This did start out as a happy post!! Brian and Lynn <3
What's this? Helmets? Smiling faces?
When we first arrived in Mexico, back in May 2017 (Yikes! time really does fly by!), we bought these two beauties second hand, because we decided the exercise would be great for both of us, and we didn't want to spend a fortune on taxis everyday.
But as you know, Brian has been getting more and more tired, and we were finding that either by walking or riding our bikes, he was exhausted by the time we arrived at any destination. So we'd bike or walk to a restaurant, sit down, and more often than not, have to get our food to go because he just couldn't sit there any longer.
Our friend was upgrading his scooter to a real motorcycle, so TA-DAAA, look what we bought! A scooter :)
It's not that big, has gears, is a bit beat up in spots, but is the perfect size for us! It's 100cc (most scooters are 50cc), and goes up to 100 km (60mph) which is way faster than we're going to do with it haha, although we have had it on the highway and it keeps up just fine with the flow of traffic.
The very best part about it is that we can actually go places and Brian's not exhausted by our arrival. The first time on it, he was smiling and said, "I feel alive again" !! That is worth more than anything money can buy <3
OK, so notice my title, This did start out as a happy post! I know, I can hear a big collective sigh going on out there. When I was looking through my photos to find one of our bikes, I found this of Brian, the day we bought the bikes. I remember because we were all excited and went out for a beer haha. Beautiful and so healthy looking. Brian and I sat and stared at it, stunned really because when you see a person day to day you really don't realize the 'deterioration' going on.
Here's a picture from yesterday. Yep, still a beer in hand :), but he's holding it weird because our glass mugs are getting too heavy for him to hold it 'naturally'. We both thought he was looking tanned and healthy still, until we compared these two photos today. And yes, it made us both terribly sad. I still think he's beautiful, but Brian sure doesn't think so. I can however see the forced smile, the added lines on his face from being in constant pain, the dark circles and the overall grey-ish color going on. He rarely smiles "big" anymore (because of all the broken teeth he has as result of the Prednisone he takes daily) and says he hates the look of it.
We're both still a little speechless from it all.
Sorry guys! I know many of you will read this and think, How am I supposed to comment on this one? Nice bike, too bad Brian's doing so shitty?
Don't worry; just send your love and kind thoughts ... it's what we both could use today.
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No matter what... Brian still has his smile for you @lynncoye1
No matter what (whether a bike, a beer or a scooter)... you both have each other.
That is true and unconditional love
You said it @goldendawne! Everything else is just extraneous :) Thank you <3
The past is done, time for some fun, peddled then when we had skin, now we ride, not to hide to feel free, and race the breeze. We still go slow, yet we are bold, to the future we will hold. Off to dinner, and a beer, sitting down to enjoy a meal, all because of two fast wheels.
Look back with fondness, but try not to let it hit to hard. If we all looked back say 20 years and let it control us, we would all be living in fear. Enjoy the new ride.
awww thank you @bashadow. You're a poet and maybe(?) don't know it :)
I try not to look back because aging in an of itself can sometimes be depressing haha, but you couldn't pay be to be a teenager again :)
You're right, looking back with too critical an eye can just be detrimental; "look back with fondness" is key!
Thank you :)
So much LOVE and kind thought your way beautiful friends. It's a pleasure to be on this journey alongside you both. Blessings, joy, peace & vitality to you both. ❤ HUGS ❤
awww thank you as always @yogajill for your positive and loving comment!!! Brian and I appreciate it always <3
Allthough you end the post maybe a little sad... Just start thinking about the great moments you'll have together with that bike. What a beauty! Just look back and think back at the great times you had together, you still love each other. No time for regrets and comparing pictures 😘
Keep on enjoying those beers together! But please don't drink while driving 😉
What an awesome new ride! That's exciting! You look great on it! Brian that beer looks good. I'd join you but it a little to early in the day for me! But Cheers though!
Tattoos. motorcycle drugs alcohol. Who are you. I don't recognize you anymore
That is a great thing. I can see how he gets so worn out walking and bike riding. you have to put that basket on the back of it.
I hope he will be able to get out and enjoy things more
hahaha WE burst out laughing with this!!! Best medicine ever :) Thanks!
I have not been following as you and I both composed paths only recently...Brian is your husband and is not well I obviously take from your post. What I can see is the absolute love you have for him. That is absolutely beautiful and inspiring. Best wishes to the both of you.
Thank you so much @blewitt! The short version is Brian has cancer, we've tried treatments and we've hit the stage of "let's just enjoy whatever life we have left". So we sold everything back home (Canada) and moved to Mexico; it's where we always talked of retiring.
You pegged the most important piece of the puzzle though ... absolute love 😅 This is both our second marriages, and we've only been together 8 1/2 years.
Thank you so much for a lovely comment!
I see. That’s an awful situation to be in but I love that you guys are not letting it beat you down. The steps you’ve taken to enjoy the amazing time left is commendable and inspiring. I couldn’t even imagine being in that position...yet you handle it with poise and grace. My heart is with the pair of ya and know that your guys will to just live each day together, and love together...it’s truly something amazing.
@lynncoyle1,
I didn't know you guys were Canucks! I thought you were from ... San Francisco! I thought you sounded a little "too normal" for California ... but strange things happen. I'm from Halifax. Growing up, I lived in Regina for a number of years as well ... my Dad was a Mountie.
There's no way to Gild the Lilly is there? Be thankful for whatever you can. Start with the beer. :-)
Quill
Your kindness extends to even your readers. Not many would think of that perspective. And that's why you have such a special place in my heart @lynncoyle1.
You and Brian. Being all the way over here, never having met, not even chatting I feel like the two of you are my dearest friends. Seems weird and stalkish perhaps LOL...
Thank you for sharing these precious thoughts and moments. The bike does look good. I am happy to see him with a beer in hand, and I'm glad that you both got to ride out in the sun and get out and about.
Your little stalker friend from across the globe xx
I just love my little stalker friend!! I am often in disbelief at the true feelings I have for so many here, yourself included!
That is very kind, and also very perceptive; thank you for everything! <3
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I can see what you're saying. You can see the pain in his eyes and yes the last picture his smile is forced. I know that look all too well.
I know it's hard on both of you. Enjoy what you can for as long as you can. I really wish we could relieve some of his pain. I know that would put you at ease too. My thoughts are with you both and you know if I can do anything to help. <3
aww thank you @tryskele! It seems at the moment, that with every bad day, comes a good one, or at the very least, a lot of little good moments :)
You're very welcome. The ironic part, that's life. Bad situation? YES, but you've actually have the greatest gift that so many never learn or know and that's love and the appreciation of those moments all of us are guilty of missing.
We can send our love and I will...Love you two! Be strong. There are a lot of people out here hoping and wishing for you to have a good the rest of your day. But its the love you have for each other that will get you through the shitty times. And I agree with everyone else, I think Brian is looking good :)