I made it! Day 55 of Sobriety. Yesterday was about perseverance as it was one of the roughest days in regard to cravings I've had yet. My personal emotions were all over the board. I feel like a child getting to know myself at times. When you are an Alcoholic you don't deal with your emotions and in return become emotionally immature. Relearning my emotions has been one of the hardest parts of sobriety.

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How's that for a kick in the groin. Referring to yourself and immature in the same sentence. Damn, the truth stings sometimes.

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Today I spent the day reading about emotional intelligence. I don't feel like I am completely inept in knowing what I am feeling, but it's how to deal with these feelings that I am not good at. Most of the time I just shut down. I do wonder if this is a result of my abusive childhood coupled with war in my early twenties. (No, I'm not trying to dwell in the past and blame all my current problems on those experiences). However, I do feel the learned behavior of shutting down to help block out or deal with negative situations has followed me throughout adulthood. This is an admitted issue I know I need to work on. I need to develop stronger, healthier techniques to deal with PTSD, past childhood trauma, and current emotional endeavors encountered in everyday life. I believe admitting this is a sign of growth.

One of the things I try to do is teach my children how to handle their emotions. I ask them all the time "Describe to me what you are feeling", "How do you think you should handle this feeling?". It is truly strange when you know how to help someone else, but are still learning how to help yourself in the same realm of life! Life can be downright strange at times.

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Today, my wife called from work and asked if she could "take(me) on a date". It's honestly been a while since we went on a date. We usually always do things as a family and rarely make time for just the two of us. I'm not complaining, it's just the reality of how we are as parents.

I am looking forward to our date. She is always magnificently beautiful on date night. She's always beautiful to me, but on these nights she appears stunningly beautiful. I know she will have on a necklace and earrings that I have given her as a gift, the perfect lite coat of makeup and for some reason; her eyes are always the bluest of blue.

It'll be the perfect way to celebrate 55 days of sobriety.

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