As I read through the post I couldn't help but think that you are indeed "living the dream" my friend. You should simply enjoy the fruits of the hard work you have put in all these years. After all, you've earned it! 😊

What I read here clearly echoes that there is no end to what one desires for, but that does not mean that one stops desiring! Perhaps one can never stop desiring; not until "time" gets the better of us. 🙊

I like to think that may be now that you have achieved what you had always desired (or thought you did), you are simply desiring for something more! And this time, that "something more" can be anything- simply unadulterated by the confines of the society's beliefs. This my dear friend is a good place to be. One that of self-discovery catering to nothing but your own "true" self!

I for one would think of replacing "suffering" with "enjoying", because when you put it that way, it seems as though you did everything only for the fruit (favorable outcome). And when the emphasis is on the outcome the odds are always 50-50. But if one truly enjoys what one does, no matter the outcome one is always at bliss.

It was great reading your post as it also made me think about the life I am living. Thank you for sharing! Wishing you the best for the wonderful journey that you have just embarked upon.👍

PS: We've already met, but you may not remember me. Perhaps, the next time we meet we'll have A LOT to talk about!✌