Like I said, you are not alone. But in the worst of times, its easier to talk to strangers, and no one gets that better than me. 2 nights ago, I too poured out all the heartache of the past year on steemit! Even if only two people saw it, it helped immensely. There was so much pain in my heart that I couldn't share with those, who are closest to me and just putting those feelings into words helped. If you ever need a friend who you can rant to, just drop a line! Hope you have a great day ahead!