This post was posted a few hours late!
Agreed, i am doing Boracay but it was all mixed.
A day after my mama's burial, we headed to Boracay, to do some form of recovery in the midst of nature.
I am managing to laugh and stuff but its all mixed. I even managed to generate some off-key dance but it was all mixed.
On a normal day, i am not any longer very good at generating really-happy feelings.
The hormones for leisure aren't any longer within me.
Among other things; things no longer very much impress/interest/fascinate me after the first time. I feel like even in my imagination, i have reached these heights-of-places and upon eventually seeing or experiencing these heights in real-life, the interest isn't any longer full.
The best thing i think i end up doing within these seemingly fun/nature-laden moments, is ponder about the Creator and how glorious He is.
On the other hand, i go through these times when i look at proceedings and think; "life in this system of things does have so-so-so much limits and i start to question, what i am doing in it". Really, one can't do so much; it's not all limitless.
Laugh too much and the tummy can burst.
Drink too much soda/wine/even champagne and soon, the doctors can go; "Kidney mishap".
Eat too much and you will not like how you'll feel from a bloated tummy/obesity/diabetes.
So just what is life and so-called enjoyment all about? Why are they caps everywhere?
There is a lot to realize when you buy out time to ponder and i tend to do loads of those, even in my play moment, especially, when i get to spend times in nature. Well, in this particular outing, i was doing some form of recovery, so it wasn't all fun. There were a ton of times where my thinking was "i wish i was spending this time and money with my mama, while she was alive. I did want to give my mama "skyscrapers". As she suffered all her life, i was willing to wait it out, till skyscraper was ready, to give her whispers of good news. I no longer wanted to appease or console her with peanuts.
Overall, money spendable on only you, isn't so valuable afterall. "Trips" (pleasure) have caps. You have one body and one tummy (stomach).
Note: I understand fully, how Dan created bitshares, then steem, then left for EOS or Ned deciding to make steemit open-source etc
Life is very deeper things than eating & drinking and mediocre merry.
We do tend to hype many of these emotions a bit too much, like these things are all there is and are limitless afterall. However, if life is eating and drinking and eat and drinking have caps, then is this life limitless? If your heart skips beats too much and it can cut and fail, then is this paradise? "There has got to be something more".
Twas all mixed.
I did the fun activities along with the thinking/pondering/wondering etc After everything, we had only one day of full-blown activities.
The next day; today, is departure-day, thus, from "no activities" in mind, we still ended up doing two activities; one in which my heart had no choice but to cut from extreme emotions as a speed boat pulled my weak ass around, bouncing me around against thick water ripples while i held on for dear life and the other activity resolved me to some calmness as we went under sea to look for nemo.
videos to be uploaded later!!!
In the under water activity, i had my moments where i knelt down to do special prayers. I tend to want to do prayers at times like this, when i am in nature or perhaps on nature. E.g once, when i got on top of a high hill in Batangas.
Why We Had To Rush Matters
The whole leisure-endeavor was meant to be some form of recovery, all before my sister's departure flight on Saturday. So basically, we were to leave for Boracay (from Manila) early on Wednesday (Nov 29, 2017), after my mama's burial on Tuesday (Nov 28, 2017), so we can have at least have half-a-day of activities, on Wednesday, then enjoy the whole of Thursday and even a major part of Friday but that was far from the case as the only rushed package we found, was to have us depart Manila at 3 pm Wednesday and return 9 pm on Friday (Dec 1, 2017).
On Wednesday, flights were delayed by hours and we spent another set of hours on travelling to the hotel, when we arrived Boracay. Most of Wednesday, was spent on exhaustion.
A lot learned
We tend to think "invincibility" a bit too much and set too many unnecessary protocols and in reality, eat ourselves over nothing, when in reality we are so-dust. "Oh you spammed me/Oh you misspelled my name/You forgot the "Sir-part" of my name/I am whale, you are minnow, so you can't send me a memo using 0.001, it's spam etc Hahaha so? Look at the bigger picture; in reality, you are so all-dust!
In the real world; in the jungle; a lizard vs you; a lizard has more guts.
And if you gather all the money in the world and own it; so?
"There is a limit to life in this system and how much we can explore while in it", is most of what i re-learned in these past few days during my mum's passing away and in the few days of leisure and recovery.
So don't think people like Ned etc know not what they are doing, when they open-source steemit, for instance.
They simply have established that there are deeper things to life than hoarding temporary goodies etc
Your money will only ever have full essence when used on behalf of others, same applies to all your accolades, intellect and genius because you have one mouth & one body etc @surpassinggoogle
Steemit Is Shaped To Create Steemians
Steemians are givers, receivers, innovators, awesomest version of human
Let's keep it that way!
Your Boy Terry
I do need strength
If you want to support an extra witness and you support mine "steemgigs", it will be really helpful, especially in terms of giving me the direly needed extra drive & strength. Overall, there is no doubt, that i have been here on steemit, proven, solid and i will keep on being here!
Steemit is in my books and my heart has a soft spot for it and this will keep on because upon it, i kept my legacies and even my sad stories and most utmostly, i get to have awesome YOU.
For humans and steemians, i am all in, for you all
If you want me to make witness voting decisions on your behalf, simply visit https://steemit.com/~witnesses and type in "surpassinggoogle" in the second box for proxy.
For the tech people on steem, like developers etc you can certainly now use this full RPC 256GB public node:
Offer a service under hashtag "steemgigs". Attempt out-of-the-boxness on hashtag (untalented).
"Everyone has something to offer!"
My community effort & steemit growth efforts is most of my witness effort, along with running a full public rpc node 256GB to balance the steem ecosystem, thus, the use of #witness-update.