I've been following this saga of your accident through the work I do for our Discord group as you know. I've been afraid to ask, since I think I already know the answer. This car that was wrecked ... it wasn't your lovely brand new car you managed to buy with crypto (without letting the word crypto enter the negotiations) ... is it? (I just haven't been able to even stand that idea after all you went through to find it.)

I'm so glad you are alive. And I hope you can say for sure you're ok ... at least "considering." I remember the couple of accidents I've been in ... and it takes weeks, sometimes longer, before the "intrusion" stops. (It's like flashbacks ... but much more constant. Every time you stop doing something that keeps your brain fully occupied, you're right back in the crisis ... reliving it again and again.)

The psychology of trauma is itself fascinating. But you have to live it to really appreciate all the things they teach about it in academics. The intrusion, the sense of dissociation, the constant fear that it's going to happen again, trying to own the experience and become used to the fact that it was real, it really happened ... and is now a part of who you have become.

Please be careful. Please take special care of yourself. Please know that you won't be completely "ok" emotionally / psychologically / physically for quite a while. It's not something you can just decree ... or rush.