RE: Zen and the Art of Not Giving a F#ck
Holy Fuck, McFuckeroo.. you hit every fucking point in my life for the past 4 years dude...
Let me share this video with you that I posted 4 years ago.. almost to the day well a month off... My grandma, who I was very close to... was dying of leukemia and we as a family were preparing for her passing.
This was a couple months after I just wrapped up shooting my first BIG film production B.O.O.S.T.
To come back home and tell my grandma how fun it was and celebrate how big of a leap my career had taken was a blessing.. but it also hurt the moment she asked when she could see it. Post production was going to take a year at least and the film wouldn't be fully ready for a year and a half... We were already planning her funeral.
So I made this video as a message to myself.. and maybe it was also a message to all my friends and family. This message pretty much said.. FUCK EVERYBODY.. FUCK GOD, CANCER AND ANYBODY WHO DOUBTED ME. My Grandma is about to pass and when she does... I'm going to focus on ME and it will be my form of grieving.. SO I DID, here we are 4 years later. I'm on a hit TV show.. exactly what you wrote @the-alien
The past 4 years have been ugly and brutal.. I've shut myself off from everybody and started producing videos as if it were a drug.. Just look at my Youtube page and see how active I became this time, 4 years ago.. compare it with my IMDB page and you will see the correlation of success I have experienced since that time... Thanks for posting this. I needed a reminder and considering the fact that my sons grandpa just passed away this past weekend.. This kinda seems like I was meant to read this as a message from somebody up above.
Here is a video montage I made of my Grandma Eva for her funeral that shows a beautiful life and how much she influenced my choices up to and after her passing.
First of all I'm really sorry for your Grandma man! I"m sure she loved you as much as you love her or more.
The second thing is wow man! That was like synchronicity. It is what it is, over the top? Maybe but I don't care. Spot on!
I will make sure to follow your Youtube channel and see what you're up to on Imdb. I wish you all the luck, and I'm sure that you'll make it!
Embrace it!
You got this man!
Thank you for the condolences but I feel like my Grandma has really helped me beyond her lifetime and has influenced a lot of positive things my way.
WOWZA... here you go, for reference
My IMDB - WALLACE CARRANZA
That's pretty cool - the videos I mean. Sorry to hear about your grandmother passing. Must be weird to see her as a little girl in the montage.
Thanks @thecryptofiend for the condolences and everything else.. but as I mention above.. you can compare the times from 4 years ago on my IMDB and see how my career has sky rocket to where I am now as a Professional actor and filmmaker.
I shut myself off and pretty much said FUCK YOU TO EVERYBODY in my life.. Focused on me and taking care of my son. It's all in my Youtube and IMDB.. the videos I added above were only the beginning of EVERYTHING I have accomplished since. CRAZY, huh?
Makes sense though given what we have been talking about. I'm glad it worked for you.
Dude, it's crazy reading what seems like a review of your life... I just shared this post of yours on my facebook @the-alien lol.. I'll probably regret it later.. BUT IDGAF
I haven't been too active on there anyway because I've been making good shit on here.. getting better, working on my craft as a filmmaker and using that to influence my acting, HAH
all I gotta say is.. if you ain't following me already... YOUR MISSING OUT on some epic shxx I have up in this crazy brain.