RE: The Travel That Saved and Changed My Life
Glad to hear you found joanne and aaron @macchiata and glad you listened to the little voice that told you you might as well go to the airport and get on the plane.
I suffered from clinical depression for years and what changed everything for me was when I stopped trying to work it out or understand it.
I noticed that I wasn't 100% depressed 100% of the day even though it felt that way. But I notice there were little gaps in the depression when I was distracted from thinking about it.
I did my best to stop thinking and thinking and just kept reminding myself that no matter how bad it felt, it would pass.
Sometimes that was easier than others.
Sometimes I forgot and everything felt black and pointless again.
But little by little I got better at not thinking and thinking until now I rarely go to that really dark place. And if I do it's not for long.
Hope you have another good day today! 😍
@gillianpearce,
It's sometimes difficult reaching out because we don't want to sound vulnerable. I've had this moment where I fought everything with all I have while constantly listening to those horrible thoughts.
I promise to myself and trying my best to get out of the situation. Anyway steemit has always been part of my self development journey.
I wrote a lot about it and it's the medium for me to cope from time to time.
It's so refreshing to see I am fighting for what's left while sometimes I've had my horrible moments.
Just like what you've written.
You're an inspiration to me and thank you for saying that. It means alot and that I know, I am never alone fighting this battle.
Yes. You're right @maccchiata, reaching out is the last thing I wanted to do when I was feeling depressed. Why would you want to share yourself with others when you feel so crap about yourself?
It's a balance I think. And we get very good at going through the motions and hiding what's on the inside.
But again I learned to leave myself alone and judge less and just remind myself that I had a whole load of unhelpful thinking going on and that is all it was - unhelpful thinking. It wasn't the truth about me and I didn't need to think about the truth about me. I just needed not to go down the rabbit hole, weather the storm and remind myself that it would eventually pass. 😍