Wedding Anniversary.

Today, is our 4th wedding anniversary.
We are blessed with a boy, and another bun in the oven - it would be 6weeks today.

Woke up feeling good, the spotting has stopped. Would really love to go out but we decided to stay home since it's drizzling all day long. Decided to cook some simple dinner for the husband, to celebrate a little. and spotting came back after half an hour. i guess i have to stick to bed again.

I am really grateful that during this tough time, my mother-in-law is willing to help out especially with my toddler at home as he is constantly very, very active.

Going back to gynae for review in 4 days time. Hopefully we'll manage to catch some really strong heartbeats. I've bled twice in the past one week, i've cried myself to sleep few times. It's so difficult. It's like i know the baby is there but i am not sure if it would stick through. I am not sure if i am able to let go if it decided not to stay. I am not sure if it is okay to feel okay. This tiny little life in me, i wish you could be strong, for yourself, and for us.

Sorry for rumbling. I just need a space to let it all out.