Continuing from the previous posting, Mutual Consequences in Relationships:
When and as I see myself jumping into things quite quickly - I stop and breathe - I take a look at myself and the way I've been acting/reacting and ground any energy in me that is creating like a "flighty" and "floaty" experience within myself. I realize it's when I am within a "flighty and floaty" experience that I am inclined to rush my decision making and compromise my best decisions/actions. I realize this is a consequence of creating a sort of emotional/feeling dependency within myself where it's like I am feeding off the experiences I am creating within myself and making believe it to be a sort of external magic when the reality is that I've been entirely hypnotized by my own choices. I realize there's great responsibility in the decisions we make from the very small to the very big and by having well developed principles - one is able to navigate through life based on living principles - I realize my starting point in relationships will shape the very definition of the relationships.
I realize, understand and know the balance between my internal reality and my external reality. I realize the harmony within is equal to the harmony without.
I realize any sort of external hypnosis is a result of an accepted and allowed internal hypnosis, and that hypnosis has to do specifically with the state of our consciousness.
I realize I am responsible for my consciousness.
I realize I create my own states of mind.
I realize I do not require to deliberately hold myself in particular states of mind in order to function as a human being.
I realize more often than not, how I've compromised my best living has been a result of stubbornly holding myself within a particular state of mind.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for holding relationships within myself in a particular state of mind that I am in a way controlling and limiting myself and the relationship.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to wrestle to hold onto particular states of mind that I feel I should fight to hold onto.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to create a sort of morality about particular states of mind as being better or worse.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be insensitive with myself in forcing myself to hold onto particular states of mind and within this not really considering Me.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to take offense and defense to individual's states of mind - not realizing and understanding my own reactions to the particular states I find myself having these ever so subtle reactions to.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for not realizing and understanding how to best correct myself in the moment in a way that is swift in efficiency. I realize by allowing myself to be honest about what I am seeing and experiencing - I naturally let go of the need to fight with various states of mind. I realize I've conditioned myself to quite naturally wrestle with various states of mind and kind of superimpose a sort of submission and suppression - I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding how I've been unconsciously doing this to myself and playing out this kind of reactive responsiveness to others in my reality.
I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself for kind of expecting others in my reality to want to wrestle as like a form of play that can be good. I forgive myself for not realizing and understanding I've been seeking out a sparring partner of sorts because I haven't understood how or Why on a deep level I've been wrestling with myself in my own thoughts/thinking/living/planning.
When and as I see myself looking/seeking for something in another - I realize and understand that this is a time of self-reflection and the attributes I may be seeking in a partner, may very well be points of suppression within and as myself. I realize often when I am looking for something in another, it is a result of me missing a part of me that I am not realizing exists within myself. I realize the external is here to support our best caring for our internal reality.
I commit myself to utilizing my external reality as a cross reference for my best internal care taking.
I commit myself to using my external reality as a canvass for expressing my internal reality.
To be continued
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