Once again thank you so much for the comment. If I could I would send you a freshly baked loaf of South African sourdough bread! Yes what you said makes sense and I can relate. I want to start a small bakery and in a sense "struggle" through it to make it a success. I want to earn it. Maybe that can also be an explanation? Some people, like the "rich kids", feel they don't earn it so they don't want it, so they break themselves down in order to be at the bottom and then work from the bottom up. But drug and drink doesn't just break you down to the bottom, but it hurts your inner self and you may never get back.
There are so much one can talk about this! If you ever come to Cape Town pop a message or something and we can further this awesome discussion over a cup of coffee and some bread! Thanks again.