Dear Diary: I Hope That My Body Would Outlast My Goals

It is getting harder every passing week and I am just in full wheelchair mode now because of my hip joint and tail bone issues. Getting up from my bed and getting down is just a kind of pure misery and my poor mother just have to pick me up so I can get up or lay down.

I still am going for my goals and one of them are also for my parents. I must ensure that they would have at least a clean and safe working and functional house after I die or pass away and I am not discounting that fact because in all honesty I am way overdue.

And I just wanted to die really because of the pain that won't go away. Who wants to live having a lingering pain in the hip bone? No one does so it is justified to pray for God to take me away from this interesting world.

It really is an interesting world and I am trying to ignore the bad sides of life because the world is just showing us its beauty and we just have to appreciate it especially to beauty and kindness that is shown and given to us by our fellow human beings, the ones that cared and loved us in one form and another. Those are the things that I appreciate and I thank God for showing me this world, it is indeed beautiful.