Thank you for sharing something that is so deep and personal and possibly a little terrifying for you. A lot of folks fear losing their memories or developing Alzheimer's as they age. There is a large possibility that you did suffer damage during ECT. After witnessing many treatments over the years I would definitely not subject myself or anyone I loved to that kind of torture. All the pharmaceuticals you were treated with probably compounded the problem. I am sure that you and Carey have discussed detoxing. One thing that hit me while I thought my memory was going, I had many mercury fillings in my teeth. Got rid of the fillings and detoxed. Problem solve for now...