Thank you for reading and caring @dfinney. It's a hard time right now, but, the hardest part is finally coming to terms with the idea that she can't actually love another person, even her immediate family. that it was just an act this whole time. I will be making another post today - God willing and the creek don't rise - because I am meeting with my therapist this afternoon, and I need to take a very bold step. but it's gonna be hard.