RE: The Story Of My Lifelong Struggle With Anxiety And Panic Disorders
Thank you for being so open and honest about your anxiety and depression. I've had bouts of depression where I could barely get out of bed and no motivation to even take a shower. A SHOWER! I've been blessed enough not to have to take medication at this point because I've released many negative people from my life. I rarely watch TV so I'm not bombarded with bad news. I make sure I step outside and find something - anything - to appreciate in nature. But I've always said that I have a broken brain and that I didn't fit in. It wasn't until I was in my 30s when I was assessed with Asperger's. That knowledge changed my life for the better. I still fight anxiety and depression. I know when I've had too much. But instead of focusing my attention on it, I remove myself to a quiet place. Most people think I'm "cured". I'll never be cured but I've learned to cope.
You have strength in the telling of your story and I hope you will eventually find peace for your volatile mind. Keep writing. Keep sharing. I truly believe the more we talk about it, the less power it has within us.
I really never had depression that bad, but my brother did. Sometimes im glad that I deal with anxiety rather than depression, but sometimes im not sure. I rarely watch tv too but with reddit and other social media I definitely see my fair share of the worse parts of the world. I have some coping methods, there are a few movies and music that makes me extremely calm and can take me out of a panic attack. I would have never gotten through my time period of having anxiety attacks just while laying in bed if it werent for Hayao Miyazaki. I must have watched one of his movies, mostly spirited away every other day for months. The soundtracks and animation produced such a calming experience for me. Thanks for all the advice, I really am appreciative that people in a different state or country that dont even know me, care.