RE: The Travel That Saved and Changed My Life
@gillianpearce,
It's sometimes difficult reaching out because we don't want to sound vulnerable. I've had this moment where I fought everything with all I have while constantly listening to those horrible thoughts.
I promise to myself and trying my best to get out of the situation. Anyway steemit has always been part of my self development journey.
I wrote a lot about it and it's the medium for me to cope from time to time.
It's so refreshing to see I am fighting for what's left while sometimes I've had my horrible moments.
Just like what you've written.
Sometimes I forgot and everything felt black and pointless again.
But little by little I got better at not thinking and thinking until now I rarely go to that really dark place. And if I do it's not for long.
You're an inspiration to me and thank you for saying that. It means alot and that I know, I am never alone fighting this battle.
Yes. You're right @maccchiata, reaching out is the last thing I wanted to do when I was feeling depressed. Why would you want to share yourself with others when you feel so crap about yourself?
It's a balance I think. And we get very good at going through the motions and hiding what's on the inside.
But again I learned to leave myself alone and judge less and just remind myself that I had a whole load of unhelpful thinking going on and that is all it was - unhelpful thinking. It wasn't the truth about me and I didn't need to think about the truth about me. I just needed not to go down the rabbit hole, weather the storm and remind myself that it would eventually pass. 😍