An account of personal realizations after meditating for over an our and the things it clarified for me about the world

I was going to make a post about blockchain and steemit. But I had the mood for some meditation and I sat down and meditated for over an hour. It was one of the most profound and mundane meditation sessions I've had. I've gone through some very powerful and profound meditation sessions in my life. But none of them felt mundane like the one I had today. I can remember meditating even as a little kid and even at the time there were occasional moments which deeply impacted me. I was doing Ānāpānasati meditation and my mind was going through various things and more and more about all sorts of things from human mind, nature of the universe, psychology and many more became clearer. I've been through these and it's almost impossible to really communicate. But none of them had a sense or "Ordinary".

Among many other things, one important transformation I had was realizing how much of multi-taskers we really are. I already had an idea for ages, but never properly and deeply understood it. We think a 100 times more than we live. For a depressed or schizophrenic person, this could be even higher. Just think about a person in your life. Now tell me about a conversation you've had. I'm sure you can remember several. After that, tell me about some conversations you've had that never really happened. What do you have more of? If you can dig out every memory about you and another person (including the ones you've never met like a celebrity or a boss) and think about it for a moment. Sometimes a person has a conversation so many times before it actually even take place. Sometimes a person wakes up after a mentally busy day and has to think about which of the things really happened.

You can never really give up anything by giving up. You can never really live a life by thinking about your life. Every moment is a fleeting moment. While drowned in thinking, people don't realize this. When they have to move to a different place, when they reach the graduation, when a long holiday trip ends or when a person retire, they feel this fleeting sense.People even learn to cherish things when they face this understanding. When it's something already understood to be a fleeting moment like a yearly gathering of a great group of friends, people do their best to live those moments to the fullest and gain the best out of them.

When they understand this about life, when they understand that the entire lifetime is a fleeting speck, they tend to be nihilistic pricks or some just seek "something" in denial. They find themselves a higher cause which is a one of their own making. It could be a social cause, some god or similar entity or some cosmic force. But ultimately all these things are just seeing what they think should be instead of what really is. What is really there? Well...... nothing. Just relax. Don't make stuff up when they don't exist. One could connect the stars in the sky to make up shapes. The stars are there and the shapes also exist. But the shapes we deem to be a lion or a hunter or a scorpion only exist in our minds and not as cosmic forces. If one keeps finding shapes in stars one would end up with a chore...... a "task" where none existed

Thanks to some great people on steemit I came across Advaita Vedanta. There were many things I connected with. But one thing I mentioned was that there is a point where I diverge from Advaita Vedanta. The name Advaita means non-dual and the teachings leads to a unity that is without duality. Even at early middle school I almost on board with the spiritual beings having a physical experience. But the glimpses of understanding I had didn't exactly lead to reality is an illusion.

Then how the FUCK am I experiencing all this?

Hitler has a point. That's why I say I'm more connected with Relational Quantum Mechanics and Theravada Buddhism more than anything.

Correlations have physical reality; that which
they correlate does not.

The above is a quote from N. David Mermin which very well sums up my view on reality. The best analogy for reality I've come across is the dictionary. When thinking about the nature of the reality/universe try to picture the mechanics of a dictionary. It could help you guide through my writings. I mostly live inside my own head. So communication isn't my most developed skill. I'll try to be as clear as possible.

A Dictionary is a tangle of words and definitions. It's a web of correlationships, But only those correlationships are objectively true. There is no origin point of meaning. A is A because it's called A. I think I am; Therefor I am.
Full article: https://steemit.com/philosophy/@vimukthi/relational-quantum-mechanics-solution-for-the-paradox-of-the-ship-of-theseus-with-a-touch-of-zen-and-cryptocurrency

When I meditate more and more I came to realize that aware that the physical is real. When the mind turns quiet, you are at peace. Most of you should be familiar with this. A thinking person may even become convinced that the physical is a side effect of reality. When you develop enough calmness and become stabilized, try going around and observing the world. A night spent pondering with a candle or oil lit lamp can be a great way to have this experience. Personally I use a coconut oil lamp and I think some incense sticks might also add up even though I haven't tried that. Just light it up and try to experience the world in a calm mind. Maybe you can meditate while walking. When you become more aware about the physical world, you'll grow to know the "realness" of it. This won't be some conviction about reality existing or not existing. It'd be just a perception.

The physical isn't less real than the mental/spiritual. We spend too much energy thinking and not perceiving the world around us. When we realize how fake and baseless our "thoughts" about the physical reality, one may tend to see the entire physical existence as fake. Constellations doesn't exist. But that doesn't make the stars disappear. The physical isn't more of a side effect than the mental/spiritual. Instead of saying that there is no "2". I'd say there are 2 and none of them matter. They are both side effects without a main effect. The mental and physical are a yin and yang. They are both real and they exist. It's the reality that doesn't exist.

That last sentence may have sounded like too convoluted or complex. If so, please refer to the dictionary allegory. Each word has a real and objective meaning and each meaning in it can be expressed in a word. The words and meanings are dependently originated. It's correlations without correlata. It's side effects without original effect. If you are a Ghost in the Shell fan, you can also drag Stand Alone Complex to the description.

99% of most people's idea of the physical world is just that; an idea. With our minds we engage with the physical all the time in all sorts of ways. If you can stop doing things that are not absolutely necessary, stop saying things that are not absolutely necessary and finally stop thinking unless it's absolutely necessary you will have developed a certain sense of clarity. You may be habitually drawn towards your previous patterns of always thinking about the world. Don't be drawn away. Just perceiving without engaging with it can become a scary thing as it's so new and so away from the world you've known. In fact you'd feel like you are loosing your whole world. Yes. Perceiving the physical without judgement may actually break down your spiritual world. After all judgement is mental and not physical.

The thing that became clear to me was that the mind that stop judging and engaging won't break us apart from the physical world. It is the spiritual existence of you that would crash and burn. After all guns haven't killed anyone, and no scenery has ever captured a person. It is the mind that become angered and seduced. When there is no such judgement,
it's the judge who dies.

And I think part of me died today.