Hey Axios, thanks so much for sharing that experience and insight. You always come out with inspiring content. I'm glad I followed you!
Firstly, I'm sorry about your grandfather. You didn't mention whether you were close to him but it's always hard to lose a family member and I'm sorry for your loss.
As for the situation, you had a really interesting approach. I also tend to avoid dynamic social situations as I'm better with smaller groups and one-on-one meetings. I rarely open a conversation with anyone at parties or family events. Your video has made me realise how much I tend to passively wait for people to come to me, meaning that I allow myself to be moulded by the situation rather than being an active participant and contributing to shape the group dynamics myself. I can see how making the effort to talk to people would give you a rush of energy in return, as I'm sure that's how I react (giving energy back) when people make the effort to talk to me. Lots of food for thought here!
Just one question - do you think that it's sustainable in the long term to go against your natural impulses like that? I mean it seems almost like taking a cold shower. The water is totally repulsive and scary until you're in there, then it's invigorating, but it's hard to take that first plunge. But once you do, it's a positive cycle.... Maybe I answered my own question there. :D