Congratulations - you found yourself a role model

My dear friend @pousinha and I discuss what the need of a role model is. I wrote a role model doesn't exist in my life. To me a role model is someone with a strong will, a goal, a fighter, a survivor, a person who won't hide if justice needs to see daylight.

The brain is like a closet. It can look neat, be open or the clothes, to some rags, are hidden behind closed doors. Some brains are modern, structured and organized while others are ancient or seem to be chaotic. No matter what the closet looks like it is our private domain which we should care about. As long as we can find our way it's fine even if some drawers or trunks remain closed for the rest of our lives.

_{This closet gets closer to my inner soul the ancient person I am. It just doesn't make sense... those cloths on the floor x the hats unless this are the wardrobes of an old theatre.}

The clothes we wear can say a lot about our soul if we are able to affort buying them. In the second picture I can't rhyme the clothing dumped on the floor in combination with the dresses and hats. This picture doesn't make sense (let's ignore the fact it's generated by AI). If you see what I see you know why.
If you can't 'see it' because of bad vision you can develop your other skills like hearing or feeling the true being or by tasting the atmosphere.

_{The only thing that makes this closet full of clothes feel good to is me is the chair}

Is it possible to always improve ourselves or is it fine to be the person you are, to accept and be satisfied with the closet your mind looks like?

_{This isn't my closet either. I am not a shop-a-holic, don't clutter and am closer to a minimalist}

Dear @pousinha

hereby my respond to your comment

I find it hard to say other women (or men) are better than me unless I know them which I don't. Those I know from history are painted through the eyes of a certain person with his own view on life.
To me no one is perfect and there is no need to be. To some wisdom comes automatically by observing the world for years while others change as the result of life experiences. At the same time a 2-year-old can have more wisdom than a 80-year old if we are willing to listen and don't pretend we are the most wise of all.

To my opinion we always change, can improve if we keep our eyes open but at the first place know ourselves. If we do not know who we are what's the point in looking for a role model, a person who's deepest wishes, desires and needs we do not know?

I for myself can not adopt one single person as my role model. I can simply not see such a great being I would like to change myself into. I don't see myself walk in other's footsteps since I have my own pace and doubt I am able or willing to follow.

My soul is different from others and there must be a good reason why we all do not share the same soul, why each one of us has to experience life in his own way to grow and perhaps change or become our true selves.

To me the highest position one I achieve is to be satisfied with the person I am, became after all the hardships that came over me. There was never a person guiding me, my parenys/family weren't role models and friends were rare if present at all.

The one I am today is the person I grow and taught myself. I have a strong will and do not easily give up. If you ask me this is what most describe if it comes to their role models. Personalities willing to fight for what they stand for. Like you know I am an intovert and after years of silence I decided to speak out. I paid a very high price for staying alive and still am (and it's 40 years later).

I am no longer the child locked in in the closet, hiding behind a curtain, kicked outside on the street on a cold winter day without shoes and a coat being scolded, beaten up, strangled and dying for hunger.
I overcame all of this and even worse so to my opinion I am the best version of me and can safely say I am my own role model.
No one saw what I went through and if that soul is not alike meaning the experience is different.

I also believe, and this is what I saw with those I worked with as a therapist, that there is only a certain amount of weight a soul can lift. Some pitch better remained closed while others need to be cleaned. There's a limit of what a mind and soul can take before it scatters. It's a lie what doesn't break us only makes us stronger. If that would be the case not 8 out of 10 needed a doctor.

The only way to improve oneself is accept who you are and be happy with that. The person we are is our soul which to me is ancient and lives till eternity, not the body, the shell it lives in and can make us feel less comfortable or unwanted.

The only thing I want is to be able to say: I had a good life and you know what? No matter all that happened I frequently have that these days (since a few years) I stand still and say to myself: if I would die now I had a good, rich life.

So that's my wish, my improvement and what I wish for you too. It helps you to have a role model and I understand how it can inspire you to continue and it's admirable but I don't need that for me and I never had a person who inspired me enough to follow to be able to improve myself.
Can it be this is the result of a lack of love, empathy and support forcing me to stand on own feet before I could walk?

I frequently discuss why many blame the oersons they are on their bad childhood or terrible parents. I heard it all every theory and excuse why humankind behaves like a beast... Trust me I have more than anyone else reason to enter a mall or school with a shotgun, I could easily be a serial killer, an addict or... but I am not and that is the main reason no one finds excuses for me (and my behaviour).

Perhaps an interesting aspect for you to dig in deeper?

_{fantasy a closet full of clothes}

Can it be my closet is the entrance to another world where it's free to dream? If that's the case the closet is my role model.

Thank you for the good talk. I wish you the improvement and suport you need, to me you are a great and beautiful person.

A warm embrace, luck and love to you.

@ibesso @rokhani @elian23khan @sbamsoneu @yaladeeds @el-nailul @aminasafdar

2-4-2024 
Comment picture: made by me with Canva
Pictures: AI generated by me on behalf of the #italygame contest - bing.com/create
Search: a closet full of clothes
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