Here's a quick catch up of my NZ adventure while I'm on wifi! My plans are 'off the edge' but... there's really pretty waters!

Snooze. I pressed the button on the cool, flat face of my phone beside the bed, stopping the taunting jingle beckoning me to wake up and rolled back over for what I told myself would be"just five more minutes.”

Originally I thought I would be out of the door, on my way, wind in my hair by 11am. With what I mapped out to be only a two hour journey up ahead, I figured that would be putting me at Mount Sunday, the Lord of the Rings film site of “Edoras” well before bedtime. I overshot that big time!

See, Day 1 ended up being a slow start out the gate and involved a lot more hustling and bustling city time than I had mapped out in my mind. I didn’t even leave myself enough time to make brownies to go- knowing how much of a chocolate-a-saurus I am, you all know how much that would have crushed my soul to leave without a taste treat in hand!

Getting on the road proved difficult for me. I was already having a hard time with the transition of my own, homey-home set up in tropical weather to frigid winds of Christchurch living under a roof that didn’t belong to me. I was staying with this wonderful man (you need to hear this story so I’m going to make sure to tell you about it another time!) who had opened up his home to me after meeting him the last time I was here but more on that later. The adjustment from Bali, jungle life to the city was draining for me.

Energetically I was like silly putty, always tired and zombie-like dragging myself around and I was quickly losing touch with wanting to go explore the great unknown. After almost two weeks in that big, swanky house in the center of the city I was confused about who I was and what my mission was in life. I had been dealing with a lot, I have been mentioning just a small fragment of it in my previous posts but overall my lack of time on here is an indication of how much is happening for me behind the scenes. I was really losing focus and drive, falling into self-pity, regret, anger and even depression.

I had a series of events trigger my anxiety since I got to New Zealand and they were weighing on me whenever I was deciding to take off in my camper cross country but I gave myself some time to recoop, had the van disinfected and prepared for the journey and finally stuffed myself back into it!

So here I am writing this the night of Day 2 to catch up on this wild experience. Obviously, I did not make my first location on the first day like I had planned but, let me show you what I did manage to get into!

On the side of the highway, along the road to the famous film site I was after, was this wonderfully blue gorge.

“Gorge” as in gorgeous in my opinion. The water was a romantic crystal blue that just made my heart pitter patter and I could not get enough.

Finding myself back in nature my heart opened up the previously stowed away happiness the city was draining and I felt my legs dancing along the water’s edge, chasing the white fluffy ‘fairies” that were floating through the indescribably beautiful blue skies. I breathed in and out and my stress released itself into the sky and far away from my smiling future. This was the medicine I needed!

I was suddenly swimming with new possibilities of an excitingly bright future! All of the joy and wonder of what these next few weeks could bring was singing through all of the uncertainty of being away from my home and missing my comfort zone. The world opened up to me again like an endless adventure and I am so excited to share this journey with you!

Day 1 ended up being so much fun even though it didn’t go as planned. Just letting life take me by surprise and admiring the gifts that come along when I stop stressing has been so much fun!

I needed to find a last minute camp site and I found this serene, private spot by the lake underneath pine trees that danced into my senses while I slept. It was perfect and I can’t wait for more!

Until next time, sending you a big hug from out here in the wilderness! I find that travel always does change me in just the way I need at the time so I am excited to see who I come out as 

So here I go again my Steemian friends, off until another Wifi op presents itself ;)! I hope to catch up with you again soon!

Sending you love!

XO,
😘

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