INTRODUCTION TO A STORY - MPDG - SUBMERGING UNDER THE INNATE MIND AND BUILDING WITHIN THE CONSTRUCT OF SELF

aschatria (61)in #writing • 6 years ago

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This is an introduction part of the story I partially published in Steemit, I used the MPDG title, but the real title is different. Looking back to preceding events in my story is refreshing, as it will be easier to develop the rest.
A chapter of that story also won the Curie award, so I want to give it some justice by writing this introduction.
I will not tell you or give you any details what is the story about, what is the storyline, but I'll bring closer a basic construct.

The main character completely submerges into an exploration of own meaning, life, possessions, and mind. Nevertheless those feelings are fleeting and ephemeral like all that story shapes.

In this story, the strength lies in the fact that minds escape a solid shell and captivating influence of a still moment somebody once had about it. What gives rise to the present state, after it undergoes an alternation, it can be and it will be either better, or just different. All solid reasons, logic and even the matter to be precise can only exist if it is in a constant state of dynamical chaos. Not in change, but in chaos.
In that dynamic chaos, without us being able to envision the deeper meaning, there are still some rules. Some force, the collective super-mind, that moves all those little parts together. Maybe.

The various philosophers already wrote a rule in the stone, that there is no collective super-mind. Still, they failed to explain how only one person is able to delude other people without breaking a sweat. Or how come our whole decision-making, interpersonal dynamics, feelings, needs, and mindset is so similar. We all want to be special, but if we narrow a point of conclusion, is it only one single Mind?

And this is what confuses and plagues our main character. She is able to obtain that point of view, that perception. Taking it into the consideration, the main character feels a little off about her uniqueness. And it causes all kind of thoughts, doubts about the meaning of the Big Plan, or whether there is one.

A character strongly believes there is a meaning, and she is not capable to think outside of that frame.

If that construct loses its focus, a logical conclusion is, the system should fall apart. Nihilists thrive on this, and any organ of control will exercise the same philosophy making you a subject of the centuries-long brainwashing.

Nevertheless, it does not. Our character believes in an existence of some supernatural force and she exercises this mentality almost daily. Moreover, when that super-mind finally arrives it is not what she was hoping it to be, she starts to change rules herself.

Whatever force created this reality, what she believes created it, has a wicked sense of humor and it spares no means to express it.

The story supports a certain creationist way of thinking, a diving spark created the world by a thought and by a though it can create an existence of a new form. It starts to overtake protagonist’s life, her personality, and her infliction onto this dimension in total.

Consequently, she is able to recognize it, but she is perfectly comfortable to maintain it real, and as real as possible. It fits her idea of problem-solving as somebody else has taken a realm of her personal life, and life is to be fine.

Accordingly, her individuality is not uniform and alike, easy to predict and easier to control, but unique and worth of existing.

Protagonist chooses to bring to life essence that only looks impossible to be, as a result of her uniqueness she has an incredible imagination able to manipulate and spark the casualties. Moreover, she chooses and submerges under the innate mind completely transforming herself. To understand all of it better. In time, she will find out what is happening and what she can do with it.

Flow of time is one of the dimensions she can influence, and she is manipulating it marvelously.

Sole reason why she is so pliable to inefficiency is her environment being stuck in the state of a complete resignation. Nobody cares, or they care about the issues that are completely unimportant. Believing you are one part of an immense mechanism, literary deprives you to use the mind, hearth or a will of your own. Nobody wants to take the responsibility to correct that.

That's what this super-being is trying to install into her, that she is not important, that all of us can't change it, but we can worsen it, that we are all unsound people. It is difficult to escape this voice.

What she does in the beginning, she hides from all of it, giving her own voice to somebody else we know little about, he simply appears.

At one point she deletes her complete past to become the best version of herself but keeping herself inside by all means possible. She gives little of her feelings and even hides them from herself so that she can navigate anonymously through the labyrinth of her true intentions.

Solid rules what other people planted in her mind, parents, friends, teachers, relatives, relationships... she recognizes it as an influence of this collective super-mind. To try has a meaning. There are numerous rules and definitely, if we follow, we'll be the achievers.

When it flunks, here comes a singular voice in her head, what if I took a few wrong choices?

She never even asks if a system around her is wrong. She simply adjusts her being to be applicable to the possible situations and explains simply that she needs additional assistance to move her life forward. Never accusing anyone of treating her awful, simply instructs herself to build within. So, no matter how wishy-washy she comes out, in fact, her approach is a solid resilient system. In the simple words, she is learning how to avoid bullets and save herself.

When a high performing human beings, reach under all those fake constructs around her, they won't find much. Just the disputable relations. But, it matters to her. Most of the action is happening in a place, but a reader can't define the boundaries that divide reality and an inner state.

All people have a tendency to merge impressions within us, but in her case, it's a higher level. If a human could enter other person's mind, it would be noisy. So, this is what all go through.

The part of a story that should be real is, in fact, a construct, and the one found possible to be a fantasy, is real. The impossible premise is that the main character never leaves the house, and she possibly non-existent. Not in true, human reality, she ceased to exist at the beginning of a story.

At the true beginning of the story, a character has a problem and shortly after that she is absent and another entity is solving her problems.

She has a flaky life philosophy that changes extremely fast, even so, she progresses almost immediately realizing she has been wrong her entire life.

Personal happiness fails to correspond with material possessions, with how much we have, but all we learn leads to that conclusion. What a confusing way to live! Can't these higher forces decide already what should we be, a material or spiritual entities? Here comes an error again. It is the same, and she gets an opportunity to experience it firsthand.

Perfect balance between a body and a spirit is not possible. It was never. Death of the material body is unavoidable.
We are the energy, and thus the philosophy of reaching the serendipity over the spirituality only is just as wrong as the other option.

Still, nonetheless, you can and should strive to achieve a balance, but what is a purpose of that, if the Universe follows the dynamics of the chaos.
Not the chaos as a high-risk influence, but a chaos is just a state of the matter and existence, it is not a social chaos or complete confusion of any life philosophy. But, the existence itself is chaotic, is a product of a choice, it is both made of matter and will, is what people can't fully grasp or understand.

So, how can you ever be a perfectly balanced unity in lack of the insight and that higher compassion?

A simple question, what would you do if you even have it?

This is what she obtains, and she is trying to cope with the consequences. Having that much awareness she feels obligated to react in a certain way, and she is already under the weather by the fact that she knows.

Her only wish is to partake existing as a person without being an actual person, within a person who is not a real person.
Aw, this is deep. No, it is not.

This is an internal dialog all build within ourselves, during our life, and this is what helps us to be more effective people. There's a protector, some fair and all mighty force to cover for us.

During the narrative, the audience will probably expect to hear the explanation, either there is a basic dissonance or protagonist is breaking down on her own.
And it's neither. These are all normal definitions, normal human doubting discussions happening within us now and then.
In her case, her wish comes true. A seal of approval received.

Of course, this is a bit of a mind game, I like to write in this way. There is no split personality in the theme, there are no monsters but it has some weirdness.

Individual focus on the belief systems and the belief that a higher force will somehow invade the tough circumstances gives a birth to bigger issues and a resolution of the same.
But, even then, under a complete siege of this so-called 'super-mind', she has enormous spiritual capabilities and she starts to notice them.

Basic realization that she is not disappearing, but instead, she is getting heightening insight into the realities, levels, so-called the parallel worlds, other people, other forces around her.

I hope you will like my story as I intend to give it time, effort and work.

Published parts of a story on Steemit:
Manic Pixie Dream Girl - The Last Low
Manic Pixie Dream Girl - Bambi Slayer
Manic Pixie Dream Girl - Jinx on Fire
Manic Pixie Dream Girl - Fry
Manic Pixie Dream Girl- Dead of the Night (C)
Manic Pixie Dream Girl - Dollhouse