in this area.
It is quite possibly that there are, "shoulds" attached to it. I am not sure. But I am learning a lot by exercising it. Both in my hard moments with it and those that are lighter I have grown. In the end I guess that is my goal anyway. Insecure or not.