How I faced my demons and fought back!

3 months ago
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I freaked out! It was the scene from the Doctor Strange movie where Benedict Cumberbatch’s character discovers that his hands are permanently impaired. The fine motor control in his hands required to be a neurosurgeon are lost forever. I looked at my right hand; being unable to move my fingers had left me feeling terrified!


Source: Pixabay

During the first month of my hospitalisation I had the biggest smile in the face of a disaster. I was unnerved by the accident and kept a positive outlook towards recovering fully. But, watching that scene in the movie, and being unable to move my fingers normally caused my strength to quickly fade away.

However, the loss of motor control wasn’t the only cause for my fear. I was afraid that this injury occurred at a very critical time in my life-when I was experiencing several positive changes. In that brief moment it seemed as if the accident was a massive, irrecoverable setback to all my plans.

The first few seconds shows my left hand working normally. The middle displays the problematic right hand and the last portion shows how a custom fabricated dynamic splint pulls up the fingers to facilitate movement.

Before I continue any further I want to thank you for your attention as I narrate a personal incident!

Steemians who personally know me will attest to the fact that I am very optimistic. No matter how difficult a situation, I’ve always faced it head-on!

I met with an horrific accident on the 9th of February and broke my right leg. I fractured my femur, fibula and shattered my tibia. In addition to some torn muscles there was also a minor hip fracture and a severe nerve damage in my right arm. No matter how hard I concentrate, I simply cannot move them!

The old saying that, “An idle mind is a devil’s workshop” is true!

For several days after I had watched Doctor Strange, I continued to feel that life had let me down. Days passed, and even as I slowly managed to get back on my feet I was weighed down by negative thoughts. I imagined my motorcycle crash through day and night for a month! Waking up several times to these recurring nightmares of the exact moment I got hit!

My right hand is the dominant one and I’m unable to write properly, type or even hold the computer mouse well enough to use it. Breaking food with my fingers or eat with my hand is difficult. I cannot sign cheques well enough to withdraw money from my own bank accounts! But, the worst of them all was the stark realization that I cannot ride motorcycles which requires fine motor control with surgical precision, and this broke my heart.

It was the worst of them all and caused me great mental agony! I woke up everyday scared of losing my passion for motorcycling. Motoring across the country, experiencing and enjoying motorcycles and cars has been a way of life. The life lessons these activities taught me helped shape me into the person that I am today. More importantly, motoring gave me purpose!

What was I going to do now?

I had just turned 29 and is it time to hang my riding boots already? What was I going to do if I cannot experience the things I love the most anymore! These are tough questions that I faced everyday!

I had analyzed every part of my accident countless times. Despite being fully aware that a careless rider crashed into me at a great speed, and there was nothing that I could have done to prevent this, except never having stepped out of my house to begin with! I continued to put myself through self-blame, guilt and regret!

If there was any chance my nerve could recover on its own, then there would have been some noticeable improvement within 6-8 weeks of the accident. But there was no improvement and instead I was continuing to experience a progressively escalating pain from my elbow to my wrist.

Learning to play an electric guitar was on my bucket list since my teenage years. 10 days prior to the crash I gave myself an advance birthday gift; a brand new Yamaha Pacifica-012 beginner’s electric guitar paired to a Fender Mustang I v2 and was teaching myself to play it. I could play it very little after the crash and yet it helped uplift my mood.

As fate would have it I had to stop this as well as I couldn't strum the strings anymore without considerable pain and discomfort! Neither was I able to strum it fast enough.


It was April, nearly two months had passed. I was happy when I was visiting any friends but felt a little depressed in my moments of solitude. This momentarily had a paralyzing effect on my life.

Despite being fully geared from head-to-toe in high quality motorcycle gear, a blunt impact in the accident caused a massive damage to the radial nerve that controls the wrist and fingers. The jacket’s elbow armour prevented a fracture while my top-of-the-line motorcycle adventure boots prevented open fractures and my leg from severing off in the impact!

My gear was nearly destroyed but served it's purpose!

After two weeks of consultations with multiple doctors and surgeons, blood-work, MRIs, neurology and ultrasound tests, I was going in for another surgery. Luckily, my plastic surgeon, Dr. Dinesh Kadam happens to be one of the top surgeons in my part of the country and we explored the possibility of opening up the area for an investigation, possible repair and/or a nerve graft.

My surgeon cut a portion of the healthy nerve from near my right ankle, about an inch or so to replace the damaged portion in my arm.

After 3 weeks of wearing a cast, I’m able to start moving my arm again. Although, there is no immediate improvement, yet I remain hopeful. I have to wait a minimum of 5-6 months before we expect to start seeing any positive results. But nothing guaranteed! Now, I have this weird numbness and burning sensation near my ankle but I can live with this if it means my arm can recover and I can use my fingers again.


A few temporary piercings.

Sometimes, one can only hope for the best!


Back at the hospital, I was still reeling under the effects of the general anesthesia and pain medications when I was shifted back to my room. I had access to my phone once again and began updating my friends on a successful surgery.


Post surgery scar isn’t too bad

It was then I read a simple quote, shared by a friend and authored by Paulo Coelho, who said and I quote:

Close some doors, not because of incapability, arrogance or pride but simply because they no longer lead where you want to go.

This had a profound effect on me as it struck me that there’s a lot that I could still do.

It was a moment of realization, somewhat of an awakening that struck me hard and it resounded deep within me! I wasn’t devoured by any menacing, negative thoughts anymore! Upon further introspection I realized that I was being unnecessarily, extremely self critical because I had almost given up on being patient with my situation and myself and the fact that nothing has changed in 2 months had me frustrated! All the while, I had chosen to ignore all the positive things in my life.


I’ve made a slight mod and added thicker and stronger bands to the splint

The fact was that I kept my chin up and pushed myself through physiotherapy to be able to walk again. I was also off the pain medications sooner than most people owing to a better tolerance towards pain.

Despite the hospitalisation, I have no major liabilities. I had my family and friends all around me including many amazing people that I met and interacted through Steemit who kept in touch and regularly checked-in on my health. I love the community that we have created here!

A while ago I had a long chat with a very dear friend, “Sharad Sharma.” We celebrated his 50th birthday not too long ago. He’s an Indian news media industry veteran now enjoying his life to the fullest. We ran a motorcycle guided tours company until I relocated back to my hometown. He’s also a fellow biker and someone I look upto and always has some sagely life advice for me!

Knowing my history, he reminded me of all the good things I’ve done for myself, my family and others around me! How I should give myself some credit for the way I have faced every tough situation in my life. My approach has always been right and I was reminded that I needed to believe in myself. More than ever before! This made me take a hard look at my situation and how I needed to look at it differently. I felt that soon I’ll have my head on my shoulders again!

Soon after that one day I was chatting with @aishwarya and she asked me what are all the good things that that has happened to you during these months and make a list and you’ll know that it's not always that bad. I did that as we spoke and realized the following:

Sure, I might not be able to ride motorcycles today, but this can change! With my dynamic splint I can drive absolutely perfectly. Today, I’m limping when I walk but come tomorrow I will be running once again-quite literally!

Cliched as it may sound, these situations in your life wakes you up to the tiny fact: when you push your mind to be positive that you can push yourself beyond any self-imposed limitation in your life.

Today, I can still do 99% of things I wanted to. I am alive and healthy. This incident brought me closer to many of my friends, separating the real from the fake and as you can tell, I can go on. There are plenty of positive things happening in my life today!


@aishwarya sent me this beautiful gift that she painted with my quote. I had once shared it as my status on Whatsapp and it goes like this:“Travel the world, meet you new people, share stories and experience all this world has to offer you.” This is exactly what I've done and will continue doing till I kick the bucket for good! She told me once that it inspired her and now it has inspired me back!

Considering the fact that my accident occurred in the middle of a forest area 240kms and many hours away from my hometown and it’s excellent medical care, I’m lucky to have another chance at this life again! Nothing is lost and there’s so much I will accomplish in the years to come! My motorcycle is being repaired, someday I will ride it again!

@sjennon sent me this engraved guitar pick on my birthday all the way from Berlin. I look at it everyday as it’s on my desk and remember the good ol’ times. I am thrilled to have friends all over who remember me!

It wasn’t until I read a post by a friend @things, “Philosophy things: The Unspoken.” that I started working on this post. She writes and I quote:

Escaping your truth is the worst thing you do to yourself. So I want you to look into the eye of that mental torpedo with fierce determination.

To me, these were very powerful words that completely changed the way I looked at my situation.

You know, a free soul is like a life-full seed, it goes where the wind takes it, seeing the world, being at peace! Enjoying even the harsh strokes of nature, and when the rain and storm bring it down to the ground to bury it, it rises from the ground with the rise of that sun with a new resolution, new form, new ambition and a new hope! — @things

Another instance that motivated me to share my experience was an article, “How Can You Rise, If You Have Not Burned? The Theme of Rebirth” authored by our beloved @mammasitta and it made me feel that If I could share my experience maybe someday I go through a difficult situation again then this will serve as a reminder to me that I can find the strength within me to overcome struggles.


One of those days when I managed to get out of the house

I started off writing this with the thought process of, ‘what it's like to give up on things you love’ but now I don’t feel that way anymore!

I suppose, it's only natural that we feel down and depressed when we go through the hardest situations in our life. It's just a normal reaction to these difficult circumstances. I think if you are someone who is driven by passion, self motivation, a burning desire to succeed despite any struggle, it is easier to bring ourselves out of these difficult situations. If you are unable to, then seek help of your friends and family or a professional.

It's important not to linger with your negative thoughts for too long. You don't realize of the dangers that you expose yourself in doing so. Only when we assess our situation without any kind of bias, delusions or pride can we hope to get over our struggles. Today, I’ve made the decision to live life to the fullest once again. There’s nothing better than being happy doing the things you can do.


I've waited over three months to voice these thoughts down to text and I feel like a burden has been lifted! I'm certain many of you might have faced similar situations in your life and have overcome the obstacles in your path.

My hand is still in the same condition as in the video but I'm confident that I will still make it in life!

Perhaps you can share with me how you handled your most difficult, life changing situations? Did these choices shape your life for better or worse in ways that you never expected it would? I would love to hear your story in the comments if you can share it with me.

If you are tired rest, do not give up. -Banksy

Rest my mind I did and now I’m back for good!

Any time I connect with @liberosist on a call he’s always encouraging me to, ’Make a post and share my stories!’ I suppose that’s the best thing I could do for myself.

I hope that this post helps anyone going through a similarly difficult phase in their lives!

Thank you for reading!


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  ·  3 months ago

You are an extremely valuable member of this community. I can't thank you enough for how much you have helped countless others here. It was frightening to hear that you had been in an accident and I am glad you were able to provide some of us with small updates along the way (typing with your left hand!).

I'm glad you have made such progress in recovering so far. It takes a lot of courage and perseverance. And every week has probably felt like a month to you. Can't wait to have you back full strength!

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I was going to type up a comment, but couldn't have said it better myself :)

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agreed!

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True!

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@donkeypong Tom! I'm truly humbled by your words! It feels great to be of help to others here and I really appreciate the kind words you have for me. Your encouragement has always motivated to go one step ahead and give that bit extra into everything that I do. The last few weeks were tough but as I slowly got back onto Steemit, life started getting better and better! Thank you for being there and for your kindness! :)

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It's really true, he didn't even know me so well when he already helped a beginning writer like myself. In a few moments of meeting him, he went from a stranger to a good friend, great infact! Considering how strong he has been throughout!

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We were always meant to be friends @things! Maathe pe likha, dharthi ne chuna hai, aasman bhi cheekha hai yeh meri jaan! haha! ;)

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Blushing like a mofo here.

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🌺

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I remember that I asked you something over WhatsApp and you didn't respond. It was only after a day or two when I realized you never replied to which I sent you another message on the 12th of February:

What is this attitude?

Because someone must have a great attitude to not reply to my amazing texts. It was only the day after that I read your Facebook post about your accident and I froze. You texted me though:

Show me some love girl

Even though you were wrecked, you still managed to come up with a funny sentence to start the conversation with.

Throughout your hospital adventures, we were talking most of the days, I asked about your progress, you sent me horrific pictures back without warning which made @things scream - and then we both would laugh. You always made jokes, which aways lightened the mood. And I fired them back at you. You told me about the funny visual of your feet dangling as you were lifted in the car, or sent me pictures of your sexy shaved man leg. In return, I sent you pictures of me in kurti and my experimental indian food.

I definitely hope I helped you make time go a little faster as you were passing days in the hospital bed.

I carefully chose to send you the guitar pick. I asked you if you were able to play still, to which you said it was possible. For some reason, I specifically wanted to send you this. I know I wanted something personalized. Something cool! Maybe it was because it was damn pretty and I never knew how to play guitar myself (and honestly too lazy to try it out), but maybe it was also because this tiny piece of wood could give you the motivation to be able to use it properly as you could before.

Up to this day, we still talk on a regular basis and I am happy we still do. We crack jokes about TittyCoins, I ask stupid questions about Steemit and what not.

I met you at SteemFest, actually I met you before online on Facebook and introduced me to Steemit for which I can't thank you enough. I am happy we met, because I got myself a friend who I know I can count on.

FIREPOWAAA

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I heart you @sjennon! Looking but it seems like a great adventure. I remember chatting with you every time I was in and out of sleep. You know as I was hospitalized I had a great time making everybody laugh. We had some epic conversations about everything under the sun. But I think titty coins was the best one! ;)

I think I'm really lucky or perhaps well deserving to have made some great friends in this life! You are certainly are among them. I look forward to seeing you so we can hang out!

Your gift was perfect! It reminds me of our friendship. That's everything to me! I don't think a day goes without us talking shit and that's just perfect! I wouldn't want anything less in my life. Sometimes I wish I had all my friends in my city but then life wouldn't have been half as fun as it is when I get to travel the world to meet them!

Life is long and short at the same time. The future is uncertain so it feels great being able to look back and see how far we've come in our lives and relationships. Having a great set of friends makes this life absolutely incredible and I'm thrilled to have you in my life!

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I love this story!!

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I am happy I met both of you crazy monkeys 🐒 in person 💕

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Me too! Make sure you're present at the photo rampage <3 We have no pictures!

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I am wondering if the next @steemfest is also in Amsterdam? Does anybody know?

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No idea. We are still waiting for the big announcement of @roelandp!

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Once again you have done it! I know a lot of things changed after that accident but thankfully some of the most important ones didn't! You still have that gorgeous smile, you still are able to laugh when you scared me a million times with your weird leg piercings and other stitches, you still were able to draw courage and be positive enough to write about this incident. You're still funny as hell, you have as your name says the 'fire-power' in you. It gives me so much joy that some of my words got through to you in ways that you really needed. When you'll make your will strong enough, which I think you have today, it'll surpass all your bodily limitations and you'll be able to do things that you feared you never will again. I'm sure of it. And I'm beyond proud right now and almost teary. I'm so freakin inspired, when I was going through my sickness my father told me, "don't be scared that your body will give out, your body will go as far as your will does!" And from that moment on I held on tight and I never forgot to smile and crack jokes. But then you already do that!
You have all of our love ❤️
Thanks for sharing this today.

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Your father is right and I learnt that early on with my crashes but this was the worst ever. Being able to keep calm in the face of adversity is what makes or breaks us! Thank you so much for inspiring me to do this! Every time I read your writing I go into this happy zone and I don't know what to say! I'm so freakin happy to read this! I mean this is could be the greatest testimonial ever! Haha! I'm so glad we met! It was destiny! Piya tuuuuu Ab toh aaja... Lol!

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Hahahahahahah, I'm so happy my words have helped you. Monicaaaaaa oh my darlingggg!

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Hey Firepower, I'm so happy that you are on the mend bro, both mentally and physically, and able to share your story finally.

I really do empathise; such life impacting events can lead you into the darkest corners of inner turmoil. It shows real strength in character that you have pulled yourself through, and are now inspiring others, myself included, who have been fighting similar battles.

It's heartening to hear your story of recovery, and whilst I appreciate that It's still early days for you, I'm sure that you'll be back, stronger than ever, before too long. One love bro.

Bike Guitar.jpg

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Yogi! Broo!!!! Thank you! That motorcycle image was a great idea bro. Made me really happy! I know we've both been through a lot over this past year I can only hope the times ahead are simpler and bring much joy, good health and prosperity to us both! Wish you a great year ahead and I'm sure we'll both be stronger in time for SF2 :)

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I'm happy the pic brought a smile to your face bro :)

Indeed, It has been very difficult for us both, over the last year, but hopefully we can now begin to leave the pain in our rear view mirrors, as we journey on to much happier times ahead!

Keeping everything crossed for a long overdue SF2 meet up bro :)

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Absolutely! Looking forward to it! :)

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RE-Start!
RE-Boost!
Re-BORN!
I can't count how often I experienced this feeling of RE-Newal!

It's a part of life
EMBRACE IT!

"BREATH In
Relax your mind
BREATH OUt and smile
Buddhas have more fun!"

Rise from those ashes like the Phoenix!

My ❤️always

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Breathe in deeply and breathe out! That's all Im doing! Feeling great! Thanks and your posts inspire me! :)

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Looks like a nasty incident. Glad you are on the mend. Reminds me of a time I cut a tendon in my hand with a bread knife and needed surgery to sew it back together. I had to wear a similar contraption to yours on my hand.

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It indeed was nasty! But Im glad that you recovered well. I hope the same for me! :D

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It must have been really hard on you, and honestly I have great respect for how you are going about it now! It's easy to find yourself in a self pitying situation and looking at the glass half empty after a situation like this, but you managed to find acceptance with it.

I notice myself I sometimes have issues with accepting things for what they are. What can I say... I'm a fighter lolz! But reality is how it is and the only thing one can do is embrace it and make the best of it!

What i recently learned myself is to try and look at the lesson in "bad" situations. Like, what can I learn from this?

*big hug and I really hope will heal up even more still! <3

Just wondering by the way, since I have carpal tunnel on both wrists, do you use any software for typing or... :)

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Hey!

It was indeed hard initially but as with anything else in my life I decided just to accept the situation and go with the flow of things. Life isn't really in our control as much as we imagine it would be.

It is easy to end up self pitying but it does no one any good. Certainly not yourself if you stay in that state of mind for a long time.

I'm glad to know that you are fighter.

I notice myself I sometimes have issues with accepting things for what they are. What can I say... I'm a fighter lolz! But reality is how it is and the only thing one can do is embrace it and make the best of it!

It's natural, even I find myself in such situations sometimes and then I snap out of it when I can think clearly for myself!

As far as my hand is concerned, I'm just pushing it. Wearing the splint with the rubber bands that help extend my fingers is painful. After an hour's use I'm in pain and have to take it off and get a break. I really tried to use voice to text for a while and had some success with it but I'm not comfortable at all using it as my flow of thought gets messed up so I had to come back to using the splint and doing it the hard way!

Thank you for taking the time to read and respond. Appreciate it a lot!

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I recently read a very interesting book around Buddhism by Thich Nhat Hanh, called No Fear, No Death and absolutely loved it! It was quite the eye opener for me as he talks about how everything is interconnected and how everything is ever changing.

I tried a bit of voice to text myself, but I agree.... It's a tricky thing. I'm better at writing then I am at talking so I ended up giving up on it and just taking a lot of breaks.

I hope your hand will still improve and one day you'll be able to do all this without pain!

Take care! <3

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Thank you! I'll check out the book that you've mentioned.

I hope your carpal tunnel doesn't give you too much trouble. It must be painful too! Would be nice if our hands dont hurt anymore haha!

Take care of your health too Athena! :)

Big digital hug to ya! haha

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:) Ye well it's just something I have to live with I think but it's k. I just try to find ways to work around it.

:)

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I missed your post From the feed but I was seeing a post about The top Post on no. of comments, and the second or third post was yours. I was struck to see that as I thought you were Injured and could not write.
so I opened It and read it all the way. When you told me that you met with an accident, I thought It would have been a small one, but when I read your post today, Oh boy....It was a mojor one and you suffered a lot both Mentally and Physically.
But I am glad you are fighting with it with a strong hand and you already have won It mentally, and you will win it Physically in a few months and recover to your previous condition. Good Luck For that.

I was also suffering a lot mentally before joining steemit from a few months. I was thinking I could not do anything good in my life and will rot like this till I die. This thought gave me chills.
I was so much strained that If I hadn't joined On steemit, I would have joined a very sucking job in a few months and I think I would Not be able to sustain that kind of life and would have destroyed my life. But when I joined steemit, I see a Hope that I could be far more better than what I am Now.
I have just posted 2-3 Posts and I already see a big change in myself. The amount of work and Reasearch I have to do to make a positive/ motivational post. It made me see things that It was always Me, 2 years ago, 4 years ago and It is still me. Nothing has changed and I just started seeing things in a negative way.
Still I don't earn Much on steemit, but I am very much happy to use it. It keeps me away from my negative thoughts and keeps me busy in doing something productive. I am enjoying my life now like I was enjoying It a year back.
I see a lot of people like you, stories like yours that give me power to do something good and think something better of me. and that's why I enjoy steemit the most. @firepower

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Wow! I'm humbled by by your response and I am so glad that you typed it out for everybody. I think that no matter how bad the situation we have the power to get positive results out of it and when you are in that situation it's never easy and I know that you know that now. I'm happy that you are really pushing yourself and trying to keep yourself in a positive state of mind and I am sure even if you feel right now that steemit isn't making you enough money but the fact that it makes you feel better is also a good thing! consistency is key and you will get where you need to be. I've been here for a year and it's not always been easy for me. but looking back I think the hard work I put into steemit has been worth it. I've made real friends in my life thanks to steemit and I don't think I could have met better human beings if I wasn't for this site. it's not just the money but its the real world relationships that matter too so be positive and keep working and you can change your life

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Thanks, I know consistency is the key, and I will make efforts to change my life. Very motivating post.

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That's great to hear from you! Good luck again. :)

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Thanks.

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One of the greatest guys I know right here!!
Your positive attitude was one of the most important factors getting you through this. Thank you for sharing and I'm happy you're back on your feet now. I can't even imagine what you've been through!

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Dude! Thank you very much! It's going well now but sometimes I do wonder but writing this post has helped me calm down and focus my energies on what is truly important. ie. to be happy and focus on my work and do things that matter the most!

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It's good to see you drop that mic again, friend!

I'm glad to hear your attitude is positive and that your recovery is continuing.

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Yay!

Thank you so much! Recovery is progressing altho I hope by end of year the motor controls are restored.

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I am so glad that you finally wrote this article! :) I remember seeing your update and talking to you just a few days after your accident and how positive you were even then. Just smiling and laughing about what had happened, you surprised me by your attitude towards the whole situation and yes as you mentioned above, it had a great impact on my perception of things. The way you narrated the entire incident while cursing those people was just hilarious! :D
You have been really really strong in these past few months, despite so many issues and still are and I really admire your spirit @firepower :) I am so glad I sent you the portrait without any second thoughts and I was double happy to know that you liked it <3
As I have said you before also, that knowing you has been really really great and you have been an amazing friend to me whom I can look upto :) Another amazing thing is that you got to know how awesome of a person I am ! :P :P ( Okay, kidding...? )
Looking forward to lots of Great times ahead!!!!!! Stay Awesome! "FIREPOWERRRRRRRRR"

  • R. Babe :D
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Haha! Awesome! Really it's been a tough but incredible last few months! I'm just grateful to have some incredibly positive people around me which is making a big difference! Thanks for being there and such a great friend all around!

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Yes! Always here and appreciate your support too :)

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Glad you recover well bro. I want to see you at Steemfest II! Take care, Steem needs you

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On my way to recovery. Still cant use my fingers but hoping it heals in time! Thanks Tim! I hope to see you later in the year in Europe! :D

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You will bro

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With support from friends like you. I know its possible! :D

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Thank you, dear friend , for what You said about it. I don't want to write banal things. I want to support You! The main thing - not to despair and not to lose heart! In life you need to be able to fall and to be able to rise again. Life is full of pleasant surprises. You still make your sharp turn. I am confident. And there's a bend You are sure in for a big surprise. I appreciate that you found the strength. Don't worry. You are surrounded by good friends. I wish You a speedy recovery.

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Thank you so much for your heart warming message and reading the post! I love life even as it brings several challenges. It's only because of these challenges can we grow! :) Cheers!

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Words can't describe the roller-coaster of emotions I felt when reading your post. I don't know if I've said this before, but you're amazing. The distance is far and I feel so close to you.

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Bro! Thank you for the kind words! I'm humbled! I hope we get to meet someday! It would be great!

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So glad to have you alive on this planet, @firepower - your spirit is a great inspiration! You are a solid dude and a true friend, and I look forward to many more dance parties with you~*~

In response to your question, I look back on my biggest challenges in life and am amazed that I survived them; back then, I didn't have the positive outlook and faith that you demonstrate and I was basically hoping to die to be out of my misery. What's super incredible to me is that after years and years of being depressed and carrying that weight like a burden, my perspective changed in a single moment and I understood that it had happened for a reason - to make me into the best version of myself.

Had I not faced those challenges, I was on the path towards resigning myself to a comfortable, complacent, standard, boring life, and in that single moment I realized I could never be fulfilled with an existence like that. I have had incredible lows, but I have also had incredible highs, and I now give thanks for the full spectrum of my life. I am truly grateful for going through enormous pain, because I learned things about myself, about healing, and about helping other people through their own darkness that I likely wouldn't have touched without the challenges I overcame.

It was because of my misery that I turned to yoga, meditation, and Reiki for relief, and I'm so glad I did! For me, they are guaranteed tools not only for overcoming hardships, but for thriving in daily life.

Thank you for sharing updates on your journey to recovery! I think about you often and always send you love and light. I wish you all the best and am happy to share anything I can that may be of service along your path. When you make it to the Garden of Eden, we are going to lavish you with the best we have to offer 💛

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Sara if I could jump out of your computer i'd give you a hug right about now! :) It's incredible how life puts us through extremely challenging situations but also allows us to pull ourselves out of it. It's a great learning experience in-fact! I admire anyone who has the courage to do it and I'm so glad to hear about your journey today! Its so great that we connected Sara! You are an awesome girl and I miss hanging out with you!

You are a solid dude and a true friend, and I look forward to many more dance parties with you~*~

Thank you for the kind words! I seriously cannot wait to party again with you!

When you make it to the Garden of Eden, we are going to lavish you with the best we have to offer 💛

Made my day Sara!

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Aaahh, thanks for the virtual hug - that makes my day!! This is a seriously incredible, mind-melting life. I hope we can share many more adventures as it all unfolds!!

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I hope so too Sara! :) Hope to see you at SF2!

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Wow! to think that we were chatting a few days back and i had no idea you had this accident. I couldn't stop reading. Even the part in the movie was so touching despite the fact that it was only a movie, how much more you!

Stay strong bro!

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Yeah. I've been managing Steemit.Chat with 1 hand mostly with my phone! Thank you for reading through my post. :)

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happily you are still fine and i hope you will recover in full soon
i voted you and follow you my friend

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Thank you very much! :)

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sure ,i really hope we can be friends :)

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Congratulations @firepower!
Your post was mentioned in my hit parade in the following categories:

  • Comments - Ranked 7 with 87 comments
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Thank you very much! :)

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Very inspiring story. You are right, much bad could have happened, but still you managed to survive it all and now recovering both physically and mentally to share your story with us.
Between we Indians, always reckless driving and doing accidents. Hope we start driving more responsibly.
I pray for your fast recovery...

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Thank you! It could have been worse but im glad it isnt! Our crazy population makes it difficult and people are reckless on our roads with no respect for another's life unfortunately! :(

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Fantastic! Very glad to see your recovery.

I have assisted in sural nerve graft procedures - it's some of the most beautiful surgery imaginable. The amazing thing is really the body's ability to heal - even something as delicate as nerves. And along with our colleagues in occupational therapy and neurorehabilitation the potential for regaining function is huge.

As a surgeon - I empathize with the loss of ability in your hand, and how daunting that must have seemed. I also watched that scene in Dr. Strange and had that thought run through my head: "What would I do???"

Awesome job and keep up the good work.

MNIV

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Wow! That's amazing! I'm so happy that you replied. It was an occupational therapist who designed my splint. She's very good! Im not going under any neurorehab but if you have any suggestions I welcome it.

Thanks for taking the time to write. It surely has me pumped and motivated about the possibilities ahead!

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Dude i am so grateful we met irl. You are the greatest guy. When i learned thru the "old" social network that u got in the accident... fuck! Its great that you are back and hope we see eachother this year irl somewhere sometime :) #firepowaa

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Roeland!!! My friend! Thank you so much for being there and checking on me from time to time. I can't wait to come back and spend some time with you, wifey and lil' King Viggo! I'll be there to make SF2 great for sure! Working towards that goal now! I know we can make it happen bigger than before and you sir are awesome for taking it up on your shoulders once again. The excitement of travelling to EU for SF2 has improved my mental state a lot! I hope I can manage it! :)

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I was wondering where you were lately, but thought you're probably out there, on one of your adventures. Sad to hear about your accident, but to see how your mindset and attitude is positively changing is really inspiring.
You are such a valuable member of this community and one of the greatest guys here!
You'll be back even stronger.

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Hey dude! Yes this is the reason why I'd been away for so long. Things have changed a lot so I had to adapt accordingly. Having a positive mindset helped me come out of the pits. There's so much I want to do in life! Thank you for the kind words, and for reading this post. I'm already feeling stronger. :)

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Wow! Beautiful work! Thank you for sharing!

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I'm glad you liked it. Thank you for reading!

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I recently broke my hand , not as badly as you, but i really understand what you are going through. It's the frustration of everyday tasks when you have that kind of injury and to write out a post like this with your left hand, well i, (one handed), salute you Sir! Upvoted and followed.

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I've managed this with some voice to text and formatting. Almost a week after my cast was removed I was able to use to splint to assist my left with the right a little. Let's see how things go from here. I wish you a speedy recovery friend and thank you for reading through this.

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And the same to you. Th is is the third right arm break, the middle one was the more serious and had major nerve damage, but my Mum would never let me slack off, so i say this with experience, you will have some bad days ahead, but keep at it, rehab as much as you can and before you know it you will be back to normal. Take care and good luck.

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Wish you not more , but a good health because this is the most importnant !

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You are absolutely right! Health is everything. Thank you for reading!

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Wow, Keep up the great work and positive attitude. I am new to steemit and I'm sharing my experiences with invisible disabilities in pieces. I was in a car accident years ago and survived but still have "invisibilities" from that. A positive attitude and a great support system can go a long way. Sounds like you're getting through it well. It can be very difficult at times. Keep up the great work.

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Oh wow! That must been difficult! Thank you for taking the time to read this. I'll check your blogs and follow your account now.

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i usually take a break and do some meditation to fight my demons, its worked

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Yeah. This is something I am considering. I havent tried doing meditation properly!

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Wow you're strong. Despite all that has happened, looking at the positive side even under distress is a very hard thing to do.
Life is not always what we planned, it is adapting to whatever changes it brings in us.
Get well soon man!

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Thanks dude! Adaptability is the key to being able to get yourself out of any situation! :)

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I hope you get well soon @firepower, stay strong!

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Thank you! :)

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I'm glad to see you posting again, thank you for sharing this, this is really valuable.

I think your friend was right, believe in yourself. You always seem to have great energy, I'm sure you can tap to that to get better soon, win the mind battle :)

I wish you a fast recovery man!

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Thank you so much! It's been quite an adventure last few months figuring out everything and adapting. I'm sure the good times will roll soon!

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People who can go through what you went through, shit even a tiny fraction of the trauma/stress, and can still remain optimistic are role models for everyone. It puts so many things in perspective. Makes the little things that we make into huge deals seem so trivial.
I highly respect your attitude. Best of luck going forward dude
Toblerusse

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Thank you for your words of encouragement! I think my approach has been good and I hope to keep calm and proceed ahead! :)

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Thanks for sharing! :) kiss

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Thank you :D Follow me for more!

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I dig the optimism in the face of adversity. Keep up the good vibes!

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Thank you very much bro! :)

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Change is the one constant of life. Being able to successfully adapt to the physical changes that come with age (and accidents) means the difference between giving up and getting on with it. It sounds like you have adapted well, brother. I'm glad to have found this story. The gods are smiling upon you and your resilience.

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Thank you for your comment! I appreciate you taking the time to read through it. :)

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having had a wrist injury i totally understand all the moments shared in this post. i wish you a steady road to recovery. keep positive. push forward, day by day. my wrist took over 9 months for it to be able to carry weight on that arm/hand. but it DID get better. our bodies are amazing machines. be good to yourself mentally. keep grinding away each day on the mental health too!

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Wow! 9 months is a long time but I hear ya. It's been 4 months and I still no motor control. Although hopefully someday I will regain. Whether that happens or not I've decided to remain firm and take it as it comes! :)

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Been reading your work here since the last few hours and you seem to be the guy who never gives up. Never give up, you will raise and you will keep creating awesome content and making new thing.

Get well soon. You are in my Prayers Brother.

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Thank you so much! :)

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You are a warrior ...!! keep going :)

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Yay! I feel great now! Thanks :)

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Thank you for posting this, dude. Recovery after such an accident is hard work but with perseverance, you are going to make it. I am sending you my best wishes!

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Thank you very much! I'm happy that you took the time to read through it. :)

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Get well soon dear @firepower :-)

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Thank you very much! :)

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Get well soon and I will send some positive energies to you from meditation.

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Thank you very much! That is much appreciated! :)

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ey man I send you all my energy!! I hope you are fully recovered for Steemfest 2, you can´t miss it!!

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Thank you. Whether I recover or not I intend to be there make SF2 more successful than last year! :) I love this community that we are building!

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Get well soon @firepower

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Thank you very much! :)

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really good post,,Thank you for sharing that!

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Thank you for reading through it! :)

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Hope you have a speedy recovery my friend...

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Thank you very much! :)

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No probs, good story and great photos. Was that Nepal?

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nice...

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Indeed! :)

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u r welcome...

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This is an incredible story! Glad you are okay! Keep on keeping on! @firepower

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Thank you. I'm on the path to recovery! :) Will keep an eye out for your work as well. Cheers!

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Wishing You All The Best @firepower. Cheers!

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Thank you so much! :)

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Wow, what a story. Good luck @firepower.

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Thank you! :)

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Wow, your courage and positive attitude are inspirational. I love this quote and will always remember it!
"Close some doors, not because of incapability, arrogance or pride but simply because they no longer lead where you want to go."

Following

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Touched my heart. So glad you are still able to share your story! Eye opening for sure.
Following you ;)

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Thank you so much! :)

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Thanks for sharing. I too have a passion for Motorcycles, and I have to admit that on my frequent short trips around town, I neglect to wear my helmet, boots, armor... I'm glad you had yours on, as you said, it did it's job! I too am a musician, a bassist playing 3-5 gigs/week. All it takes is one bad day on a bike to bring that to a halt, your story was a good reminder. Best wishes on a full recovery! You will ride again, and I hope youpick up that guitar as well!

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I have also nerve damage and I'm interested in regeneration. From earthpulse.net I believe I know there was a researcher who coud regenerate nerves with PEMF but he died in a car accident.
I have investigated so much that I am a little bit tired of it but maybe when enough people are interested I will continue and publish all my findings. I have literally lied in bed for a year or so and studied. Thanks Apple for iPad mini!
God bless you and good luck, keep in touch :)

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Wow! Thanks for letting me know about this. I hope you are doing better now!

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Well kind of but my immune system is not working right. It fights off and leaves it be so it comes back every time :( Maybe it is not seeing the stuff to get rid of?

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I see! I wish you a speedy recovery!

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Thanks man and if you happen to think of something... Don't hold back and let me know :)

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Wow- very inspirational. Your spirit has a lot of fire in it. I have so many demons they have their own address. (Ha Ha)
My toughest moment happened in Dec 2016 when some prescribed medication I was given for PTSD from the VA went bad on me. My body did not like it and I went from being super active and healthy to almost bedridden. I had panic attacks 24-7 and was so sick I could barely walk. I discovered how dangerous some of the prescription medications can be. I started tapering off the medication and now 17 months later I am almost back to 100 percent. Many people and even doctors have no idea that this stuff happens to lots of people. There is a shadow populous who struggles with medications gone wrong. Hence our major opioid epidemic.

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I hope you are better now. This is really hard to go through and life feels like a struggle for sure.

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Great post. I am now following you!

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Thanks. Ive followed you back! :)

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hope for the best always!

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absolutely! Thanks for reading! :)