I am very sorry that you do feel that way. We all feel that way sometimes. It is natural to feel that way even. But you see? Sometimes the concept that noone would care is not true. It was @paintingangels here who showed me the way here. She cared. I care. If you need to slow down it is ok, if you need a break it is fine (any network). But do not think it is people do not care, some will not, some will do. Hope you find a sense of belonging. I bookmarked to read a few poems later.