The story of my creation

The story of my creation

In a conscious without shape or form, without definition or limits, existence was of pure altruism, it was eternal. No thoughts conflicting with each other nor the concept of self was yet known, no space nor time had yet past by. The consciousness with so much affection to spare, manifested within it self, without separation, units of individuality, each capable of receiving endless affection, but still, they were all one.

Infinite love streamed to the creations and while being created out of pure altruism, the young souls, kept no love for them self. The souls received love only for the sake of the creator, otherwise they would not be loving and altruistic creations, and such was His way, no other was known. Pure love was reverberating with totally unity, but the consciousness knew, there was something lacking in His creation, the souls they did not chose to live in love and altruism by free will, it was merely forced upon them and no means to question the existence was ever given. They did not decide to be part of the eternal consciousness, they just were.

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To create free will the conscious knew, It´s creations must be such that they are opposite to altruism, an sense of self they need, egoism it shall be. He tasked the souls to create on their own, a perspective or consciousnesses that could receive their love, just like they did, but for its own sake, as was its purpose.

This took a long time tho, since material existence and the existence of lower a consciousness requires time, this was the first thing they imagined, a beginning of egoism. They imagined something that could only receive and their vision it became a rock in empty space, dark and cold, so lonely it sat, the most simple of consciousness. They loved this creation for His sake, they knew no other way. They felt the rock so cold and dark and wished light upon the rock, tho they loved it so much. The warm rock, a perspective of only receiving, was naked and hot, so they turned it blue, turned it green, cooling it ever so slowly.

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The imagination of receiving, the ego, enjoyed its perspective, basking in the loving nature and the souls felt that they gave love back to the creator by loving the creation, there was no other way. The creator lowered a veil between souls and their creations, so the creations where blind. The lower consciousnesses could no longer be guided by love, only experience reality for its own sake.

The imagination evolved given all love and nourish it could ever need.
A creation of pure egoism only striving to fulfill every simple need, perfect in all its purpose, self aware and capable of thinking, yes, it even thinks it has free will, even though only ever being a simple thought. At first the lower perspective or lower consciousness knew that it were merely an imagination by the souls, part of infinite love and consciousness but to promote free will the veil would fast make them forget.

And so the ego forgot that it was ever just an idea, thou the surrounding beauty was completely overwhelming and the power of creation blinded them. The souls watched their creations, create their own vision of existence.

The ego grew, and so did its conscious and self image, eventually human, and it started to question its origin, was it just a coincidence ? could existence just be spontaneous and life a random coincidence ? are we simply flesh and meat cast away on this lonely spec in the wast universe ?

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The creator watched his souls love the creations as he loved the souls but the creations did not love back, simply satisfying every need, painting a picture for themselves, where they own the existence and rule supreme over all their manifested ideas. The ego is alone, living in its perspective of self, cut off from consciousness. The thoughts of mine seems so real, they must be ME the ego though and by time this was all that was left, but the creator knew this was perfect and it was as must be.

The cycle was cut off, at first creator and creations loved for the sake of each other, but now the love of the souls are directed towards the ego, and stays there. It is our obligation to complete this cycle and let love stream back towards our souls and thereby our creator.
(If you need a place to start, I recently wrote about step 1 in overcoming the egoistic mind it might help you.)

He knew that now, free will might finally be created and my creations might choose to return home not because i put them there, because they want nothing else. They will, by time come to see, that all their manifested egoistic thoughts only brings pain and suffering. They will gather gold and knowledge, manifest will their greed, until it them burdens and sickens. They will work hard, gather material possessions and power until it suffocates them.
They will come to hate each other for competing for the finite power and money in existence.

The ego grew and grew, billions of units all blindly satisfying every need, always seeking the path of least resistance, were born on the beautiful rock. The ego will keep growing and all living under its rule will suffer endlessly.

But at last, they will turn to hate the profound incapacity of one and another to care for each other, and they will ask for more, ask for purpose, to be reminded of what they once forgot. The ego will drive them to their bare knees crying for love, purpose, unity… anything real.
When we slowly turn ever more altruistic, due to asking Him for the possibility, the veil will let His light through and consciousness will shine through or eyes and love radiate from our hearts in ever increasing amounts.

This will inevitably unite individuality and free will with our souls and let unity dwell beside our creator once again, but now, out of free will. Without free will we might go to war over politics or money, since free will also comes with an moral compass that must be followed in order to keep the free will. Without this compass the ego can manipulate us into justifying anything, murder for ideologies, profoundly inhumane acts.

We must be true to our innermost self, or the ego will once again rule.

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Here I stand

With the desperate hate of one's ego tho it is our nature, and with the insight of being incapable of giving or loving I stand trapped in my body, or rather mind, and my heart aces and pounds.

I feel crippled by my incapacity to act for others sake, I thirst for altruism, I beg the creator for the power to overcome my ego, turn away from my thoughts and simply be, let love flow into the universe.
I want so badly to convey this message to everyone that it hurts, Remember what you are.

My heart aches for all of humanity, for our incapacity to love one another, our incapacity to take responsibility for what we create by our thoughts and ideas, we are merely the result of them.
We all ask for money, health and power while deceiving yourself into believing that we care for one another, simply to feel good, not to be in conflict with our own thoughts. We are slaves under our ego not knowing better, patting it gently to sleep every day.

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We must turn inwards for answers, no one can guide us on this journey no one can help you realize what you are. No science will ever, and I mean ever prove anything helpful on this journey, neither will it show you the road. No religion have the answer, perhaps some of them could guide you away from your egoistic desires, or guide you towards faith, mind over matter, and if so, be sure to listen, listen with your heart.

Once you stop thinking and start existing all the answers will come, truly look inwards with no expectations or idea of self and I promise you, everything shall be revealed.

We are part of infinite altruism, of pure love, created in its opposite to force free will into the creation, we are perfectly defect, driven by the ultimate purpose, Immoral travelers.

Start living and loving for the sake of life and of love itself and you shall be free.

Awakening or suffering are the only paths, be you immortal self

Eternal, without fear.