The Dissolution
You look into the eyes of someone you know and love, but you don't recognize them anymore. Their eyes staring back are not the same as the eyes you remember.
This person inhabits the body of a beloved, but that person no longer speaks to you like the person you always knew. The most horrific revelation sinks into your heart like the anchor of a ship in slow, heavy motion.
You attempt to resurrect the dead, but you know that you have lost that opportunity only you don't know if the shell remaining can resurface and you are bereft.
This is the loneliest you have ever felt. There are no arguments for this battle. It is yours alone to flounder within. How do you remain afloat through the desert of your soul? The person facing you looks on as a stranger, dismissing your shared past as though there is none. You question your words, your reaction and your private grief.
How do you mourn this living death? Mentally, you steel yourself and register nothing outwardly. Your soul constricts to guard your heart while your heart constructs both excuses and solutions.
You move forward, tentatively, changed yet unchanged because you know what is missing and speak quietly or not at all. The death is not acknowledged as death, but the earth has indeed shifted.
Your hope, your prayer coats your life and your feet are shod with the ashes you walk over knowing at times beauty comes of ash.
This is a freewrite from @mariannewest using today's prompt [born](This is a freewrite from @mariannewest using today's prompt horrific
Find new daily prompts and join in with @freewritehouse for opportunities to win Steem Basic Income weekly!
Posted using Partiko Android
Hey, @wandrnrose7.
I think this speaks to me in two ways. I'm not sure if either is what you intended. The first has to do with someone who's suffering from Alzheimer's or some mental illness that causes a change. They don't recognize you, or they are more belligerent, or what have you.
I've yet to experience this, but I fear it might start happening with my mother.
The other has to do with someone who has fallen out of love, to the point where they deny it completely. Or maybe a loved one who has been changed by events so much that they are unrecognizable in their thoughts, words and deeds.
Not able to reconcile or reason with them, it certainly would be a silent torture to bare alone.
This is wonderfully written, and deeply impactful. For anyone, but especially for those who are going through what you described. Well done, and very much worthy of the curie upvotes. Congratulations.
Thank you, my friend. I have experienced this more than once in my life. I am sorry to hear about your mom. Thank you for the kind words.
Posted using Partiko Android
Hi wandrnrose7,
Visit curiesteem.com or join the Curie Discord community to learn more.
I rarely read freewrites but this was shared on my newsfeed. I'm glad I got to read something beautiful. This is really relatable and it speaks from personal experience. It no longer feels they are there even when you know you are with their company. The silent struggle of accepting what is now and holding on to what was then.
Thank you for taking time read and comment. I hesitated before posting, but felt maybe it might help someone in similar circumstances to realize they aren't completely alone.
Yes reading this I can also relate to similar circumstances. It is always amazing how you find what you need to find or hear. There are no coincidences. Thank you I am glad you went ahead and posted this.
Such an amazing read you got in there, and always free reads tells the exact feeling one has over something and sometimes you wonder why they did certain things and learn from them.
I really enjoyed every second i spent on your blog and i say keep it up
This post was shared in the Curation Collective Discord community for curators, and upvoted and resteemed by the @c-squared community account after manual review.
@c-squared runs a community witness. Please consider using one of your witness votes on us here
Thank you @c-squared
Posted using Partiko Android
I see that you are very good at writing. I admit it was gratifying to read you. Your words have been well rewarded with this post. Good to see how you succeed doing what you like. Do not stop writing things like this. Maybe one day they will reach the right eyes and soon you will have your own published book.
Thank you very much @wisejg. It's always a lovely surprise to receive a curie vote. I have not buckled down with purpose to attempt writing a book, but some day I plan on trying. Blessings.
Posted using Partiko Android
This was so beautiful @wandrnrose7 and well worth a @curie upvote!
🎊 Thursday's Prompt Below 🎉
https://steemit.com/freewrite/@mariannewest/day-545-5-minute-freewrite-thursday-prompt-gut-reaction
Posted using Partiko Android
Thank you, my friend. It was a great surprise. Thank you for the prompt.
Posted using Partiko Android
Thank you so much for being an awesome Partiko user! We have just given you a free upvote!
The more Partiko Points you have, the more likely you will get a free upvote from us! You can earn 30 Partiko Points for each post made using Partiko, and you can make 10 Points per comment.
One easy way to earn Partiko Point fast is to look at posts under the #introduceyourself tag and welcome new Steem users by commenting under their posts using Partiko!
If you have questions, don't feel hesitant to reach out to us by sending us a Partiko Message, or leaving a comment under our post!
Congratulations @wandrnrose7! You have completed the following achievement on the Steem blockchain and have been rewarded with new badge(s) :
You can view your badges on your Steem Board and compare to others on the Steem Ranking
If you no longer want to receive notifications, reply to this comment with the word
STOPVote for @Steemitboard as a witness to get one more award and increased upvotes!
Thank you very much, @curie.
Posted using Partiko Android