Who Am I? I Think I Lost Myself...
Lately, My life has shocked me in so many ways...
A couple of posts ago, I talked about how I lost part of my business.
After contacting customer support... I got it back.
Wait for what!?
Yeah, Some glitch I guess. Nothing makes any sense. But I'm so thankful I got it back, I'm just focused on making sure I follow each and every rule.
This year sucks
I hate to be so pessimistic.
But I feel like this year is going to transform my life. The year started off great, I mean I went on vacation with my long time boyfriend.
We were engaged for a while; As in a couple of hours. Yeah, I don't even think you can count that. Now we are broken up. Yeah... six-year relationship, Gone. Down the drain... Yeah.. That happened. I don't even know. I'm trying to process it still... I was dumped...
My mom is dealing with breast cancer, Although she's getting better. And she's handling the treatment well. I just think I'm still in shock, That someone I know can go through that... I guess I live in a bubble.
I lost a huge chunk of my business... And got it back.
I started a new business, And I'm super stressed about that.
I became a crazy workout lady, To cope with my busted heart.
I still spend all day, Building my businesses trying to generate as much money as possible. While doing grueling workouts until I can't even walk anymore because I'm so sore.
All This in just 3 Months... Yeah..
When It rains, It pours...
I started looking around my little empty room,
When did I become a minimalist?
Why Did I quit my job?
Why Do I live in Utah?
Why do I exist?
Pretty much I just woke up today, confused about everything. I'm trying to understand why I made these decisions for myself. Why I'm here today, And what I'm going to do with my future... I'm beginning to question everything, At the age of 24. Am I making the right decisions for myself?
Don't worry I'm not leaving Steemit...
But just a warning, My posts may get weird. I'm not in the correct mental state right now.
I know the drill, I got to take care of myself physically and emotionally. But at the same time, There is only so much I can do If I can't afford to do it. So I have just to do the best that I can. I've been doing what makes me happy lately, Like riding my bike on the bike trail. And indulging in nature. That seems to help!
I may just take a small trip, Heck. Borrow money if I have to. I feel like I've lost my sanity a bit. So if anyone has tips on traveling ALONE. Let me know. I've never done it before.
I've never felt like this before....
Things feel cloudy, And I feel lost. I don't think I've ever been like this before.
I apologize...
I realize that most the time I put on this tough, happy and bubbliness to my posts. SO this one must seem quite sad. I'll get out of it! I'm just going through a weird time right now, Where everything as I knew it has changed.
Heck, Even Steemit Has changed...
Yes, unfortunately life goes through peaks and troughs. All I can share is what works for me otherwise I found the "whatever to the whole world mood come on."
+Exercise at least few times a week
+Five minute meditation in the morning (while listening to instrumental versions of songs I like.)
+Write out daily gratitudes.
The last one is by far the most impactful for me. Starting doing that little over a year ago and not only has my self confidence grown - it also helped me recognize what I've accomplished and actually appreciate it.
Also, gratitudes are great because you can't be grateful and angry/sad at the same time.
Actual example from today:
Meditation for length of this song: nujabes
Gratitudes:
1- Grateful for this beautiful sunshine, 70 degree weather and the palm trees I see looking out of my window.
2- Grateful that I have cash flowing rental properties
3- Grateful I have three more months at my job to save up money while launching scaredycatguide.com
As you can see they can be simple things or larger scale. Hope it helps!
I lost my gf and best friend last year. I also found out my brother (whom I viewed as my close friend laundered 60k from my business.
I've come to expect that life doesn't play favorites nor are we the center of it. Wee ensue viruses inhabiting this earth. From loss either comes gain or misery. My heart aches, but I've learned to cherish the moments I have here and love my fellow species, because nothing we do is immortal - why not enjoy life for what it has to offer you? Friends and success will come and go, but self determination is what really matters
Know the world in yourself. Never look for yourself in the world, for this would be to project your illusion. You will free yourself when you learn to be neutral and follow the instructions of your heart without letting things perturb you.
Wow! Daily Gratitude's I need to do that :)
Thank you so much heheh :)
Omg! I love what you are grateful for. You are lucky to have palm trees outside your window :) I can't wait to go to San Diego again for a much needed "Beach Day" .
This helps a lot! Hehe :)
Wow! @sumerianprince That would be rough to deal with!!
I agree! Thank you so much for this comment. I'm realizing that more and more, That life certainly doesn't play favorites, sometimes your in the right place at the right time and you get what you want.
I think I now the answers! :D
When did I become a minimalist? When I decided it was the fabulous thing to do! We all have too much stuffs that just weighs us down!
Why Did I quit my job? When I decided to break the chains of being a wage slave and step out nto the world as a free woman in control of my own destiny!
Why Do I live in Utah? Well I was born here, and the natural beauty is awesome! But I can travel and maybe find a better place to be!
Why do I exist? To take care of rabbits, draw pretty pictures, tell steemit stories and add my unique contributions to a world that needs me!
Sending Lots of Love to you! I know it doesn't matter because I'm just some person on the interwebs but I'm happy I got to read all your posts here on steemit and I've come to care about you, so I wish you All The Best! :-)
Your comments are so awesome hehee XD
Thank you for being so sweet hehehe!! This makes me feel so much better <3
Lots of good replies here for you! Seems like a lot of people care about you and give good advice. I'm glad you feel a bit better! <3
Hang in there! Life is filled with full of surprises. Sometimes, it can be blessing and sometimes, it can be nightmare. The best thing is not to give up and be optimistic. Good thing will come.
Thank you! I can't wait for that. hehe
Life is like a Zebra - stripe white, stripe black. Don't give up, take a little patience and there will be a white stripe.
I love that saying! It's my first time I've heard it. Thank you.
Hi @kaylinart, I am not one of the people who give many advices and forgive me if I'm being a obtrusive. but I think that it is always good to support your neighbor in the difficult moments so ... Of my short journey in life I have learned that all the difficult moments we are going through are not so that we focus on the pain that they can cause us, are for us to learn and take a lesson from them, they will make us the men and women entrepreneurs and successful of tomorrow, we will never go through a test that we can't bear. The purpose of our life is not something that we find from one day to another, it is something that takes time and you still have enough time to understand it so Have courage !! I hope your mother gets better and heals. Remember that you are never alone, If you believe in a God then you will know that he will always be with you and if not, then for that are the friends of any side of the world haha Greetings from Venezuela ;) I would tell you to visit Venezuela but the truth is we are somewhat bad with the insecurity here ...
If they were not the right words, please forgive me, it was not my intention.
Thank you! Your comment is super sweet and makes me feel better :)
Sometimes we need go to dark tunnel and then at the end tunnel you will see the light. Cheer up ! :)
Thank you :) hehe.
It's always darkest before the dawn! Be strong @kaylinart! :)
Agreed :) I love that! I always remember that If I ever hit rock bottom, I only can go back up. :)
Courage, courage !
Thank you hahah.
I can relate in many ways right now. Be strong and learn to put yourself first in dificult times.
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