Thank you very much @fuchsia.ink. I am really very grateful for your support. It's true sometimes just unloading on to a stranger is maybe the best way. I just feel weird doing it. I have such great support at home generally.
However today I knew was going to be that bit harder sitting with nothing but my own company which can be a death sentence for my emotions. But things are starting to improve a bit even if I feel exhausted.

The same goes for you and anyone else reading this, I am always here for anyone who wants to vent or needs an ear to listen.