I Am a Paralegal. Does That Make Me a Sociopath?

in #sociopath8 years ago (edited)

A popular anarchist view is that politicians, and the citizens who support their systems, and the systems that enforce their systems (police, judges, lawyers, etc.) are inherently sociopathic in nature in that they either directly or indirectly (and knowingly) harm others and/or take away their innate human rights.    

And, OK. I get it. So I’m a sociopath. I happen to salute the American flag, I happen to think some drug laws are OK, I am not so sure all taxes are bad, and I also happen to work professionally in a legal system that is rife with inconsistencies and lies. I am a litigation paralegal. 

Here’s What My Job Entails:    

My main job every day is to gather evidence from both parties, request production where information seems to be lacking, and help the senior attorney organize a strategy for our client that will best accomplish their goals.    

I work VERY closely with the client. I am responsible for making sure they stay on track with what is required of them. Most of these individuals are discombobulated, their lives are in ruin, their kids are being abused, their spouses are cheating on them and stealing money from the community assets, they didn’t MEAN to run over that lady and now they’re facing 1st degree murder, their ex revenge-porned them and made money off it. How do I cope???   

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I get to sort through the muck and make sense of it all. I am very proud of what I do. And there is NEVER a dull moment. But the thing that keeps me going is this: I have been a victim of the inadequacies and injustices of this current legal system. I know what it's like to know the truth, to tell the truth, to have have really good evidence, and have every best interest in the universe, and get the raw deal. I know what our clients are going through. I know how to help them. I know what is effective. I know what isn't. 

I think the system is kind of rotten. The least I can do is help within it. 

Recently we appealed a 1st degree murder conviction. The man had been exceptionally inebriated and inadvertently smashed into a pedestrian with his car, instantly killing her. He was sentenced to life in prison for premeditated, deliberate murder of a woman he had never met, primarily because the defense attorney had been sleeping on the job, and secondarily because the jury had misunderstood the verdict instructions.    

Our client should be held accountable for his actions. And he certainly will. He killed a woman. But he is not a violent, hardened criminal, out for blood. He was a man grieving the death of a loved one, drinking too much, and getting behind the wheel. There were also other individuals present whose actions contributed to the incident of the woman's death. It was not cut and dry. 

We were able to effectively communicate--using a “sociopathic” system--that this man was a good person who had done a bad thing, and that the jury had misunderstood the verdict instructions. Supreme Court judges heard our complaint, and they reversed the Justice Court’s ruling. Our client will either face a retrial, or there will be a plea bargain. It will be up to the DA. 

It is TERRIBLE what the mother of the victim went through. We do not wish her any harm by retrying the case. However, our client does not deserve to be treated like a vicious criminal. And we hope to address some of the actions of other individuals on the scene who contributed to this woman's death. 

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Another case I recently worked on involved a father in his 30’s who had lost custody of his children to the mother. He hired us after 2 years of knee-deep court proceedings gone awry. 

He dropped off a few large files of court proceedings and expert reports. I spent the next two weeks reviewing the file. The whole case was a bit of a kangaroo. The mother had been uninvolved and absent in the children’s lives for over 2 years. She was a drug addict.    

The father was the sole custodian, held a steady job, had tested clean for drugs consistently for three years (which is important in a custody court). But mom had turned over a new leaf, had been attending rehab, and had decided to be involved again. She wanted more custody. Supervised visitation was ordered, with the intention of increasing her time with the children gradually.    

Suddenly, mom began making unexpected and highly convenient allegations that the father was abusive and violent, even though he had no violent history with her or anyone, and she had had no contact with him for over two years except when recently exchanging the children. Her visitations with the children were extremely limited, brief, and supervised. She was a complete stranger to the children. She would have no way of knowing anything about our client's parenting or his life. It was all very outrageous.   

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I read the initial investigation into the allegations. The social workers interviewed the children and assessed the situation and were not able to find anything wrong with dad. The kids seemed very happy with him. They said only nice things about him. They had no behavioral issues at that time. The case should have been dropped.    

Then dad was found in possession of marijuana paraphernalia. It belonged to a friend. He hadn’t smoked in years. But the kids were immediately taken away and given to mom, who had suddenly made a full recovery from 6 years of heavy addiction and the lifestyle that accompanies it. 

Now, the child protective services were quoting her abuse allegations in a petition to the court, saying that “a collateral witness” said he was a drug addict, he was violent, abusive, neglectful, etc. The collateral witness was the mother, who had been absent for two years and had no contact with him or history of abuse from him in the past.    

From this point forward, the report was gospel. It was quoted, reworded, embellished, and regurgitated, until it resembled something else entirely. The allegations were magically treated as fact, despite the fact that they had been investigated and had been resoundingly unsubstantiated

It was fascinating to me to read each successive court ruling and watch as this snowballed out of control. 

Dad was out of the picture, the kids were being raised by maniac mom, and THEN, the kids started developing behavioral issues. Severe ones. So the child protective services came back in and said that these issues were proof that the father had abused them…even though the father had been out of the picture now for months, and the kids had had no behavioral issues prior to this separation.     

For two full years our client fought the system. He had hired and fired two attorneys, followed court recommendations to the hilt, plead with the court 4 times, appealed once, and was flogged each time.    

It was ludicrous. I couldn’t wrap my head around the blatant miscarriage of justice.    

And then we came along. 

I reviewed the file for inconsistencies in findings, faulty investigative procedures, erroneous witness statements, and unsubstantiated allegations. What I found was an abundance of the above, and a complete absence of any evidence or chronology indicating the father had perpetrated anything against the children. Out of the dozens of therapy reports, dozens of CASA reports, and dozens of CPS assessments, there was NOTHING to point to his harming the children except for one thing:  The mother’s initial allegations, which we know were immediately and overwhelmingly unsubstantiated.    

We had to fix this. And we did. I put together a time line of events, exhibits, and reports, and the attorney drafted a 20-page tour of the case up to that point, including law and argument. We submitted it to the new Judge (which was another thing the attorney did—got a new judge). He looked at our complaint. He reviewed the other party’s allegations.    

It was supposed to be a 2-day evidentiary hearing.    

It ended up being 2-hours. Our client got custody. (Or rather, he got MORE of it. And he’ll be getting more as the months go by.)   

The whole damn time, I kept thinking, “These evaluators are completely devoid of any ethics or real human emotion. They are sociopaths!”                           


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I believe sociopaths to be a necessary evil. does that make you evil for being a sociopath? No but it probably makes me evil.

Why I am evil or why I think sociopaths are necessary? Depends on your definition of "sociopath". Post traumatic stress disorder seems to be prevalent among those who fight wars. I don't think true sociopaths would develop such syndromes in the same situation. the military tries to turn you into one well enough but it doesn't work so well. Emotions would have you save the one in exchange for letting millions of others die and if that one is standing right in front of you well the normal person would save that one. the logical thing to do is save the million. The joker was a psychopath but batman was a sociopath me thinks. the scene where he's forced to chose between the woman he loves or the man that can save the city. Why it makes me evil is unrelated.

I wanted to know why it makes you evil. Are you batman? This could be really good for my reputation.

No im not batman, and at the moment I do not have the time beside my memory is highly fragmented from life stuff and it would take time to pull together a decent enough facsimile. I could throw a couple of tidbits out right now but I doubt it would have much effect on your reputation. your post does alright without my adage.

Uhm.. sociopath and psychopaths have very specific definitions. No sense in dancing around what we think they mean.

I don't think you're a sociopath simply because you work in a system full of sociopaths. It sounds like you're interested in actual justice and fixing the horrid judgements that are routinely made within the "justice" system.

Now, if you were a prosecutor trying to convict a drunk driver of premeditated murder or trying to send a marijuana grower to prison for life, then sure - you'd likely qualify as a sociopath. People who want to intentionally harm others who have harmed nobody, or want to exceedingly/violently punish people for accidents or lapses of judgement - they're just not good humans. There's no place for them in society, especially in an alleged system of justice. The problem with the legal system is that there are far too many bad humans playing the roles of prosecutors and judges, and too many "public defenders" that just don't care about adequately representing the accused. And the plethora of laws...don't even get me started on those. And that's just criminal law.

Civil courts are an absolute mess too, especially when it comes to families. I seriously don't know how you do it. I would likely strangle every prosecutor and judge that I'd have to listen to in a courtroom. Law and those people creating, enforcing, and adjudicating it today has/have become a complete mockery of any sense of fairness or justice. Laws are unnecessary or don't make sense, enforcers violently enforce laws where there are no victims, prosecutors abuse the laws and overcharge people to try to "win" convictions, and judges frequently ignore laws and disregard the fact that there is often no injured party in the first place. It's insanity. I have zero faith in the system, and every time I hear stories like yours here, it just confirms what I already know.

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Seriously - I would literally go insane trying to work within this system. You may not be a sociopath, but you might be crazy. Thanks for sharing anyway!

@ats-david, I was hoping to hear from you on here, since you're the go-to on the subject. You and @sterlinluxan. Thanks for thinking I'm crazy. ;0). Yes, it is crazy. Yes, I do want to strangle them all. And do you know how I do it? I write really good stuff. And the attorney I work for is insane. She's great. Our efforts may not strangle, but they stifle a bad ruling. I TOTALLY agree with the whole "bad humans" in charge. But you know what, there are a lot of good ones too. Doing it because they are like me. They want to do what they can in a broken system. And it's admirable.

Actually, I have a tremendous stomach for it. You might be surprised to hear that in a sense, I am energized most days. Why? Partly because I love the smell of paper. And the sound of wood floors under my feet. But mainly it's because I was in the civil courts off and on for 5 years for custody issues. Had I had a good attorney and some better direction, my life would have been different, and my kids' lives. I guess in a way I feel some satisfaction in knowing that our clients don't have to endure nearly what I did. Because we know what we are doing. I'm now married to a wonderful man (@aeonoftime) who appreciates what I've been through and adores the kids. And he puts up with the crazy, which is the main thing.

Also, you should write an article on the drug war. I know you've mentioned it in passing, but I think you should spend time and write a decent anarchist article on drug laws so I can get on there and debate it with you. I'm really not an authority on the subject, but I have lots of good questions and points.

I dont think you are a psychopath. I think people mistake detachment for psychopathic behavior. In an area in which people have to deal with really horrible, terrible situations detachment is probably one of the biggest coping mechanisms. Just keep being a really good paralegal. :-)

Thanks! But I am a "sociopath" by anarchist definition because I support a sociopathic system of law enforcement. p.s. @ats-david is the one I was telling you about who is starting a coffee business in Costa Rica and helping to develop the infrastructure for other farmers there.

I'm really glad you wrote this :D I could relate after some of my recent battles with the anarchists as a veteran. The comments sections are especially treacherous.

The only options I appear to self-identify as are a murderer or a dupe. Not sure if that's better than a sociopath or not.

Some of the anarchists on here are full of venom and discussions with them are about as fun and thought provoking as rinsing your eyes out with sand. Worse, some of them appear to be as naive about pragmatic solutions and strategic advantages as pie-in-the-sky progressives who want to everyone to have 'free everything'.

Some of the anarchists on here are brilliant, objective, well-reasoned, and make for an excellent ambassador to their ideology. Seek those out for conversations. I felt the same way when I realized everything I was writing is being filtered through an ideological purity test... a test I obviously failed as a blatant 'statist' :)

I agree. It takes all types. The thing is, I LIKE a lot of what they have to say. I think there is substance to it, and it's good to think about things differently for a change. I'm following a few that are reasonable, practical, sound, and above all, respectful. @ats-david is a good guy, super smart and articulate, @sterlinluxan is a great follow, although less pragmatic and more arrogant in my opinion, but he puts out fun videos and has a huge following on and off the platform, and is highly intellectual, and intriguing to read. I also like following @quinneaker, but he doesn't talk too much about his philosophies as much as just lives them daily. Like actually lives in this little village and they sort of make their own rules. Anyway. I admire a person who abides by his convictions, whatever they are. I just think they don't need to be indecent about it.

If I understand the anarchist mindset correctly, or at least just apply my own thoughts to it, then the sociopath in this equation is the "system". A system that seems to have developed in such a way as to treat good people so badly. I would go so far as to say that system has become psychopathic - it appears to deliberately make life difficult for the good and honest, and rewards those who clearly do not have others best interest at heart. I have many such stories myself, first hand experience, from here where I live.

The system is not you. Nor is it me. We just have to operate within it. It sounds to me like you are doing very good work to try to alleviate some of the suffering inherent within this system of ours.

Even within an Anarchist model, laws would still be needed, restitution would still need to be made for laws broken. But the laws would be fewer, and based on natural and common law, and the overseeing and policing would not be controlled by a monopoly. At least that is my rudimentary understanding of it.

At the end of the day, people are important, and any system that leverages the suffering of people and utilises it to further benefit itself, or allows people to benefit themselves within that system at the expense of others suffering, is not a system that I can support. I can live within it, as I am a pragmatist and realist, but to see all the suffering is upsetting.

I wholeheartedly agree. The less government the better. The fewer laws, the better. But the need for police and protection is necessary, because there always will be some people who will think it is ok to Lord themselves over others. The problem is, what we think is protection often ends up being the very system that destroys freedom. First hand here as well! Which is why anarchy may sound like a good solution for a few minutes, but it does not take long before a group grows too large, and unmanageable, and/or a bully comes into town and needs managing. And the smaller groups band together, and then you get feudalism. Which is a natural progression, and it occurs even here on Steemit! And that is the precursor to a monarchy. Anyway, I don't know, but I think IDEALLY it could work out. It would just require a certain type of understanding for it to work, and everyone would need to be in agreement and no one would be allowed to take advantage, and that's a tough egg to crack.

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